Pix courtesy of Ir

Fasting....

I look listless… restless… tired... had pple telling me tt...
Yes, I knew tt…. Im feeling it as well
I refused to believe tt its all due to the fact tt im fasting!!
There have been some chances in my body systems or maybe, it all bcos of laziness and lack of sleep. Fell sick with fever n 2 days mc.
I had ugly dark eye rings which I cant get rid off!! My hair is dying, needs some nourishment…. Gotta do something about tt too. Haiz….

Fasting mth…. Ahhhh I jus love this mth.
I honestly do feel tt it isn’t hard to fast. Gosh, this reminds me of my sec sch years!! Haha… pple hiding to buy food/drink in the canteen.
I rem studying n doing O levels fasting…
I rem going thru trg fasting…
I rem going on Trips fasting…

I rem my cheorographer, abg osman, giving us lectures bout teens out there dgn secara selamba nye duduk pat coffee bean minum n isap rokok… haiz…. We’re like fasting n sweating doing trg n practicing our dance routines n pple out there jolly well dun seem to care/respect this respectable mth... I will always rem abg osman’s words n stern self. Used to hate him before too… Super-strict n expect dancers to get the step/dance routines the third time he demonstrate!!! [jus 3 times only] he used to scold vulgarities n all…. He used to say tt my face was real hard to make-up for shows…. *hmmph* sori im nt into thick make-up anyways…

I rem npcc trg. Gosh, hated parade drills!!! Was close to fainting at one time. NCO time was, as always, very slacking…. Haha.

I rem studying for exams… fasting! Goodness tt was tough… trying to get as much stuff into the brain when the brain literally didn’t wanna absorb cos its too tired w/o food.

I rem going to Korea fasting!! Gosh, this one is real tough. Weather is so cold, I was hoping for food n hot drinks to keep me warm. Getting to place took long journeys… many winding roads tt makes me dizzy n jus wanna give up. I didn’t, I tahan.. im proud of myself.

I personally do not mind pple eating infront of me. It didn’t even urge me. Infact, it challenged me more! Its kinda tougher for me cos im always seen snacking n munching n eating….. but I want to fast, as long as I can.

Anyways….. Hamz ORD yest!!! Cool, he gt his pink IC alrdy. Back to civilian, no more 2LT till re-service. Haha. Im giving as much assistance as I can offer in helping him to find a job. I spend a lot of time on it. Hopefully, he’ll get a job asap.
Great… heard a lot of guys one-by-one ORD. cool. Its been 2 yrs alrdy. Tts really fast.. so by nw, almost all the 1984 batch of guys who went to poly wld hv completed NS. Those who underwent sec 5 batch or went to ITE before Poly.. my cohort, guys, 1 more year ok!!

Went to watch Starlight Cinema at the Padang wif Kak Reeina n friends yest. They were showing “Just Like Heaven”, sweet story…..
Kinda cool to catch a movie at the padang, lying/siting on the ground n munching on snacks…… nice experience!! Thanks kak reeina!!!

My mummy [azreena]’s tummy getting bigger….
Waitin for the baby gal to be born… den mummy will hv a new baby n stop whining… haha!

Dun ask or question y I love u so….
Cos I dun exactly know the right words to say or describe it….
I know, u know….. n tts all tt matters….
We dun necessarily need a reason to love…. We both know tt

Wats past is past….. lets jus move forward to the future…
Look back, its tearing up my heart when im wif u, but even when we’re apart I feel it too.
Watever harsh,hurtful words you utter, whatever pain n sufferings there may be….
It instantly fades like magic!! The power of love…

I believe, no one have a perfect r/s…. we’re, afterall, only humans
We need to work hard to make our r/s happen again… keep trying…
Love is love….. Relationship is a whole diff thing….
I love the fact we’re both more understanding n accommodating…

One cant be selfish in love…. Any selfishness is nt love….
There’s many things I dun like/ agree bout/with u, likewise for you
We putting in effort in doing things we dun necessarily like…
All is fair… we give n take… tt shd be the way

It doesn’t matter wat people say bout us…
Pple dun know wat lies beneath the surface…
let them judge, let them be.
This is our story…. Our life journeys….

Im missing you over n over again…..
Jus a minute with you would make a difference…
Im contented. I appreciate every single thing you do.
Im glad you’re more mature now. Im glad you are nicer now.

Hady Mirza is Our Singapore Idol!!!

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy
my votes didnt go to waste!!!
"Singapore..... your Singapore Idol is ..... HADY MIRZA!!!!!!"
cool.... he sings well....

i rushed hm asap fm work.... end work at 8pm, rush like mad but didnt manage to catch Taufik first performance. i reach hm n he jus ended his performance :( *see hw fast i am*
ooo i love Taufik!!!!! mr smooth soul..... i like "I Dream too"

the new song is not too bad.. something like "You gave me wings"
at work, everyone were talking about it. we had our own SI votes operated by self-claimed SI Manager, Evan. hahhaa
winner gets Coffee bean. many voted Jon will win. so few voted Hady will win. If Jon wins, die!! pple who voted for Hady need to fork out alot of cash to pay for all the pple who vote for Jon.... I didnt join cos i dun like the prize. Coffee Bean drink when im fasting?? i'll skip tt.
BUT we all did vote for the actual SI too. many voted "2" for you-know-who to 43657.

had a bad hair day today..... i jus apply hair lotion n put on a cap. its drizzling n im lazy to bring umbrella, a cap comes in handy!! dressing was super slack too!! i wore my personalised t-shirt bearing my name in chinese character "ah zan", it means hill/mountain. haha....
my cap bears my name "azizan" in pink too..... haha... tts so me!!
my colleagues were saying tt i was endorsing my own brand! haha.... my merchandise!!

i simply love anything personalised.... my name, my pix... all me, me, me, me!!!
hahaha.... im so self-absorbed. i may not be a superstar but i love myself!! ceyyyyyy
lol. k im outz....

24th September 2006

today marks the first day of Puasa!! so excited....

hari raya bazaar is going to be held everywhere... wow....

i love puasa..... we, as family, gathered and had meals together.

i love puasa.... a time where everyone's gd side shines... charity, gd deeds....

today marks the day i did meet up with Hamz....

been meeting up everyday..... even for a short while!

we need to slow things down now.....

all is good now. im content. im happy!!!

im loving every minute of it.

today marks the day of the Singapore Idol Finals at the Spore Indoor Stadium!!!

wow... both Hady n Jon r hot.... i love them both!!!

like Taufik says "they're the top2, they r both winners!!"

Hady's stage performance was better..... he has great stage presence.... he has the vocals...

oh wow.... he can sing a song like Freedom n hold his breath n dance along..... POWER!!! Very good vocal control..... His rendition of the idol song was better too.... He made it his own!!! Not jus singing it with jus the lyrics.... I love Hady Mirza!!!!

Jon was as cool as always! ohh so hunky looking..... he so clever, he picks slower songs tt suited him well. n his speech n choice to choose a singapore local song was impressive!!

Both of them have potential. i like both.

it doesnt matter who wins. it will be fair!!

but, of course! I love Hady..... Vote 2 to 43657 for Hady Mirza!!!!!

Go Hady... go Hady.. go Hady!!! Hehehhee

oh btw, today's my uncle Shaf's birthday!!! old alrdy..... hahaha...

the whole week i'll break fast at work.... sheesh i had aft shift nw!!!

got a feeling i wont get my seat PLUS i dun wanna b assigned to do Q! argghh

i wonder wat i have for sahur later in the morning..... hmmmmm.....

i had the best sahur jus now!!! guess wat?? we had jus plain water on our first sahur.... haha

im missing alot of pple now.....

where r u guys now??? im hoping i had the time to meet up with everyone of u...

i know raya is coming n we'll all meet up but tts diff.

i want a social meet-up.

i want my friends!!! i hope u guys had time for me, i hope i find time for u all too!! missing everyone.....

*im hoping for TIME, i need time, time is pass TOO fast**

my bday is jus about 2 weeks away.... cool i dun hv to work!!! applied leave on tt day but i dun exactly know how to spend it..... its fasting, limited stuff i can do.... maybe jus laid back n relax... go for a good massage?? shopping?? really... wat shd i do??

all i know is, i jus need to be hm wif family n break fast together before sunset. before tt??? do wat??

oooooo....... i alrdy rcvd my first advance bday present!!! wow... i looveeee it!!

it was impromptu..... it was such a suprise!!! im suprised, u were too.. haha

thank u!!! love it..... i really do....

last Sat, had chalet.....
chk-in with sis..... weeeeeeeeee!!! yupz jus the 2 of us.... gerek!
sis n me took stupid pix, munching on snacks, jumping on beds!!!! hahaha
later kak reeina n family came over.... her kids r so cute'
den the rest came later aft work!! no bbq, jus pizza.... haha
sumthin happened, dun wanna elaborate.... whoever knows, knows. gd thing things r ok now. gd for them :)

Went fishing on Monday at Pasir Ris Pond..... wahhh so expensive! didnt know fishing cost alot!!! gosh..... setup also very leceh....
caught 4 fishes in total..... so excited.... big one!!! big fish i mean... Yay....
was so excited i was screaming... "fish.. fish... fish!!! yay fish!!!" hahahahhahhaa
it was raining tt time, so it was kinda slippery.... so scared i will lose tt first fish... haha
later in the day, lose interest in the fishes..... i was engrossed in the book i read, "Digital Forttress" by Dan Brown.
aft sunset, we packed up n walked in big rounds [we jus hv alot of energy to walk with heavy stuffs.. haha]..... walked towards Pasir Ris interchange den walked to Downtown East bus-stop!
Meet up with Rain n Liza!!! the green couple for the day n had dinner at asyalihin.... ooo my all-time fav, fried kuayteow beef!!!

Bumped into mum, dad, grandma n aunt there...... so coincidence!!
apparently, granny n aunt came to infm tt Kak fizah is getting married in dec!!! so excited..... im happy for her.... i think everyone shd respect her decision n give their blessings......
ok ok..... so the first few older cousins r married, plz plz dun put pressure on me!!
goodness..... im only 22 come october, still young..... n i jus started working last year!!! pple cannot compared me to someone who started working when they're 16,17,18, 19!! my cpf also nt enuff to buy a hse.... aiyoohhhh.... long way to go for me la....
will start to save soon... need to save up for my upcoming trips first!! hahhhaa
pple plz use ur brains la...... if i hv the finance now, tmr also i get married la!!!
aiyohhh old pple r so ''lor-so"..... always talking bout customs n stuff....urgghh gimme a break!! im only 21 ok!!! [not even 22.. erm.. yet!!]

feeling fatigue these few days.... rather restless... felt like time is too short for me. The next thing i know, the day is over!!! i need more time in a day... 24hrs passes by TOO fast!!
n im getting insonmia again.... cant sleep at nitez!! ughhhhhh

btw, was looking out for jobs vancancy ads..... nt looking for one yet... bt seems like market now nt so good.... :( this kinda worries me later on...
i heard tt one of my fren is a sales manager now!! congrats awadh!! wow so fast promoted!! so proud of him, jus ORD a few mths back only!!! aiyyoohhh.... im still an agent. CSR, CSO, CSP. How bout senior or TL/TM or OM??? Hahhhaaa... dream on zan!!!

updates on HKG trip n etc....

gosh im tight with time & money...

ok, lets blog abit bout Hong Kong....
yes yesh .... i did join the 5day HKG tour with Suhaimi Yusof!! hehhee
so much drama la these pple who joined the tour... the so-called wanted to known as "educated makciks"... hee
i dunno... maybe i came fm a family background wif low education, i was kinda suprised/impressed by the designation of these makciks n pakciks. Compared to them, i guess, im jus nothing....

the tours were kinda jammed-pack!!! we covered every corner of HKG....
ladies market, standley market, nathan road, mody road, victoria peak, tram, trains, topless bus, star ferry, disneyland, avenue of the stars, sogo, the shopping malls, hkg island, abedeen fishing village, mosque, the 8pm lazer beams, repulse bay n etc......
alot of walking... wow tiring.... one place to the next.
i enjoyed Disneyland though pple say its very small....
i like Windows of the World in Shenzhen, China... oh yah, i took train to China. no visa required. The Power of a Singaporean Passport!!!

ok... this trip is bout me wanting to go to Hong Kong...
going with Mum is kinda challenging.... I've NEVER been on trip just wif her!!
it was supposed to make me hv time with my mother but i guess we're still the same.
Heck! i survived... hahaha....
i didnt brought hm much stuff, mostly were disney merchandise for sis[nt me!!]
i wonder y didnt i buy [those stuff i bought for sis] for myself?? hmmm weird....

these days kinda tired... still lazy... havent upload any pix for the longest time!!
nt to mention, my PC crashed!!

thurs, we had doa selamat at work..... wow, so much food!! i kinda think its nt fair to invite certain grp of pple only, i do realise tt some pple r nt in the email list. n paying for nt bringing food but wanna be part of it was also nt a good idea/move. i mean its for a good course, for sharing. i just pay la. n no, im nt being calculative or sore bout paying jus $5 but i believe its best we jus make it voluntary :)

friday, i took my health screening at work.... 3 test tubes of blood!! gosh im so scared of needles!
haha the nurse couldnt find my veins, she had to hit me hard many2 times to be sure where my veins r!! i told her i wanted her to be sure, dun wan the needle to go thru my skin twice. wow! my blood splurt out so much, i told her to stop.... "you're so cute. no one told me to stop taking their blood before. this is your blood ar[showing me the last test tube] nt sure if this is enuff for the test, u told me to stop" haha... sori cant help it, she's like drawing alot of MY blood. haha!!
chalet later... fishing next???

goodness!!! im waiting for the time i can afford the next holiday trip....
i dun wan it to be like the KL trip i went with Ir, sis n Ena.... tts really last min.... aft esli n bf clnt make it, i rem i was rushing like mad woman cos i really didnt wan my leave to go to waste!!! 3 days b4 departure Ir last min say can go[''thanks'' to NS]....n tt Ena also another one[2 days b4 tt], so last min.
Thankfully, the following KL trip wif Joyce n Shaf was much more well-organised. eh tt one Shaf[3 days b4 the trip] also last min. he stayed one day only. [thanks to NS again!! ohhh NS r jus so troublesome. cld hv gone to Sibu]
Batam trip, i was late n missed the ferry, so had to make my own last min rescheduling arrangements.[less than 1hr b4 the next ferry]
Hong Kong was kinda last min cos.... Chand suddenly approved my leave n the dates i applied happen to coincide with the tour dates. n tt is like only 1 mth away. kinda last min for tour group. the 2nd coach was almost full n 1st one alrdy full by the time i purchased my tours.
Oh Goodness!! stop these last minute thingy!!! cursed?

Hopefully, my next trip will be well-planned. *crossed fingers*
Wanted to go Brisbane n see the 3 worlds. no more tour. still love F&E!!! im an explorer.
sis bugging for redang/tioman..... hmmm.... gosh, tempting. need to save.. save... save!!!!
urgghh! hate the saving part!!

p/s: will upload pix soon....

im in Hong Kong now!!!!

wow.... im here at Pacific Coffee sipping my mango guava chilino....
Hong Kong is kinda busy huh.... so many mountains n buildings.... so conjested!! i wouldnt wanna stay here, the houses r damn small n ex.... so rimas!!!!

trip was so tiring......
we covered every corner of Hong Kong!! yay...
Disneyland.. YAY!! but rather small la.... jus wish its like the ones in the States... nvm... next time, will fly there.....
kinda alot of Singaporean here....
spend so much!!! i dunno where my money goes!! didnt buy stuffs though... things here kinda ex n the tours r so rushy!! next time i go HKG, i 'll go on my own....

ok... my flight is in bout 4hrs time....
Singapore here i come....

Batam Trip - Part 2

we both took traditional massage. good. felt so good.
now, i want more. at this age, u jus wanna pamper yourself!! hahaha

the rest went on to go-kart & banana boat.
while we both.... dun wanna get all sweaty n wet!! lol
we both enjoy outdoor activity but maybe, tt day was nt the day for sports
im going do everythin soon... jetski, parasailing, wakeboarding[cable ski], banana boat, snokerling.... soon.... jus wait.... i will.... maybe on other trips! *winks*

seafood lunch. i dun really fancy seafood but i know good food.
bt no the food wasnt good. i knew it wasnt gonna b fantastic so it was expected. i wld rather eat nasi padang there.
ok shopping next. bought some stuffs. unnecessary stuffs. hahaha

time to go hm aft shopping at Matahari....
ok this time, took ferry with the rest. wow, super packed ferry.
almost no seats left. most of us seated outside.... enjoyed the sea breeze n the sunset.
took chartered bus hm, everyone seperated. end of day.

overall, the day went so quickly....
i wasnt tired at all, really.....
the days after were the start of my happy moments.....

ok im going to Hong Kong later... in bout 10hrs time!!
Disneyland here i come.... hehhee....
lets see if Cathy Pacific deserve the renowned title of World Best Airlines.....