Its the final IDOL showdown!!

oh yeah, its FINALLY here...
the Singapore Idol showdown at the S'pore Indoor Staduim.
Who's gonna emerge as the ultimate S'pore idol n proudly represent S'pore in World Idol??
"is it Taufik or Sly??" tts the common qn ask
alot of publicity as well
SP has been doing really well supporting Taufik, tts great. He hv to win this.

Its sad today cos 2 pple left the company. Esli n suprisingly, Anneline left too. The office employee turnover rate seems to be high. But oh well, tts the tourism industry.
Tmr, its a new beginning for all 3 of us.
I think its gonna be hectic n busy cos they're gone. Oh dear, im afraid now cos we're inexperienced. Lets jus see how the day goes.....

I need to go hm early tmr to catch IDOL... no matter wat. I have to watch it. Im rooting for Taufik n im gonna vote for him. Im all excited to see his performance cos he's said "expect nothing but the best fm me" and "im gonna give more than 100%"....
ohhhh wow... cant wait...
I really hope S'pore will vote for talent n a good representative for S'pore!!

Cheers Taufik!!!
Im all behind u....

--**iZaNiLiCioUs**-- 

some work stuff

hmmm today's the start of week 3.
ok, time flies so quickly. tts great. im aint complaining.
oh btw, the accountant, mandy, said the cheque has been processed so i will be receivin my half mth cheque by tmr. yay!! but i cant spent, need it for hp bill n lunch.

Its a small company. i think i get used to everybody. i aint shy to take anything i want. im the one who will fully utilise the office stationery n facilities. Haha!

Meg is my in-charge cos i be under her till end of this mth. [MICE dept]
She's ok. She can be quite stress at times. She seem to know her stuffs really well, she really cant remember all the details of every single client she handle.
She can be fussy, picky n expect me to do things quickly but she really is a nice lady. Most of the time, i be free, so i help others or surf the net for ideas.
currently,my job now requires alot of creativity as i am to come up with new unique tours.

Sabrina, my supervisor. also senior executive. [Tarriff dept] She's ok. Gosh, she's the expert man. Heard she worked more than 10 yrs. She does things so promptly. Though i dun fancy her bout late dismissal. i do find her alright.
Momo n val always had lunch wif her, i also hear complains fm them nt wanting to eat wif her. today's the first time we all had lunch together. it went fine. we chatted alot. Haiz... jus leave it to the expert, everything will go fine with me ard. Hahaha

Esli, the only malay staff in the office. [Inbound, FIT dept] She worked for 2mths but resigning this wed cos of late dismissal n low salary. She's my lunch kaki man! sob sob.. so sad she's leaving. i like her... i can relate to her. i hope she'll get a better job soon. We're same age but she grad earlier cos i was in sec5, im 1 yr slower. Btw, her bf in ns same as Ir but diff co. dun think they know each other. her ITP was in bird park, she knew most of my senior who was attached there last time. Small world huh!! She doesnt like Sabrina n esp Anneline.

Anneline, a part-timer, also a french grad. [Inbound, FIT dept] Yup, she speaks french cos she studied in France for 3 yrs. I heard she been offered a full time job. i find her rather fierce but she's ok. Can be irritating at times but its a stressful job, everyone will be irritatin i believe.

Mandy, cute petite bubbly gal [Accountant]. i really like her. im only 2cm taller than her. She got this cute giggles n always helps when help is needed. Only had lunch wif her twice. She's nice. She will keep saying " u very pretty le...", "today going out wif bf ah", "u very cute le.. (den she giggles)", "i dun want to look old, i want to look young", "eh.. where u buy this top?" hahaha. she's cute but she sometimes looks at me too much, abit weird la but im fine wif tt.

Valerie, i dun talk to her tt much yet but she always dun go for lunch.[MICE dept] She's quite sporty in her dressings. Very polite too cos she always say "thank you' to me when i handed her some documents though she's busy wif work. Yah im always retrieving n distributing faxes n printed paper cos i got nothin to do most of the time.

Siew Lian, another quiet person. [Accountant] Dun really talk to her. Heard she's gd fren wif Sabrina n had worked for long time too. Nothin much to say bout her la. Oh btw, she was fm SP too but she's 26 now.

David, funny man. He's the only man in the office but he has the highest post cos he's the GM. [All dept] always joking ard n disturbing me, dun have tt intidimating GM feeling with him. We get along fine. Oh btw, his desk beside me only. Hahaha. He always ask Momo to find him files. Hahaha poor momo!! but she's good at it.

Janet Tan-Collis [CEO]. She's friendly but she can be really serious if things r not done properly. Even Sabrina who worked for 10 yrs r not spared. wat can i say she's the boss!! I think she likes me. She smiles at me all the time but im nt saying she doesnt smile at other pple la. She put her arms on my shoulder twice and she kept asking Sabrina to teach me new things. She likes to joke ard wif me as well. Well, she's now in Spain n will be back soon. Gosh her trip costs over $9000. Wow. might as well increase my allowance, it doesnt hurt rite??

Monica aka Momo. [SP student] Hahaha... she has the biggest desk amongst us at first but she's downgraded with a new extended table wif no PC, no phone and only a stool. Recently, she sat right beside me. Tts great cos there's always someone i can talk to, so not as stressful. But i had share PC wif her.

Valentina. [SP student] She has the longest name in the office. Hahaha. She sat the desk beside me. We're only separated by some dividers. She's stressed all the time cos got alot of work to be done n her stupid PC is super lagging. She always ask, "azizan, u hv anythin to do? can i use ur PC" Val now hold huge responsibility cos she's the only one under Esli, so when she left, Val had to teach us all n be incharge of it.

n of cos, there's me.

Azizan Samsuar.
im ok wif everyone. No one i dun like yet. i think Momo made me "the one who eats alot in the office". Haha.. its true, i do eat alot. Haha...

Last Sat, i decorated the christmas tree. Its nice. I like it... so pretty n cute.
I hadnt update my log book or did my proj yet. I better hurry.

time off plz!!

i very tired... really really tired.

Look at me now... im drained!!

i have zits popping up on my face n scars on face(due to me pressin them!)

i had dark eye rings n eye bags

i look awful...

everyday i woke up ard 6am to 7am while i only slept at ard aft midnight.
my body is so so so so TIRED!!
my skin is dehydratin n my outlook is damaging.
im able to keep up with everythin cos i've been eating... eating alot. so tts y i do hv all the energy i need.
i fed myself with fastfood for lunch n dinner everyday cos its convenient, nice and affordable. The foodcourts ard my workplace area r so ex n not much choice for muslims. Poor me!!
my health is detoriating... help me!! help me...

now im stressed with work everyday cos it really is a stressful job...

my body system doesnt seem to react well with the food i consume

i have sleeping deficiency, lack of exercise, lack of LIFE!!

i want my friends... i miss them all

i want time... i want time out...

my weekends seems to fly so fast!!

its like i only spend mere 5hrs when i hv 48hrs. haiz....

i drag myself throughout the whole week for my long awaited weekends n its gone so fast..

Sat::

Ended work ard 2pm. meet Ir, had lunch n snacks.. He's super nice he treat me anythin i want, n damn i eat alot!! tts cos he promised to give me treat if i at least got a B for exams. i eat alot, im too lazy to mention them all. Den i was searching ard the 5 Delifrance branches for mushroom soup, but they're all cream of carrot! Yuck!! i had other things other than the soup, but later had minestrone soup when we're in tamp. Aft tt go train station to buy tix for trip to KL, in de end we bought the siting ones instead of the sleepin deck in an attempt to save money n cos i want to be able to know he's beside me throughout the journey.

well train tix settled!! BUT, one prob: he hasnt applied for exit permit yet n we're going this weekend n he cant book-out till then!!! Haiz i dunno bout this, i think i be going there alone... sob sob.. nvm, im an independent individual.

we went for dinner n supper n snackin again... im jus glad to spend time with him, n it really does put a certain glow n smile on my face, it also boost my appetite.. hahhaa

i doesnt really matter if we did nothing else except eating n dining together, jus being out with him is satisfying n fulfilling.

Sun::

woke up early as well. gosh its my only day off to wake up late but i wasnt given tt chance!!

early morning mum was already nagging... even at 8am. haiz..

had to help her go market run errands n clean up the mess she made in the kitchen.

my house in a mess too! haiz... it jus give me a headache.

y do i hv to feel stressed even at hm??? my only time when i dun feel destressed is when i lie on my bed or sit ard watchin tv or when im in the loving arms n care of my beloved Amir Hamzah.

went out raya with my sec sch frens at 11.30am... though i had a tiff with them earlier, things went on fine.

so pple hasnt changed abit. the guys r still as childish n gals still also the same. Jus stay the same guys!!

its been 9 years together n i love them all though the guys do gets on my nerves.

wow... we're like 20 but we're still do get money m some of the houses. Great!!

the coach we hired was great, the driver blasted music so loud n they all were singging out loud like jabironies!! haha.. crazy pple... we went to 20 houses in total cos our houses all in the east area, furtherest was Marine parade n sengkang only. Den almost every house eat.. haiz.. its nt tt we only spend like 15mins per house, we really do spend quite some time at every hse. so 20 was cool, the driver is really skilled n fast. each only paid $12.50. worth it.

i went hm sleepin immediately, without removing my make-up. but tts like a normal thingy already cos been doin tt ever since i got myself so tired. Now, this is bad... bad bad bad for my skin. even i the morning, i dun hv time to clear the make-up, i jus wash them n go to work..

im suffering guys i really am.

dun look at me like im nt stressed cos i may nt look like i am but i truly do.

...im tired...

EXAM RESULTS

muahahhahahha....

wahhahhahaa

wakakkakakakaa

hehehhehee...

hey hey hey!!! ohhhhhh weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!
wasuup peeps!!
i got my exam results n i pass them all!
oh yeah baby... though result nt as good but its very VERY satisfying!!
oh well.. i didnt put in my best efforts in this exams but its ok, im proud of myself for putting minimal efforts yet i still can pass. Imagine if i were to put in effort huh?? wahahaha... but NO REGRETS!!
this only proof one thing: dun slug urself n study TOO much!!
come on man, WATS THE POINT??? u can still pass wat... wahhahhaha
yah so im happy... im so happy... happy happy happy... im promoted! yeah baby... yeeehaaaaaah!!

here's my result:
[like i said, nt gd but full of satisfaction!! im great right!! wahahaha yeah rite!! haha]

TOURISM & HOSPITALITY LAW B

CONVENTION MANAGEMENT C

WEB PUBLISHING C

TRAVEL AGENCY MANAGEMENT C+

FINANCIAL MANAGEMENT D+

GLOBAL BUSINESS ENVIRONMENT D+

Lots of free time at work today but still ended late!

so ok.. now im progressing.. been coming on time these days! im happy.

oh btw, i been posted to my original dept which is the MICE dept. hmm interesting but Meg wont let me handle the complex part of the job. I did mostly paperwork, scanning thru the address of MICE comapanies ard the world for the upcoming project held in Spore.

i basically had nothin to do most of the time... so i'll surf net to plan for my trip to KL n help Monica n Valentina with their work. So most of the time, im always photocopyin papers, stampin received fax n filing. Today, i made a trip to North Bridge Centre n lost my way.. I ended up at Calton Hotel instead! Oh gosh!! but i got there at last cos of my gut feeling n asking 2 persons 4 direction along the way. Had alot of fun, choosing the diff shades of quality white paper. I never took notice of the different types of white paper, so now i know! there's many types of white paper: natural, matt, glossy n the rest i dunno how to spell. Haha. There's also diff thickness n textures!! so much to choose for jus white paper!!
First time i went i bought 4 diff samples of A4 paper, second time 3 samples of diff A3 paper. Tmr i had to come down again to buy about 80 sheet of the choosen A3 paper. it all weighs about 13kg!!!!! i wonder how am i supposed to carry them on my own tmr. Office is quite a distant!! Sad thing is, i im still dismissed late. Y? Ask my supervisor la.

oh today, someone brought her baby to office n bought cakes for everyone in the office!!( she's fm the parent co. so i dunno her. East West is only a minor shareholder of IMC) OMG tts like 100 boxes of cakes with 10 slices in each box. Siao!! we still hv 2 more boxes not eaten in our office alone, dunno bout other offices.

Had Delifrances 4 lunch. Carrot soup sux!! well i know it will sux but i still buy a meal(Delipotato, my fav!!) cos i wanted to try how it tasted like. The colur itself looks funny, its bright yellow in colour with shredded carrot. So colourful n attractive but doesnt taste gd! I WONT BE EATING CARROT SOUP AGAIN TTS FOR SURE!! i had LJS fish wrap 4 dinner n some tarts. So fillin n fattening. Been eating alot lately, mostly junk food n snacking all the time. craved for choc these days so i pamper mysellf with sinful indulgence of choc!! yum yum. totali know its coming. Im jus waiting......

spent alot today!! $15 in total. Haiz i go bankrupt if everyday spend like tt!! nvm, now i still can afford cos still got $$ left fm Hari raya. Soon, i'll hv to be careful with wat i spent cos i be on my own. Train n bus expense, lunch expense, hp bills n clothes expenses... haiz so much expenses, how to even save??

oh btw, im going KL soon... im going wif Ir. very excited to go cos im planning it. Been doing alot of research on KL. Been calling hotels, train station(KTM), VIP coaches n etc. i still cant decide to take train or coach there! train is more ex n slower but its worth the experience n no traffic jams. so ex $80 for return trip.
oh btw, im goin soon. im staying at Corus hotel, yes its 5-star hotel!! its conveniently located at city centre n 5mins walk to Petrona Twin Towers/Suria KLCC. wow wow wow, 1 day of shopping spree n pampering man!! n my rooms r comfirmed, n im gonna book aeroline VIP coaches with massage chairs once i get to KL. i called malaysia several times. Damn my hp bill will hurt!! Ouch...

i really need to reserve my money for my trip to make it a fruitful n fun one cos i need to spend spend spend in KL... ohhhhh SHOPPING... n ... FOOD... n LUXURIOUS stay... n diff mode of transportation. ohhh great!! im really looking forward!!

Look forward towards a more meaningful day...

Firstly, i wld like to express my thanks for those who cared for me about my ITP... yy, ven, baggio, dad, amir n etc. Yeah im holding on.. will really try to work hard on it..

Secondly, i got issues controlling my temper n emotions these days. I cant even seem to control my own mind! i know my mind is really tired cos of sleeping deficiency n too much concerntration of work.. i think i really need some time off.
Been whiny the past few days... been unreasonable to Ir today as well.. haiz.. i dunno y but cant sem to control my temper, i keep getting angry at him for the slightest mistake. Keep scolding n scolding.. luckily, he's really patient with me n jus endure all my mood-swings n ridiculous behaviour. I kept raising my voice at him n easily get irritated n pissed. Poor guy!! im so sorry baby.

Thirdly, i cant control my own mind. Yup its hard! i keep thinkin of unnecessary stuff. I keep thinking tt Amir dun love me anymore. Then keep crying over this. I also had several bad dreams of us being on bad terms. So tt's more reasons to think about n cry over. My mind going in circles. actually its jus me! Come on la, the guy is in NS of cos he got no time for me...
Can control my emotions... keep crying... haiz... keep making matters worse... i keep creating arguement between us tt werent supposed to exist! Sorry again Baby, didnt mean to create trouble...

i remember the words he said jus now, "Iza, ur tense... calm down ok! *den he massage my shoulder n pat my back* ... i know, i know its coming...." he said tt in a nice, calm voice.

Anyway, today's Sat so its half day. Half day MY FOOT!! i end at 3pm... arrrgghhh... nvm.. dun wish tt to spoil my day...
Yes, yes, YES!!!! I FINALLY GET TO SEE HIM AFTER DAYS OF USELESS CRYING N WORRIES N MISSING HIM!!
was so so happy to meet him! we met at City Link mall den do some window shopping for his snow-cap(cos i wanted him to wear as i know he'll look cuter than his botak head... hehehe) Den had lunch n snacks den we head off to PS to catch Shark Tale.
OMG i love it... so cute, so funny, so entertaining.. Ir loves it too
oh yah, we took pictures, those stickers one! was fun... total of 10 shots, i love all of it but only can chose 4 shots. Its a pity! haiz..we both jus loves taking photos n camera so it was really fun but it cost $9. will upload the pic once i find a scanner.
den go walk dwn orchard n had Delifrance den go hm. He uses my PC to dld songs for his MP3 n his digicam pic. Got pissed at him again, again n again! this time at my hse, he must hv felt embarrased cos my dad was ard...
My cuzzins n relative came over, den they saw his botak head... wahahaha...

Cos Dad was ard, there's no gd-bye hugs n kiss... nvm i had alot of hugs along the way...
A hug may be jus a hug but a hug settle all!! No need for him to say anythin n i instantly feel secure n loved.

My Idol, Work n Some Boys..

...WoW WOW WoW...

like Gurmit always says, "your vote counts!!"

my vote was for Taufiq n has always been him

its all worth it now, cos he's going to the Grand final.

im so happy
but its gonna be tough cos all the other pple who voted for the voted-off idols will vote for Sly.. well well.. no one knows... k i dun wanna criticise Sly cos i adore hi s voice but i dun think he have the makings of an Idol...
Taufiq is much better la, he really can handle all genres!

ok, today my LO came, i wasnt ard. My supervisor complaint bout me being late n she sees tt as a MAJOR issue... WTF...
even if i came late its within 30mins... some more we only started work after morning meeting which only starts at ard 10.00am++
den some more the office is so far away fm mrt station n the office was the last floor of the building lift.. argghhh i could hv came in at 8.30am today but b'cos there's so many pple on the lift, the lift had to stop at every level!!!! argh.. in the end i only reached ard 8.40am. then she condemn me again... WTF...
she sees 8.31am-9.00am as a MAJOR issue when there's practically nothing to do!! WTF den she dun see her late dissmissal as a MAJOR issue ah.. yest knock off at 8.30pm sia. tts so SHITTY la.. tts like 12hrs.. WTF.. i still need 2hrs of travelling time plus some entertainment(TV) n SLEEP!!
WTF.. i do hv a life u know... im not the sort who will be a slave for you.. somemore no extra $$ for tt extra hrs we work.. WTF!!
this is cheap labour.. dirt cheap!! cos our work involves very precise details n hv alot of responsibilities.. u cant afford to slack or do things wrong.. its like focus focus focus!! u better do things fast n right cos you'll receive complains fm both the clients n the suppliers(coach, hotels etc)

oh btw, a bunch of my sis guy friends came over for raya visits!! OMG the r so GATAL!! (flirtatious) its so irritating cos they like disturb2 like tt... so i jus went to my bro room, close the door n use this PC. I can hear them asking my sis bout me. OMG!! Im 20!! Twenty ok... u all adik2 la... (small boys).. haiz tt always happens to me.. y y y??? but they all not so young la ard 16-20yrs i think...
den they all shock when she told them im 20... wahahaha... den they still say its ok.. still can kenal kenal(get to know)..
but the all say i look young, haha, tts a compliment... Thank you.. thank you... *grinning* hehe
den the guy like so persistant so she reveal another information: i hv a boyfriend!! wahahaha... ahhh tts better, i love my sis.. she's protective over me all the time cos she's so straight-forward n direct... tt reminds me on how she shoot down my cuz rosnah's fren who is irritatingly disturbing me.. i love u sis.. i love u NORMALA... muackzzz...
ok ok.. go back to the story... den not only tt... they all(the boys) SELF-SERVICE n took my big albums under my table n look thru my pics... Wah!! ewah ewah!! i wasnt even aware cos im inside... somemore there's a table cloth on the table n a plastic cover den they still lift up the plastic n took my album...
so... they saw my pix, my stupid picx... wahahaha.. den saw my darling too... den they say my Baby look like Achik, a singer fm malaysian band 'Spin'... im like huh?? got resemblence ke? haiz..

well well WELL... this is how we dine for our first Raye meal at home.. yum yum.. wif rendang, sambal goreng, lontong n lodeh, sambal sotong, seronding, black pepper prawn, cake n etc.... yum! 

ah hah!! tts our Hari Raye cake this yr: Chocolate Fudge cake... nice!! i ate more than half of this cake(more than 600g)!! i still prefer the usual Truffle cake we order.. cos tts my fav cake!!  

My FAMILY!!! this yr our colour code: BLACK!! we all look nicer in clothes in reality than in the pix.. 

tts me n my baby sis...  

well... these r my highlights.... kinda orangey but sometimes looks a little blonde or brown... im a chameleon, wat can i say! 

introducing... IZA & IR... k in case u guys dunno, its not a couple t-shirt, its the Surf & Sweat 2004 competition shirt @ Sentosa.. 

wahahaha... azizan makin nasty n disgusted face... 

My rollercoster of emotions...

ended late.. 6.10pm instead of 5.30pm.. haiz too much to be done..
feel al little tired...
tmr we will learn the reservation system... they dun use Amedeus or Abacus(wasted seh learn this for 2 yrs) like we learn in sch, jus some system i dunno... excited but nervous cos later i key-in the wrong info den alot of prob la...

i walk ard suntec mall doin some shopping... bought 2 tops cos if not, i hv nothin to wear already!! haiz.. hv to fork out my own money!! my pay havent even come in, hv to spend alot already.. i intend to buy more tops, cardigants, a pant n a skirt, n a pair of black low-heel shoe, or probably a bag... im in a shopping mood again.. tt mood has long GONE since my bday in oct!! but its back now... muahhahaa...

den at a shoe shop, i saw a Yaz... was jus about to call out his name but i held it back when i saw a lady wif him, so tt must be his gf la.. but i didnt take a close look at her... i divert my focus on the shoes... i acted as if i didnt see him at all... i dunno if he saw me.. even if he do, he wont acknowledge me for fear tt his gf might questioned him about me...
it was a difficult move for me to jus pretend not seeing someone but i dun wish to create chaos for him later cos i know she will fight wif him.
i had a feeling tt he saw me.. but i dunno la... cos immediately after tt, they left the store n i dun even realise them leaving, only get to see their backs..
i had a feeling he saw me but he also avoiding.. haiz... i felt hurted, lost mood for shopping for awhile... my eyes went teary. haiz.. im emotional! i know it seem ok to other pple but it really hurts me to know tt ur fren cant even let other pple know tt u r his fren. i really wonder if he's a fren or jus mere acquintance to me. i understand how Ven feels when she fall out wif her bestfrens. i feel for u galfren!!!
i took some time to calm down.. had McD nugget meal n yumi yogurt.. sit down n go in deep thoughts.. i keep thininkin if im really tt bad tt he cant acknowledge me as fren when we were so close last time. i know the prob lies wif his jealous gf but she hv to know tt i existed... i was doin him a favour. felt really sad.. im a human wif feeling too...
i sms to ask if he's in suntec, turn out he dun even realise i was there but even if he does... i bet it doesnt change the situation.. he wld still ignore me..

i divert my thoughts to Amir... felt alot better at least not so sad... he book-in again yest n went to jungle AGAIN... haiz.. no more night calls... miss him to much.. havent seen my Baby since Thursday.. havent seen him for Raye...

My first day of ITP...

well... its fine...
East West is really a tour operator...
i came early for work today. was proud of myself for waking up early despite sleepin at 1++am. suntec seem rather far fm mrt station... i walk n walk like nvr reached the tower...

did quite alot today.... did filing(so tedious n stressful!)
my table was neat but filled with files... so my table was smaller but its ok...
oh my table was opposite the GM, so i better do work properly.. haha...
jus now i itchy finger go n on the PC when no one ask me to. Den i logged on MSN n friendster... yay!! got internet access but sadly cant go to blogs!!

haiz had 3 meetings today!! no kidding!!
1 intro meeting, 1 morning meeting(task-to-be done-4-de-day) and 1 meeting wif the CEO!! wow!! she's(CEO) so 'speaking', she's like an entreprenuer, lecturer cum mother!! but very nice, loud n friendly lady... in the meeting, she keep asking "u understand wat im saying??"

so today, we had office orientation den all of filing to do... telephone etiquette & protocol, handling fax n copier. haiz so much paperwork...
i also called all the hotels in spore for room availability n reservations...
i was so shocked to know tt fm calls to calls to various hotels, almost all rooms r fully booked fm now to end of dec... i had to ask for alot of negotiation to get the rooms client requested. so complex... still hv to top-up charges for room updates due to overbooking of initial room requested, den there's also a peak season surcharge la blah blah...
after tt, still hv to reply the clients' email or fax... or confirm booking... if client already in spore, hv to give a call to hotel to check if they hv book-in the hotel... so much procedures... n alot of wasting paper... haiz... business pple r like tt, kill the trees only!!

lunch was short though its 1hr.. felt like 30mins... haiz...
was jus thinkin of havin lunch somewhere far... haha

Ramadhan coming to an End

well well.. Ramadhan is coming to end, Syawal is nearing....
its been a mth of fasting...
everythin is jus lovely...
i dunno if other muslims have their own culture but im glad i am a malay
a culture tt still lives till today... pple r still cooking rendang n lontong, baking cookies, cleaning up houses, wearing baju kurungs for raye...
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all muslims ard the world...

Tmr raya, im so happy...
i received a card fm Yanie all the way fm Australia... i miss her sooo much!!
last nite, went out wif Ir... ate alot as usual...
i love being out wif him but i end up eating alot.. sigh.. nvm
ate at Sakura FarEast den walk ard town.. snacking along the way
den meet Rain at Hereen.. we bought Rupe slippers.. ohh so comfy!! mine's pink, ir's lime green.. nice nice.. he bought for me!! yay.. im totally spoilt.. Ir la, he spoils me!! yest, keep asking me wat i want cos he'll buy it for me... but im not takin adv! i jus bought a pair of lovely pink hairclips cos i wanted it n he likes it.. in fact he choose it for me...
His taste getting better now.. "no.. no.. this dun suits u... u need something sweet.. ahhh this one will look great!!" proud of him!!
Later, go As-shalihin to hv supper... wahaha.. eat only... big belly now!
doesnt matter, Baby say its ok... "u look cute this way, i'll love u all the same" awwwwww... aint he sweet? love him alot...

Tonite, i be going Geylang Bazaar again... this time, all the way thru the nite...
So here's the plan..
later after finish cleaning up, i go meet Amir n my friends after break-fast.. go Geylang... den later i'll join mum, dad, sis n maybe bro there... my whole family will be there till ard 4-6am... last min shopping... haiz... we all jus wanna waste $$ on midnite taxi rides!! haha

ok i gtg, mum screaming again... need to go bakery shop to order cake for Raya.. yup its like a tradition in my family, we order cakes(for birthday) on Hari Raya.. jus for fun.. haha...

well... well... this is us after dipping ourselves in the seawater... see wat happen next... [next pix explains.. hehe] 

wahahahaa.... azizan n amir aka IZA & IR going berserk.... had alot of fun taking shots of making funny faces... lol 

mad.. mad .. mad pple... lol 

wahahha... looking stupid 

Time to think...

Firstly, i wld like to apologise to my momma.. sorry mum i still love u!! i jus cant stand u nagging n scolding me all the time, other than tt i love u...

if i were to think back again.... its weird!! no matter how much i hate my mum at a particular time, i would still love her back again.. haiz... though i NEVER get kisses or hugs from her or simply heard her saying "i love u azizan", i know she still have tt tiny bit of care n concern for me.. she may not show it directly but i jus know it.

I know very well tt i am nNOT any of my parents' favourite, but i know im still their child. My bro maybe my mum's fav, my sis maybe my bro's fav but im my bro's n sis's fav!!!! SO WATS THERE TO LOSE!!! wahahaha.... Parents showing favouritism??? nah wont bother me, im used to it! i still receive tremendous love from my darling, Amir Hamzah... good enuff for me!

well to think again, im pretty much the most independent among my siblings!! i started to do housework when i was very very young... i ironed my own uniform & dad's uniform, scrub kitchen floor, fold & hang clothes, washed my shoes & socks n etc at a very young age of seven... yup yup i can still remember me slogging doing work at hm... haiz.. im trained! i study on my own as well.. i dun create problem.
Now, i buy my own stuff.. 90% of everythin i own were bought fm money i saved or by working my ass off! hmmm let's see... i've been a cashier, food server, a salesgal, a surveyor(SATS), flyer distributer and an all-round customer service crew at OJ.... fuhhhhh... im very experienced in interviews u know... been thru alot.. haha..
i've travelled on my own as well... many times!! i love it... i jus got this passion to travel n see the world.. thanks mum for giving me such opportunity to travel.
i got this gift... im good wif directions... i got gd photographic memory, im good at memorising or recognising monuments, buildings or street... i thank God for that! hopefully this can help me go ard a foreign country wif ease....
i have friends, both good n bad. i mixed wif both. im not as innocent, neither am i bad.. jus somewhere in betw... i dun smoke, drink, pierce or club...

so to ponder again, im independent financially and socially....i know how to take care of myself... maybe.. hmmm maybe, tts y my parents dun give me tt much attention! wahahahaa.. maybe only la!! but fat hope, i'll never make it to be a fav in my parents' eyes.... nvm... not impt... iM still the smartest, the brightest, the cheekiest, the most innovative, the creative one, the brain in this family *pause* man tt feels good!! haha... so i earn much respects fm each n everyone of them...
apart fm tt, im also the laziest, the blurr-est, the nonsense one, the shortest in the family...

My family's so weird... we're extreme pple!! when it comes to temper, we loose it all... when it comes to shopping, we spent it all.. when it comes to eatin, we eat it all... when it comes to games, we play it all... fun fun.. we're living in a world of propaganda, we're not rich but we kinda live like one.. haha... weird family but oklah been a great experience.... haiz, i bet no one had ever had a mother so unreasonable as my mum, a dad so blur n 'selekeh', extravagant spender(look at his hp bills n shopping spree) n all-time glam(he had everythin fm head to toe) bro, a slack sis who is so irritattingly weird(she's blur, step, fierce,sweet,rude) but oh so cute..
to my family, i love u guys... ur not perfect but i love u.. esp to my bro n sis.. thanks 4 supporting n backing me up when i got in bad situations wif mom n dad...

ok.. here we r... under the coconut tree... hehe.. we're having picnic cum suntanning... oh yeah.. i need alot of sun!
 

Darn...

im so tired of being called a PIG, yup a pig as in P-I-G!! mum keep calling me n sis tt, esp targeting at me... wtf, im sick of it... its not tt i dun do any housework at all, i do my part most of the time... so who's the pig now?? *rolling eyes* ( i didnt mention who ah... tts not a defamatory remark)

im so sick of being called names... names tt r not nice at all!! names like worthless, stupid, lazy n so on... everyday, i was not able to wake up properly. I would hear screams of my name being called by mum, demamding me to wake up n automatically do work. I hate it, i simply hate it... i know at times i would make situation worser cos of my dun-wanna- lose-attitude, but too bad, tts jus me, so wat if i angered her further?? at least i feel more satisfied!!! i jus want my stand... pple r jus ridiculously unreasonable sometimes... arghhhh...

i seriously am not kidding but i really do housework everyday... i jus feel unappreciated.. really!! i believe some pple dun even hv to lay their precious hands to do any housework!! here i am doing housework without even being paid(not tt im asking to b paid) n my effort r not recognised!! in fact, my mistakes r clearly highlighted!! watever i did wrong or didnt do or forgotten to do, had been headlines... while watever things i do r invisible or forgotten... where's the justice?? arrrgghhh...

hehehe... both of us looking ermmmm... rather stupid.. wahaha... we're on sentosa bus to hit the beach baby!! 

*shock* oh dear... wat happened to this pic??? its black&white!!! arghh we're trapped in the past... lol 

wahahaa... tts my baby... so proud of him for getting his diploma wihout any forward modules... (my grilling n nagging works!! haha) he deserve it.. he worked hard for it... 

Projected Results

Exams r over... its the worst ever.. the slackest, laziest, non-motivational exams ever... seem unimportant to me somehow... *wonders* wahahaha... nvm im so bo chap now... so heck! a diploma is a diploma afterall...
wasnt asking for fantastic result, jus let me pass! no forward modules plz...
aint no time to waste tt extra sem
aint no money to waste on pathetic repeated module(s)

There's my prediction on my results.....

Financial Mmgt - E

Travel & Hospitality Law - C

Convention Mmgt - D

Travel Agency Mmgt - D

Global Business Environment - E

Web Publishing - B

hmmm... i finally am up to go out n hv fun... Exams r over... woohoo... 

sunday... sunday...

Another tiring day…

Jus moments after closing my eyes, I realized its Sunday morning n the sun is up again.. but its only 8am… had to wake up… wau lau.. so tired… I jus sleep at 6am… I dun care!! I sleep till 11am.. wahaha… mum’s yelling can be heard!!

Get ready n off we go to JB… ok ah, was having headache the whole journey.. oh btw, I bought new coloured lenses, Tones. Wanted to try that brand though I always love Freshlook. See now, with tt lenses, I look like a ghost.. so scary!! Hehehe…
N my sis, she torn the lenses cos of her long nails.. ish she only use its twice n it cost $42 mind u!! was so mad at her…

I feel like doing something to my hair… so I highlighted my hair while sis had some hair treatment… I wanted brown streaks but it turn out like aurburn or abit blonde… haiz.. looks like my old hair last time… See now I lost my sweet gal image… haiz..
I look more matured now, wilder.. jus like last time.. I looked more like a sister to my sis now.. well, she’s happy… I dunno if I am…but oklah, looks good..
Ok damn tired now… need to catch some sleep.. dark eye rings getting real bad.. a lot of pimples popping too…

Let's blog 4 Sat..

haiz... i been busy these days... fuhhh damn tired..
ok Saturday:

wow... i had only at total of 5hrs of sleep fm Thur to Fri, so Sat i sleep whole afternoon!! couldnt take it.. was so tired plus im so lazy. Amir was quite angry cos Fri nite i slept while on the phone n i didnt reply any sms or calls cos i was asleep.. haiz... was supposed to meet up at 2pm but in the end meet at 5pm...

well he's ok when we met... i suprised him wif the wallet. Thank God he likes it!! i thank god i got good taste!! hehehe.. *smiles* n oh i gave him the letter too!! those r the gifts from me for our 2nd yr Anniversary... he's so touched n suprised he insist i bought somethin while he pays.. haiz.. stupid boy, im not asking for anythin in return!! But he's so persistent tt i jus bought a top. I simply love my man....
well we went beach road to meet some sp frens aka the Voidz. then go geylang bazaar go walk ard... met alot alot alot alot of pple there... wahahaha... nice nice.. great!! we lepak until so late we had to take cab hm wif midnight charge...
We didnt wanna go hm yet so i ask my mum permission to go hm late.. oh gosh, to my suprise, she allows!!! so we tried to get tickets for midnight movie... hehe
met Rain in the middle of the nite, den he send me, watch vcd at hm n hv sahur then he leaves hm... ahhh.. the day seem so short.. im glad he likes the things i gave him..

amir reading the letter i wrote.....

"iza... u touched my heart... y must u left me in tears"

SG idols results sux!!

well.. SG IDOL's results sux...
hmmm apart from Taufik la.. well he's great, so talented!! if he was voted out, i've got nothin to say already...
So proud of Taufik!! his performance is very consistent!! Even judges agrees!!

i jus feel Daphne should be OUT!!! argghhh.. damn angry rite now... how come a gal wif a whinny voice can get so far!! she cant be an IDOL... so angry... she better dun end up be SG's ultimate idol... sickening... chickmunk voice n no style!! hmph~

Exams finally OVER!!!

yippy......
yes! exams finally over... actually its over on fri... but i hadnt had the time to blog...
ok Friday... wow! i really did stayed out the whole night to finish reading GBE. Well i had 2 iced coffee to make me stay awake... Oh gosh, the paper was tough.. this one im really afraid.. i really dunno how to do them!! its like either u know n score well or u jus fail badly.. im in the latter... gosh.. jus let me pass this one!! i dun wanna repeat, an E would be fine...

after GBE, Jo YY n me went to FarEast Plaza to walk ard.. They went to eat a Jap restaurant, while i sit there like nobody biz cos firstly, it fasting mth n secondly, its non-halal.. but i jus sit ard.. done nothing wrong! i keep worrying bout the paper tt i went thru the ans over n over again haiz, its the last paper but it jus wont but my mind at ease!!!
Later, me n Jo had our eyebrows shaved!! yup i need to shaped it so badly now cos its so messy im so tired of drawin them everyday. N now, wow... my brows r so thin... im not used to it.. but its nice.. cool! Jo had a hair cut too!! wow... she look like SLY!! more like sly's sister... hahaha.. i think im cuzzin Bad look like Sly too...

He called....

yesh!!! after days of waiting.... he finally call!! yup yup... he CALLED.... im so elated.. wow... talk to him for so long.. gosh gosh miss him so much!! i love him... sad to hear tt he injure his hands, told me he got wounds everywhere.. Im damn worried....

haiz... phew... he called... im so happy... but not happy enough.. not yet!! i still need to see him, i still need tt long-awaited hug... haha... im so pampered~ i know im very manja...

okies.. so here's the deal... its already 3.10am now n i still havent even read GBE, dun even mention study or memorise... ahhhhh no time for all these craps... i cant memorise anyway~ So i decided already... im jus gonna read thru.. will try to understand...
i have less than 5hrs... i have stay wake all night(if i can stay awake tt is!) reading away...
GBE is one tough module... i know its impossible to do this for exam, but im defying the impossible... lets see how it goes...

i have a funny feeling im gonna sleep half way thru the night...
well.. i will blog again soon... right after the whole thing is over

im bored... i daydream all the time.. keep goin into deep thoughts unnecessarily n i keep pulling my hair!! muahahaha... i make myself a crazy woman!!~ 

Travel Agency Management: DOWN!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.............................

TAM's done!! gone.. yayay!!
wow... im having difficult times doing the paper jus now.. 10mins reading time got me panicked n stressed! i go "shit.. shit.. shit!" all the way... almost wanted to give up n leave the room cos i seriously dunno how to do them.... but in the end, i didnt cos i wanted to at least write some nonsense there although i knew they're all BULLSHIT!!

after tt, everyone was whining... haha.. seems like most pple agree it is a tough paper!! it really was.. i was expecting it to be alot easier!! but still, despite my nonsense ans, i believe my 'bullshitting' do makes sense afterall... i'll be able to pass this... hmmm... my confidence levels r so high... i keep thinking i'll pass every modules though i know did very badly by jus merely reading notes!

oh G's back in s'pore yest, YY is so happy... i hope their meeting today went well...
its amazing how a simple phonecall fm him gave her so much motivation to do exams... happy for her! my turn next.. cant wait... Saturday plz come quickly.. plz... hehe~

oh jus now went to TM wallet shop, was looking at the semi-leather Billabong wallet... really nice! i like it... i really wanted to get it for him for 2nd yr Anniversary gift, furthermore he needs a wallet!! stupid me go n ask so many qns when i know i dun hv the money to pay for it! it sthe last piece n they wont b ordering anymore stock so i immediately go n reserve it!! see now i got BIG problem!!! i dun hv the money... haiz... must go ask pple to lend me some money!! maybe later ask mum for allowance advancement....

Im so Lonely....

haiz... days have been dull for me...
so mundane..... no excitement.. heavily dependent on TV to keep me entertained!

gosh... I MISS HIM alot... alot alot.. cant stop staring at my hp, anticipating for it to ring. i hate it.. im always daydreaming... i cant stop thinking bout him... I want to at least hear fm him.. a call or simply an sms...
haiz... IM GOING CRAZY!! arggghhh... i keep pullling my hair n indulge myself in food. fuck la.. shit... hate this...

feeling desolated now... feeling neglected... fuck la.. dunno wat im feeling now.. im jus being stupid.. so stupid.. cos i know he's in NS n its compulsory to do this things..
im tired of thinking n thinking of unnecessary stuff.. if only i can divert tt focus to TAM.

i cant study.. cant even read the bloody notes n memorised them... useless!! cant concentrate.. cant focused! tmr TAM paper, i dun even hv a clue how to do it

arggghhh.. urgh... bleargghhh...

im bored... im not studying.. im havin fun taking photos... read abit n zZzZZzzz..... 

Convention Management: DOWN!!

wahahahaa.... 3 down.. 2 more to go... muahaha...*evil laugh*

great... CM was ermm.. hmmm... i dunno.. oklah. Can do the qns la but anyhow hantam.. wahahaha... serve me right ah!! i think i so clever no need to study n memorise.. all i did was reading thru notes n understand it... wahaha.. my ans not based on notes. i created my own answer fm my so-called "common sense or intelligence".. muahahaha

somehow, i feel i can pass this... somehow la... hope the 'feeling' is right!!
but seriously, this 'can pass can oready' attitude n mindset is seriously making me not nervous or stressed at all... i literally read-up for all my exams... n i mean only for exams cos i dun read up notes n worst, dun do tutorials... n not paying attention in lectures! haiz.. i really wonder how i can pass wif such minimal effort!! but i believe miracle do happens!! haha.. lets jus wait n see... *winks*