i miss my tan...

see that?? im much darker/tanner last time.... i lost the tan alrdy...
see tts recent me... ok, if you think its yellow cos of the lightings... den see this...
see! im nt kidding... compare la with the first pix... urgghh im so yellow nw...

im getting so inactive these days..

im such a lazy bastard!! hehe
i miss that energetic feeling... i miss the good feeling when u sweat
my poor running shoes n skates were set aside one corner...

i miss the sun.. simply love the sun

i miss my tan..

im turning yellow, though some pple say im abit darker nw..

~~Love Zann~~

unwell

i tot im fine jus aft shower...
its a sucky feeling to go all the way to work but left, i wldnt do it if i dun hv pple telling me to go hm
my fever went up again.. 37.2 degrees
my headache getting worse.. n i look so pale
so its best tt i go hm...

haiz... when im sick, i get emotional...
teared for a moment...
there's no one tt specially cares for me...
there's no one i can seek attention to...
there's no one for me to hug.... or give me a warm hug...
there's no one to kiss me on my forehead...
there's no one to tell me tt "its ok you'll be fine,dear. rest well"
there's no one who calls/sms me to constantly remind me "have u taken ur medication/meals??"
no... there's no one... tt person jus dun exist...

im nt saying tt pple dun care for me.. there's alot of nice pple ard me, they even reprimanded me for working too much. cheers to my batchmates!! thanks guys... love u all..
big thanks to Zul for sending me to Changi Hospital. Its my first visit to the hospital as an outpatient n using my PS card. i mean i been to CGH many times but normally, i wld accompany someone(esp bro) else to see the doc.
special thanks to Matt... i really appreciate him accompanying me. thanks bro! so tts like 3hrs waiting time... we came ard 11pm n left ard close to 2am.... freaking long wait...
Doc prescribe me alot of medicine... 6 different types! n a 3-days MC!! i didnt even ask for it... he jus gave for me to rest more...
see!! i jus need rest, im nt THAT sick...

ohhh we had this sandwich/pizza thingy at the vending machine at CGH... i had the New York Chessy Sausage n Matt had the Romano Pizza. kinda cool... its nice!!

took cab hm n slept right after...
woke up early... first thoughts.. "haiz.. i shd be at work now.... ending my shifts soon in a few hrs. wasted!! shd hv jus stayed, today's off day anyway..."
urrggghhhh i dun like to feel weak...

im getting rather frustrated at myself for not executing my plans... dammitz...
sick n tired of planning n nt following the plans... i suck!!

~~Love Zann~~

i fell sick... unexpctedly!!

my parents will be away again... weeeeeee!!
normally, i wld hv lots n lots of plans.... but nah, nt this time
i intend to stay at hm... n cook... play ard with food.. hehe
yeah i hv the hse to myself!! i'll have the kitchen to myself!!

i keep buying groceries fm the supermarket!!
hahaha dunno y i love stocking up n buying new stuff hm so tt the whole family can try/use/eat/sample... so aunty-aunty!!
haha... my ex colleagues used to call me "small aunty"

feeling feverish now.... hate this "sick" feeling...
urgghhh!!!! flu,fever, sore throat, headache... sucky combo!!
i was perfectly fine before i go to work yest...
i guess work makes me sick ar... i still dun think im overexerting myself though...
haiz... nvm one more nite shift n im done for this cycle, might as well finish it off...

~~Love Zann~~

Flat

supper!!! ... at al-ameen... teh cino is so good... shd try!!!
hmmmm... see the diff betw nokia n sony ericsson camera? top one is sony... both with flash!
cute stuff! tts ICA teddy...

tts azist's white fur... haha tt didnt sound right. lol. love this furrry thingy!!
jannah n me...
tired n still smiling...
i feel flat n went to deep sleep after Vivo n supper.. was really tired

hehe.. mcm takde tempat lain nak amik pix
daddy killed a poor snail tt night...
hahaha.. fara looks like she's rapping.. lol
i love this pepsi design, n tts the reason i bought it. haha!

my fav drink! marigold grape drink... nice!! its almost a daily drink
yam n mummy outside locker rm before going to JB
me n yam... can u see the smoke?? tts mummy ciggie smoke... haha
cool chocolates!!! i was excited like a small kid while chosing my choc!! thanks to Afzan... they're rather ex!!
strawberry creme chocolates... my fav choc combination!!

ok the pix above are in random... taken at diff time..

ooooooooohhhhhh!!

finally a rest day!! n finally get to wake up late.

i've been waking up at 4.50am like almost everyday..

im such a hardworker.. yeah right!!

im taking a break this week... no more... oohh-so-tired!

its funny how tired i may be, i still find time to hangout.. hehehe

so... let me see.. i've been to JB, tamp mall, CS, Vivo n etc...

retail theraphy beats sleeping/resting!! kekekkee...walking ard, snacking n spending/buying stuff makes me happy la
i've been having alot of late nite suppers too..

but yest, im beat!

aft Vivo followed by supper, reached hm flat... didnt even remove makeup n changed... tts how tired i am!

pple jus dun realised how tired i am cos they say i dun look tired.

this morning, i still woke up ard the same time cos i forgot to off my alarm... but eventually im up at ard 9am.

i was craving for maggi n i miss bro's maggi(he cooks very nice maggi!!), so i merely told him tt n he immediately woke up n ask to buy maggi downstairs n cooks w/o a qn. awwwwwww.... so sweet!!

den i made lunch for him... love u bro!!
miss him, hadnt seen him for days... i wasnt in the hse long enough to meet the family. past few days, i spend less than 6hrs at hm n all the time i was sleeping or getting ready for work.

i keep losin stuff...misplaced my fav pink water bottle n notebook :(

btw, i love supermarkets!! put me there n i can spend hrs n hrs..

~~Love Zann~~

absence

havent be in touch with the cyber world for sometime now...
mentally tiring... i only catch a few hrs rest each day..
n urgghh nasty zits start popping up!
im feeling ugly now... ugly fuggly me...

its weird cos i keep running away fm pple...
maybe im scared of pple! hmmmmm...
the thoughts of "im nt good enough for him/go out with him(whoever he is)" always plays a big part in me...
its like,right after my "keep to myself" phase, pple start to come up to me on by one almost too immediately!!
its pressurising, i jus dunno how to handle it. ignorance jus didnt work anymore. haiz, im jus nt interested in anyone who happen to hv interest.
y is it tt the one u wld like to ask u out didnt but others will??
hate cancelling/changing plans n turning pple down all the time. i jus cldnt made up my mind, one moment im fine, the next i rather nt go out with them.

~Love Zann~~

shopping with Ir...

ok pictures speaks for itself...
went shopping again!!
wasnt really me... Ir's turn...

well.. he always need my option when it comes to shopping!! excpt.. erm fishing stuffs la cos im an idiot in tt...
he keep on saying(hurrying me up when im looking at things) : "iza.. iza.. lets go... remember today is supposed to be ME shopping, nt u!!... so lets go!!"
hmph!!

wahhh we went fm boutiques to boutiques...
so many shops to patronize but so little time!
tt crazy ass spent so bloody alot!!
addidas, levis, fox merchandise.... i gt an addidas bag too..
thanks!! hmmm... i shd hv said yes to the orange-pink sweater at addidas the other day... hahaha!!
n ohhh we dine at fish market again... second visit!
woohoo yummylicious babeh!!! it was a suprise treat... thanks ir!

he kinda made me his Personal Assistant, carrying his stuffs n getting his sizes... alah mcm tak biase je!!

tt Prison Officer is rich la this mth but he finished the cash so fast... useless!! hehehe
lesson learnt: never resort to borrowing or loans or excessive hp bills...
oohh the hp bill part, blame ur *toot* gf la... she's jus crap.. i dun wish to start on her..
goodness Ir, u deserve so much better!! been telling him that many times, he jus "tak sampai hati"
he shd hv jus start dating other girls(he been telling me about) out there...

oh btw, jus to clear things... no... Ir's nt my boyfriend, so many pple mistook us... we're very closefriends, well u can say bestfriends!! cos this guy know so so so so so much bout me.... n likewise for him.

anyway, Ir always made me so so guilty.. urgghh!!
stop it.. stop it!! jus dun say anythin... hehe...
n gosh... he's like addicted to the gym these days...

~~Love Zann~~

compliments

goodness i really hope my leaves will be approved...
needed tt break, needed a holiday....
i want beautiful serene beaches, nice scenery/landscapes....
it'll be a dream come true... awwwwww.....
i need to start saving up...

i dunno y pple hv been coming up to me n commenting tt i did alot of OT. nt as if i did alot... jus a few je pe!!
n stop it la eh.... no im nt getting married!! nonsense!! kekeke
i need to settle some stuffs n i need money to travel...
yes!! travel... travel.. travel!!!
doesnt matter with whom... i jus wanna travel!!
saving up for tt Europe trip come Dec 2008... hv to make tt happen!
its my dream to step my foot there before i hit 25!!
sadly everyone is against me going... haiz

its getting really annoying for pple to ask me y i still hadnt had a bf yet... even my closefrens r questioning me now.... y cant i dun hv a bf?? y??
pressure... pressure... pressure!! urgghhh
plz pple.... I KNOW IM NT GETTING ANY YOUNGER!! but im nt ready for commitment yet.... it takes time... the right one hadnt come yet...
"yah2... if u dun open urself up, how is the one gonna come? if u dun give any1 a chance to get close/know u closer, how wld u know of the possibilities??"
well... i believe he will... im sure there's a way... somehow...

oohhh btw.... i kinda like my job...
not exactly the job la.... i like to see the weird human reactions...
the funny, the cheeky, the scared, the blur, the stuck up, the furious, the irritated, the persuasive, the cant-be-bother, the impatient, the super talkative, the overly-friendly, the serious, the boastful, the serious n etc
its gives me tt instant entertainment, smile n anger at times!
its a job whereby u can get verbal compliments easily!! nice2 ones!!
never had so much before this.... even my own bf(last time) dun passed nice remarks to me
they all love my sweet smile... hehe...
its like everyday there's bound to hv at least 5!!(i dun count them la)
so its like a norm...but it feels gd tt ur service is being appreciated. cant help it cos i hv all the customer service backgrounds... been working in service line since i was 17...
hahahha but its true... no kidding. if i were to list them, it be too long.
well maybe cos im a girl... it'll be harder for guys i guess.
today there's this grp in a car... talking bout me n i happen to respond n they gt suprised n wondered hw i can hear them n ask where we put the mic at!! kekeke sey.... they offered jobs...
"my dear gal... ur too pretty to be an immigration officer.. we're fm the airport.. join us... wanna join? we can give recommendations"
errrmmm nvm i dun accept any offers when im on duty. thank u.

ohhh btw, no, im nt trying to brag.
come on, pple r jus so murah(generous) with their compliments.... we get it all the time... really, all the time....
not forgeting the fact tt they mistook me as a chinese. oh-so-many-of them!!

saz was telling me the other day, "zann, did u go for tanning??... cos u looked tanner now... ok now u look more malayish" kekeke

~~Love Zann~~

tt morning shoppin at mustafa centre

i love taking pictures of structures...

it was past midnite so the whole station was empty...

i was alone so i took pix there... nice!! i like.

taken while waiting for Yam, Radin n Zehan to meet me

hahhaa... of all places, Yam suggested Mustafa centre!!!

we walked ard... did some shopping n had supper....

Zehan n me were so choosy over cabs cos there's alot ar... we took the mercedes one in the end... haha!!
tt day reached hm ard 5am jus in time to get ready for work...

yup history does repeats itself...

im crazy enough going out n nt sleeping before going to work on morning shifts!!

~~Love Zann~~