jus some rantings!!

its the 7th day n i still hadnt fully recovered. dang!!
im taking a friend's advice nt to take the Cold n Flu remedy instead of the doc's prescription... hope it works.
gosh, my voice is so "sengau" n block nose irritates me! urgh!
cant wait to get well!!! btw, going back to work felt so good. stay hm is so monotonous...
pple lost appettite when they're sick, apparently nt for me!! i hv strong cravings for food tts nt helping me recovering fm my sickness. i craved for kfc, mcd, choc bars, eclairs, cookies, milkshakes n etc. i try to stay away but cant cos its so strong tt i get very agitated n gelisah if i dun get them n when i ate them i felt frustrated cos im only worsening my condition. grrrrrrr!!!

handphone. i love my w810i, i wldnt wanna trade it. loving my mp3 songs n pix, thanks to the 1 gb storage!! bro jus lost his hp again. gosh tt guy kept losing hp.. so many!! i gave up on him. Dad spoilt his hp when he drop it in water so mum n dad both bought new hp but i didnt think they need it cos they dun use so many functions, nt even sms.

had a conversation with a fren which i truly enjoy. didnt expect it to be fun. its somewhat made me think more. future scares me, watever it is, im ready not prepared for commitment. yeah its true, so we shd enjoy life, travel, spend on urself, get/achieved watever u wanted first.
"i dun wanna be working hard to get somethin in future, i wanna alrdy hv somethin or stabilise myself first so tt i dun hv to work tt hard in future.. n planning hv to take place now.. maybe not exactly now cos u can always enjoying life first while ur still young n free fm commitments... n worry maybe abit later when u think the time is here"
hmmmm... tts something to ponder about. i do agree with my friend on tt.

saw Ven's bintan trip pix... its so nice! ish so tempting!!!
gosh i miss her alot!!! n i miss Jo n YY too... they're like missing.. whr r u gals?? was happy tt Jo msg us yest for a meet-up!! Yay!!
i miss Kak Reeina!!! oohh i miss her... hope she's doin fine...
missing Yani too... i miss this babe!! 2 days ago time i chat with her, she told me to pack my bag n get a Visa to aussie. hahaha...
I miss Ir too... he's busy with work lately, i dun wanna bother him either. yest he called to catch up on life. wasnt suprised wen he told me bout his break-up. I really hope take his time n learn valuable lessons. well, he's in camp now n he doesnt like HTA. heh.too bad la, its the hm for MHA officers, like it or nt.
i miss Z too.... i wonder how he is now, must be all buff up cos he's always in the gym or running/training.
i miss Widya too... i wonder how her kids are now, grown up, i guess..
gosh!! im missing alot of pple. if only we all dun hv to work n meet up!

too much rest/mc/off day/leave make me wanna work more. i guess i dun need a holiday just as yet. i do agree with pple tt it isnt worth it to do overtime cos its mentally draining n they dun pay much anyway... unless, im an ICS where ot is 1.5x or 2x, but im nt. its esp upsetting to know tt im getting the same pay as those male HICS with ns when i did so many ot when they dun even perform ot at all. urghh. sickening!

pranksters. pranksters. i've been receiving alot of unknown missed calls or unknown sms. these pple knew me, i guess. they tend to know some details. but i guess, ignoring it is the best way. Of cos, at first, im curious to know who's tt anonymous person but afterawhile u jus cant be bothered.some are nice, like those, wantin to know u but i still feel tt it shdnt be the way, so i wont entertain tt too. some are annoying, freaky cos they know details like ur shifts, where u stay n etc. i aint interested in their "fun" games so u pick the wrong person to play cos i aint playing at all. sorry!! ohhh tt secret admirer still do send me stuff at my pigeon hole, yet another drawing/sketch of me.its laminated this time. he printed out my roster for the year too. the last one i received was a 'get-well-soon' card. i find it sweet but my friends find it psychotic! hahaha it can be quite freaky actually... i hv no idea who he is but i suspect it to be tt someone though! haiz... whoever this person is, i dunno y he wants to remain being a secret... am i tt scary? or nt friendly enough to talk to me?

~~Love Zann~~

You have very strong will, not dependent on others and gives an impression of being a lone ranger. You are extremely curious and sensual, being a clear-headed, modern life. At first glance, you place yourself on pedestral, difficult to get along. But once others talk to you, they know you are easygoing. And when the relationship develops, there realise you are affable.You have an androgymous charm, which makes you popular with all genders. But you don't like your weak side to be seen. You might look cool on the surface, but beneath it all, you are really passionate. Only people who know your true self can mantain a long-lasting relationship with you.

the above results for a quiz i took. kinda true, actually...

~~Love Zann~~

i hate feeling weak

im feeling so weak nw....

temp goes all the way up... freaking hot!!

showered many times n coughs gets really bad too...

medicine jus doesnt work anymore... haiz...
havent been working for some time now.... too much rest!

~~Love Zann~~

We went to the Zoo!!!

candy floss n popcorn!! its all free!!
i kinda like this pix!!
while waiting for bus at wdlds interchange...
im so so tired....
our Safari Escape tix!! see tt? i gt extra tix so we gt extra food!!!

Sis, me n penguins!
Welcome to the Singapore Zoo!! actually it was taken wen we're abt to leave.. haha
on the bus shuttle... feeling so thankful the air-con is oh-so-good!!
Saz n me
sleep in the bus for a while...

Saz fanning himself
wats wif the face??? im jus exhausted fm the Safari Trail n weather so warm n humid...
see tt? our hair r all wet n full of sweats!!!
alot of pple...
listens attentively to lucky draw results!! no didnt win!!

reflection of us... Sis looks taller than me!! tts cos she is!!
entrance of Palm Park, where the event is....

see our tattoos??

i think the plant is so nice.. so jungle-looking!!

went to the Zoo today... ICA Family Day 2007

its so f-a-m-i-l-y... lots of kids... not many fm woodlands though! there's alot of activities for the kids..

went wif my dar-darlin sis, Ala... we were so excited tt we slept early the night before n woke up at 5am... hehehe

Saz came alone so i ask him to join us...

its a long way to the zoo... we took bus-mrt-bus... tiring!!

we reached there so early.. one of the first few...

we took part in the Safari Trail.. had alot of fun!!! hehe

was so funny.. we were like so anxious n "on"... running ard...

its like Amazing race... goodness!! but its cool..

we learn alot abt animals today... the qns were rather interesting!!weather's so humid, we sweat alot... phew!!

haha.. gt consolation prize for tt..

food catered... 3 piece Chic + pepsi + whipped potato

there's alot of free stuff too!! we had nuts(like those kacang putih kind), popcorn, cartoon drawings of us, airbrush tattoos n etc... didnt take the ice-cream, didnt feel like it!!

we went causeway pt aft tt... walked ard awhile only cos we were so tired... i wanted meat n sis wants seaweed shaker fries so we settle for Mcd n get our meals. Bought donut, cheesy hotdogs n choc custard rolls... all we do is snack, snack, snack whole day! no wonder im still sick now!! fever gotten worse.. freaking high temp!

throat hurts so bad... i down medicine w/o a second thought!!!

reached hm n immediately fell asleep... all i do is sleep nowadays!!

parents gt hm fm holiday jus now... haiz.. so fast?

~~Love Zann~~

some thoughts

Its raining heavily.. dun like it. haiz where’s the sun?
Been staying at hm… I had too much rest… Lazing ard

Last night, went to Giant n Courts with sis…
Bought some unnecessary stuff… hahaha
We took a very long busy route… hehehhehe

Did laundry n housework, cook abit… loving the life im living now..
I dun need clubbing or partying…
I lead simple, good life n tts gd enough for me

Im taking time to ponder over things…

Death.. there hv been a lot of death goin on… wats goin on?? Wats wif war?? Disasters?
A lot of news reports… haiz…

Greed. There’s always issue over money. Money makes pple crazy, evil n etc. To me, money is never enough, you’ll nvr be satisfied with wat u currently have. I do agree tt money is impt to a certain extend but… haiz… nvm…
I rather spend money for happiness…

Beauty? define beauty... wat really is beauty?? cos really, beauty is in the eye of the beholder... so in other words, everyone is a beauty to someone. :)
alot of buzz on beauty peagant, its a gd way to appreciate beauty actually. i like looking at gorgeous pple too... such blessed pple!!
i think the heart matters too... a beautiful person is someone with a good heart...

I realized tt im so easy to please, Im easily contented
The rule is: never expected too much… you’ll be happier this way
Im much calmer, more patient, I dun get angry/pissed easily…
Everyday, I do things to make myself happy…
Im getting better at diverting negativity to positive… trying not to be so affected/bothered by whatever is goin on…
We’re only human…. Human makes mistakes, human do wat human always do… let them be, let them think/say wat they want of u… u dun hv the power to stop them, jus let it be. Misjudged is a common thing. Hatred was never a part me.. no one taught me to hate..
I’ve never hated anyone… ever!
I may dislike someone but tt will dies off as time goes by..

Jus go with the flow… I take each day at a time….
Am very thankful tt I get to live each day… I appreciate every single thing anyone hv done for me… so far, pple hv been really really sweet…

I may be unaware of certain things cos im jus too relaxed..
Ignorance is indeed bliss cos curiousity jus kills me!!!

I met so many weird pple in life… very interesting!
whatever it is, try not to hurt anyone.. n tts really hard…
I believe there’s always good instill in everyone…
I believe in Karma, wat goes ard, comes ard…..

I learnt tt anything is possible as long as u hv control over yourself… n it aint easy to maintain tt…
It takes a stronger person to be able to do tt…
Cheers to confident, independent, positive pple!!

Im still mending my heart… but I guess my recovery process is going smoothly…
The fear is slowly dying off… but the commitment part is hard to say…

I miss the feeling of being loved….
I miss that excitement u have simply receiving a sms or call fm tt special someone..
I miss that feeling of butterflies in your stomach when u meet tt someone..
n lots lots more... love is such a wonderful thing...
Im nt gonna look for u… we’ll find each other….
And when I found u… im gonna treasure n love u whole-heartedly…
Im nt gonna let anything go between us…
Im nt letting u go unless i really really hv to...
whoever you are... i hope u'll surface soon...

~~Love Zann~~