--**Zany Zany Zan**--: September 2005

yesterday was fun... watched Amazing Race live den sleep again den slack ard den watch tv again, eat den rest den get ready to go outz!!!

Ir last minutes get nights out so we kinda agree to meet for a while.
i meet Ir on the train... I was heading toward Boon Lay den him heading towards east, but we jus met half-way at Clementi. so tats tt. Den we continued our train trip to City Hall where he left me.... AGAIN!! sigh...
nvm, at least we've taken effort to meet each other even if its for a while... its quite pathetic but i find it sweet. The meeting was barely 30mins.. but its ok, at least we get to see each other in a long time.

Oh... the reason he left at City Hall is b'cos i was meeting Ven n YY there.. we're having dinner there... so he send me there la n left cos he didnt wanna disturb 'gals day out'.
But later, its the gals tt persuade him to come back n hang out for a while... hahaha.. so funny the way he ask him to join us... sweet! Ir was so sick yest.. he kept coughing! poor guy...

Food was okay... filling... later they suprised me with a bouquet of blue roses[my fav flower!!] n choc cake... so sweet! ahhhh my advanced bday suprise... was so touched! hhahaa... den i gave them a hug... hee~
so funny cos we sang 'Happy Birthday' when my bday is like a week away.... didnt finish the cake so we packed it n brought it hm...
we den walk ard esplanade area n we had fun taking pix... hahaha.. so funny... there's only 3 of us... so we used alot of self-timer... funny funny... ahahahah the ah beng, the minah n the tai tai!!

Den its time to go.. they're both working tmr so cant stay out late.... wahhh i had to carry so many things in my hands!! i was tired alrdy, den Mummy called asking me to wait for her... haiz.. i so so wanna go hm n sleep but i wait for her anyway... So i sat alone at Mcd sipping my coke!!! Stupid mcd staff said they hv problem with their coke dispenser den he will send to me... i wait n wait... no drinks sent!! i had to walk to counter again to ask for it... so leceh summore i left my barang- barang on the seats with no one supervising it!
Den suddenly, there's this mcd staff[lady] ask me if im malay or chinese... i couldnt hear her properly cos im daydreaming so i said 'No!' hahhaha i tot she was asking if she could clear my drinks...
later she came closer to me n ask again... "ohhh no... im Malay" n smiled...

cheyyy!! so now i know wat is her intentions... basically some mcd riders wants to get to know me.. chey!! wahhhh she damn persistant sia!! irritates me when she keep saying.. "its ok... just makes friends, u can jus sms each other if u dun wanna to be steady... to me, no harm making friends.. they're nice kids... blah blah blah" den she goes on n on... wah damn irritating!! Y CANT SHE JUST UNDERSTAND WHEN I SAY 'NO' REPEATEDLY N 'IM NOT INTERESTED!!!' really gets on my nerves, den i gave her the pissed look.... she FINALLY walks away.. i tot it was over... but NO! she walks over to the guys n talk den she came over again!! This time is to ifm me tt if im not comfortable with her, maybe later the guy himself will walk over to me.. *rolls eyes* wahhh! n she speaks english to me the whole time!! tak padan ar makcik... irritating makcik!!

den my hp rang.. mum say she's done wif work n asking me to walk over to her place as Vik timah giving us a lift home... phew!!! so i just get my things n walk asap. so tired reached hm at ard 1am.

When i reached hm... was suprised to see Imran n my bro's room.... wahahhaa.. so long didnt c him... i ask bro if he wants cake, was Imran answered "Yes.. ok... bring more" quickly... hahaha! like hello! i didnt even ask u, i ask my bro!! wahahhaha... den later they went out for supper.. before they left.. Imran said, "azizan, happy bday!!" wahahaha... "Huh? its not my bday yet.. next week ok... bring present if u want[ i said the last sentence softly n he alrdy walks away so i guess he didnt hear tt]"

ok gals, i'll post the pix next week k... wait for it ok...

Mel sis n me...

Tommy me n Mel

the flower... given by Radha & Leka... didnt expect tt... im jus a temp staff but its really nice of them..

me n Mel...

me n Joe! joe's malay ok.. not some ang moh like wat the apek tot he is.. wahahha

Me n Zack

Diana... i barely had time to bond with her as she's new n im leaving...

Alvin... aka Brother Bear...

Group pix!!!

kak zaiton..

Mummy Lily

Mummy Indra!!

sherwin kuya... sweet guy... my bro! he's filipino... so i call him kuya[bro!].. he taught me tt...

me...

my flower.... its pink sunflower... so cute

mel n me~

Kak Zaiton n Me

radha!!! my Team leader...

me n Kak Zainun...

Amazing Race!!

wow.. i've always love The Amazing Race.... n i love this new seasons of Amazing Race Family edition... woohh hooo.... im rooting for the Gaghan family...
the small gal is so cute! fuhhh power.. the whole family r runners!!!!

ok so today, will be meeting up with YY n Ven n hopefully Jo as well...
its been some time la...

i've been outz visiting my grandparents.. yeah both grandparents!!!
hahaha.. my grandpa so called 'merajuk' cos i havent been visiting him...
ish ish last time i rem him as someone i respect n a fierce man... now i still respect him but he's like so sensitive n so humourous... always disturb me!!
he goes like... "ehhh??!! who's this?? ohhh ijan!! alamak i forgot i hv this grand daughter...."
yah yah... watever la..... :)

yest i took my dad's bike n i almost broke his box... sorry daday.. too bad u hv such an agressive daughter... hahaha.. im the master of breaking n destroying things... wahhaha...
ask pple close to me how many watches i spoilt, how many shoes i broke, how many earrings n bracelet/bangles i broke/lost, how many CDs i spoilt, how many tops i ripped off, how many sandals i broke.. haha... n the lists goes on....

Booo!

boredoom.
sis n dad sleeping. me alone. bored.
i turned the SIA offer down. dun ask me y. dun force me to take it up. i have my own reasons.
the lady doesnt seem pleased with my decisions as she has been trying to contact me ever since i left for Bangkok, but of cos i did thank her for her time n told her i appreciate her efforts.
i cant believe i turn so many offers down[will not disclose the company's name but they r all big companies] ... haha! hv to be choosy cos its gonna be my career. all i need is a decent job with a reasonable pay, not asking much it but hv to be enuff to support myself n family.

stressed now cos dad quiting soon, he's tired of working. understandable la.
so now, im jobless. i hv to really decide carefully... cos my responsibility will be higher once my dad not working.

today is the first day tt im officially unemployed n im getting so lethargic as i hv no work to do.
i think i need a job to occupy my time.
i will find one. i refuse to believe tt im not capable of finding a job. i know its not gonna be easy, i shall not give up. A good friend used to tell me it took her bout 3mths to get a job. i will start finding for one but not now, not in a mood to find yet, maybe after hari raye or after my birthday... so tt i hv more time to spend with my loved once!

haiz.. my birthday's coming. cant believe im turning 21.
7 October 2005... i hv no plans. but tts the same day of Ir's commission ball at some hotel im not sure myself. i still havent got a dress yet. haiz jus use my kebaya la... so leceh!
birthdays used to mean alot to me. somehow im not looking forward to it already. probably as i grew older my perception of birthdays changed. how sad!

Ir called jus now. he's sick, now at medical centre. he got a certain virus tt is speading in camp. i also dunno wa it is but he said he felt feverish n weak. i hope he'll be fine. nvm, he will commissioned this Saturday, 1 October 2005. i will be there [of cos] to witness the parade n the commisioning of 2nd Lieternant Amir Hamzah... so proud of my boy!!

Y didnt our path meet?

im tired...
im jus sad tt i didnt get to see him in a long time.. the last time was last last sat for jus less than 1 hr... miss him lots... i dunno if he knows tt...
its so hard to get him these days... each time i called, he didnt answer, which means he's not with his hp, probably doing some training... haiz... even sms replies r delayed....
but understandable... i undertand the situation.. no one''s to blame.
its a test. a love test. i have to pass these difficult period.
i love him. only him.
n that's that. period. thou shall wait for u....

Bangkok was okay

my trip was alrite... jus shop shop shop...
i had a hard time looking for things for bro n sis... so tired looking for their stuffs! but im glad they appreciate it cos they had no idea how much trouble i went thru to their stuffs... phew!!
i think its hard for me to shop with my parents cos they r much slower pace than me n gets tired easily... esp dad!! nvm.. i hv to accommodate to them la....

i watch MTV n HBO most of the time in the room... sometimes lazy to go out n breathe in polluted air... wahhahaa....
we managed to contact Adnad, the thai cab driver who we engaged with the previous time we're there... he still remember us... he ask for my sis n bro.. hahaha.. cool memory!
wahhhh the hotel im staying in, Pathunam Park... the service sucks to the max!!! dun like it man... really no customer service at all!! unlike Eastin Hotel which we stayed in previously n i cant believe these 2 hotels r the same price n category!!!
But one thing good though... the room r much bigger n location is good... jus beside the hotel.. there's a mediterrenean/arab/thai/seafood muslim restaurant... the food's gd there... most customers r Singaporean... hahaha... i had seafood everyday.. ish ish ish ate really alot there!

my daily activity is: wake up, bathe, watch tv, breakfast, shop, lunch, shop, shop, shop, snack, dinner, shop , shop, shop, supper, tv, sleep!!

basically its ok... didnt really impress me cos i've been there 3 times already....
haiz.. still the same.. busy, dusty, noisy, traffic-jam city... haha!
im back now... tired... ciao~~

im in Bangkok!!

hey hey hey...

im in Bangkok now.. yeah rite now...

my parents r upstairs in the room.. while im here at the lobby alone.. using the net of cos!~

the air here is pretty bad.. think i'll get zits soon... damn!

jus now.. i go n colour my hair.... chemical too steong, needed treatment! which also means extra money to fork out.. darnz...

den while i was eating at Maedah Muslim restaurant nearby.. the reckless waiter accidentally drop sauce over me... my hair got dirtied... my white top n my pants.... shitty!! luckily the staff there were nice... get towel n wipe for me... but i still not in a good mood cos i jus did my hair fm saloon n somebody came n mess it up... bloody...

but i must admit i had tt moment of fame... cos everyone stopped, turned n look at me... wahahaha.... pple fm all walks of life...

i tot since its not the sch holidays, there wont be tt many pple... but i guess i was wrong... hotels r fully booked! n the streets n airport were overcrowded... so many south africans, africans, arabs n indians...

n btw... i met my lecturer, Ken Kwan on my flight yo Bangkok.... ohhh he's staying high end babe! meritus suite!! nah i wanna stay rite in the city area where the good shopping areas are!!

didnt go to work today

haiz.. feel so tired today...
i didnt go work.. so tts 3 consecutive days of no work...
tmr i have to go... my last day...
suddenly feel so sad to leave... the bonds i had with my fellow colleagues.. haiz...
but the pple in my trg team r also leaving one by one...

haiz... im gonne miss u guys.. whoever's left... Mel, Kak Zaiton, Kak Zainon, Donald, Tommy Korkor, Jake, Su, Dinah, Veni, Yuki, Kirk, Jerry, Venil, Kayatri, Yan, Anuar, Idayu, Asraf, Joe, Zack, Nick, Alvin, Sherwin Kuya, Day n whoever's there la....
haiz... my mentors: Mummy Lily, Radha, Mummy Azie, Mummy Indra, Leka...
those pple who left: Leonard korkor, CX, Cheryl, Lynn, Irah, Kak Gina, Clarence, Vinci, Farhana... some goes NS, some cont studying.. some go find other jobs...

Wat am i gonna do next? i still dunno if i shd accept tt offer... haiz... another call centre environment?? still indecisive...
lets jus see where/how i proceed with my life....