i jus got my payslip.... sad.... haiz..
i work so hard i didnt even get first taste of incentive.... dammit!
really disappointed... so not motivated to work...
thinking about finances give me a headache... i was way off my budget...

i've been put on afternoon shift for 2 conseccutive weeks!! not fair...
but at least i can wake up late n i took taxi to work everyday.. cool!~

i think by now, so many pple knows my mum.... i dun think i like the idea...
it jus gave some sort of attention tt i dun need/want but the gd thing is, mum will always look foward to talk to me... hehe...

my cravings r getting crazier by the day...
last night at ard 1am... i really really really crave for McSpicy n i really hv to hv it n i DID!
only then wld i be able to sleep in peace... haiz.. everyday a diff kind of crave!!!

my life is like a cycle now-- same old boring cycle, work/eat/watch tv/sleep/work.. etc etc
so monotonous... i dunno how to spice up my life..... haiz ...

ONE more working day n i can rest.. work is jus mentally tiring.... absolutely love it when system is down!! i cant wait for the weekends!!! gonna enjoy it with my pay and suffer ard mid-month.. wahahaha....

i jus got my payslip.... sad.... haiz..
i work so hard i didnt even get first taste of incentive.... dammit!
really disappointed... so not motivated to work...
thinking about finances give me a headache... i was way off my budget...

i've been put on afternoon shift for 2 conseccutive weeks!! not fair...
but at least i can wake up late n i took taxi to work everyday.. cool!~

i think by now, so many pple knows my mum.... i dun think i like the idea...
it jus gave some sort of attention tt i dun need/want but the gd thing is, mum will always look foward to talk to me... hehe...

my cravings r getting crazier by the day...
last night at ard 1am... i really really really crave for McSpicy n i really hv to hv it n i DID!
only then wld i be able to sleep in peace... haiz.. everyday a diff kind of crave!!!

my life is like a cycle now-- same old boring cycle, work/eat/watch tv/sleep/work.. etc etc
so monotonous... i dunno how to spice up my life..... haiz ...

ONE more working day n i can rest.. work is jus mentally tiring.... absolutely love it when system is down!! i cant wait for the weekends!!! gonna enjoy it with my pay and suffer ard mid-month.. wahahaha....

Bitchy eh??!!

last nite, was tired fm work so i treat myself with New York Pizza, Long John silver, bubble teas, Polar puffs and stuffs fm Pasar Malam at Tamp Central.... food galore!!

reached hm... found my sis scratching in agony n she gets rather on my nerves, whining n whining..... dad was sleeping!! lucky i was ard.... it was alrdy past 10pm then, so we had to go to 24hrs clinic.
i gotta sacrifice my TV shows n abring her to clinic...
hahaha.... i know the consultation cost gonna be ex, so i ask the doc alot of qn.... basically i do the talking n ask the doc to give her a jab for her nasty rashes!!! hahaha... the doc give her double jabs n pills!! she gt no choice but to take medication [we dun take medicine!!] if she wants a speedy cure....
i was so shocked to know tt the medical bill is freaking $74.00... luckily gt NETS, cant be bothered to find ATM ard.... damn... now im broke!! nvm, at least she felt better now...
Sis: "You're the best sister i ever had!!!"
Me:"Gosh, yah yah... I'm the only sister u ever had...." *rolled eyes*

haiz cant wait for pay day.... needed cash.... cant wait for saturday.... haha my precious Saturday off day!! damn next wk afternoon shifts again, sucks... but nvm gt kakis so its alright la....

i got so furious when my sis told me all about wat happened between her, her close fren[bitchy fren i must say!] n her [also bitchy] mother!!!! kanasai!! dun wanna elaborate about it.... watever it is, both of u are just... disgustingly BITCHY!!!! cant stand it... hey!! dun u dare bad-mouthed or touch my sister!!! not happy issit.... come ar.... DEAL with ME now!!! i told my sis to give her so-called used-to-be-close friend's mother my number....

i simply dun undertand y some mothers think so highly of their children. Get your facts right before u open ur bloody damn mouth ar.... See now that u found out how 'angelic' ur daughter is, u ought to be ashamed of your self!!! WTF, making such a big hoo-ha over small matters.... Wah tt woman insist on talking/confronting/meeting my sis...
from the SMS she send to sis, i wld never expect a mother to be so rude and childish.... the SMS show evidence of how ridiculous tt woman is. Disgusting!!
Upon showing n informing her teacher wat happen, even the teacher told tt woman is too much~!

Its jus a small matter and some mother-daughter tact-team have to make such a big fuss over it... all i know is that is only helping out a friend, her god-bro rather!! n she gets into so much choas cos the mother-daughter tact-team are disgustingly bitchy!!!!
Its a personal matter... Y hv to make a BIG fuss over it? Y u hv to go to her sch n tell the discipline master n form teacher about it? Y? It's not even school-related!!!
Clearly, she wants sis to look bad. Now that someone told her [part of] the story of how scandalous her precious daughter is, she seem to be keeping quiet. Ashamed? yeah u better be!!
i know sis can be not-so-nice at times but she wont be rude if someone doesnt aggravates her!!! Even if she tend to be rude, on wat ground is sis in the wrong, despite the fact that sis is rude, that that woman wants to confront her??? Oh gosh... GROW UP!!! i dun blame her, she's a young mum....

wat i cant stand is sis's used-to-be close fren. She appear all nice n decent. Cant imaginbe she turned out to be a horny, scandalous, two-faced, unappreciative backstabber!!! u happily come to MY hse, chill here, use OUR PC, shared clothes/stuffs with sis.... urrgghh!! u even planned to make sis n her other fren to be enemies. So vicious!!! ish ish....

i wont be such a bitch to tell the whole world wat REALLY happened or WAT disgusting acts/thins they BOTH REALLY did/said. Dun go overboard cos im definitely not gonna take things lying down easy....
I can be a bitch if i want to....

Bitchy eh??!!

last nite, was tired fm work so i treat myself with New York Pizza, Long John silver, bubble teas, Polar puffs and stuff fm Pasar Malam.... food galore!!

reached hm... found my sis scratching in agony n she gets rather on my nerves, whining n whining..... dad was sleeping!! lucky i was ard....
it was alrdy past 10pm then, so we had to go to 24hrs clinic.
hahaha.... i know the consultation cost gonna be ex, so i ask the doc alot of qn.... basically i do the talking n ask the doc to give her a jab for her nasty rashes!!! hahaha... the doc give her double jabs n pills!! she gt no choice but to take medication [we dun take medicine!!] if she wants a speedy cure.... i was so shocked to know tt the medical bill is freaking $74.00... luckily gt NETS, cant be bothered to find ATM ard.... damn... now im broke!! nvm, at least she felt better now...
Sis: "You're the best sister i ever had!!!"
Me:"Gosh, yah yah... I'm the only sister u ever had...." *rolled eyes*

haiz cant wait for pay day.... needed cash....
cant wait for saturday.... haha my precious Saturday off day!! damn next wk afternoon shifts again, sucks... but nvm gt kakis so its alright la....

i got so furious when my sis told me all about wat happened between her, her close fren[bitchy fren i must say!] n her [also bitchy] mother!!!! kanasai!!
dun wanna elaborate about it.... watever it is, both of u are just... disgustingly BITCHY!!!!
cant stand it... hey!! dun u dare bad-mouthed or touch my sister!!! not happy issit.... come ar.... DEAL with ME now!!! i told my sis to give her so-called used-to-be-close friend's mother my number. Her mum not happy with my sis issit???? IM NOT HAPPY WITH THE BOTH OF YOU EITHER!!! i dun wish to interfere but i will if its going overboard...

damn.... i dun understand y some mothers jus think so highly of their daughters when they themselves duno how "angelic" they are... come on la... next time investigate first, dun jump into conclusion. So who's losing face now??
i cant believe a mother would sms so rudely to my sis. i mean i know sis can be not-so-nice at times but she wouldnt be rude if someone doesnt aggravates her.. From the sms, its evident that, that woman is jus crazy.... I simply dun understand y she have to blow a small matter up into something big. Its a personal issue regarding her daughter's r/s, y get so worked up? Y until she insist on meeting sis?? Y have to go to her school to complaint to discipline master n form teacher when it HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH SCHOOL??? Dumb....
Clearly, she wants to make my sis look bad.... things r getting complicated now.... but i know my sis is jus helping a fren, her god-bro rather. She's just helpin out n got into so much chaos cos some tact-team mother-daughter are jus so bitchy.... oh gosh.. GROW UP!!

Now that someone alrdy told her [part of] the story... she tend to be quiet now huh?? ashamed of wat scandalous things your daughter have done?? Well too bad, you're at the losing end, woman! .... u wanna make a big hoo-ha over small matters rite, now ur making a fool of yourself....

The thing i cant stand is that her used-to-be close fren is such a two-faced. I cant believe she's like that!... my gosh... horny, scandalous, two-faced, irritating, unappreciative backstabber!!
You conveniently come to my hse to us OUR PC, hang out at MY hse, shared clothes with my sis, appeared all nice n all..... u even planned on turning my sis n other fren into enemies! i simply cant believe u turned out to be like this....

I wont be so bitchy to tell the whole world wat disgusting things they both REALLY have done n wats REALLY going on.... Watch out your words and actions cos im definitely not gonna take things lying down easy just like that!!!

Im Well again!! yay...

been sick the past whole WEEK!!!
down with high fever, sore throat, coughs n flu.... terrible.... ohhh headache also!
the most tiring week....

but im feeling a whole lot better now.... FINALLY!!!
hmm i lost touch of cyberworld for some time.... so shock to see my emails n friendster acc!!
so where to i start?? haiz...

okay, on fri i last min meet up with YY n Jo... Ven working! sob sob!!
YY MADE IT FOR SINGAPORE AIRLINE!!! woo hoo.... "its a great way to fly"
Jo, cheer up girl!!! gear up for NATAS....
Ven, watever u do.. be strong, i know its tough working n schooling at same time...
oh btw, meet them at Millenia Walk Starbucks!!! i hv to walk so far, i usually dun work so far.. i mean my hse n workplace is jus nearby n i even took bus!!! hahhhaa.. lazy bum...

btw, i gt confirm for my job but somehow i feel like switching jobs....
mmgt getting so strict i felt like back in sch where there's a discipline master ard n we all trying to be rebellious... hahahhaa....
i got a Coffee Bean voucher... yeah2... got a GV movie voucher fm my prev OM too, but i alrdy used tt up.... hmmm i wonder wat else the company will reward us or me for tt matter...

My sis pierced her nose n i really hate it.... she look like an indian now... hahahhaa

btw, i watched Big Mama 2 twice.. on different ocassions.... hahaha... waste money, jus like X Men 2... i watch it twice too...

i miss.....

gosh!! so many things i missed...
i miss school life...
i miss the time-table i have to follow...
i miss the homeworks....
i miss the lectures, tutorials or even sec sch classroom lessons...
i miss the lecturers n teachers...
i miss P.E.!!!
i miss the exams!!
i miss the last min studies, projects!!!
i miss school stress!!!!
i miss being a student......

haiz.. looking back i was a different person at different stages of life...

in Primary sch: i was very very quiet, shy n always ard pple i know cos my cousins, bro r all in the same sch... so innocent n wouldnt care being rebellious or rude.... i dun talk much. i cant remember much in primary sch, all i know im very very low profile, its my bro who is so loud n always try to draw attention in sch tt pple tend to notice me....

in Secondary sch: life changed alot! became independent. i started to learn to speak up more.. haha... my confidence boost up n became egoistic. i make sure i achieve success n be the best in my studies or CCAs. was very active in NPCC, attended all the camps n almost all courses, i got the most badges which makes my uniform looks good. haha! *wink* MLDDS i jus go with the flow cos my friends r all in it, still am part of the committee mbr of the whole malay dept though my malay sucks... hahaha.
hahaha i was the teacher's pet n class chairperson also...
started to use make-up n stuffs, sch skirts was so damn short... haahaa.. friends influences...
getting rebellious also, started losing my tempers to parents n teachers sometimes... i was blending in with my friends... cos all study n no play is no fun! but of cos i dun allow myself to get influence so much. didnt go for gang fights, drink or smoke.... i rem "hang2" pple, confront n slap girls[really my frens really does tt n all of us can slap or rembat if we want, but i nvr lay my hands on other pple's daughter] we dun like.... woah gangstar!! its so kecoh... but of cos, i will jus be there to make sure things dun go bad. we almost got into so much trouble cos this stupid junior go n tell her parents who then told the principal... but of cos, acting all innocent n i-duno-wat-ur-talking-about really help!!
i speak malay ALL the time in sch, unless in english lessons. tts y my english grades not really tt fantastics. even the chinese in class knows how to speak or at least understand malays... in a sch where 70% chinese, malay tends to stand out more.... n ohh my class was so known cos we're outstanding[chey!] we gt the alot of malays, soccer boys, malay dance gals.... our class were so well-known amongst teachers cos we always make trouble, very rowdy n noisy n we make teachers cry!!!hahaha.. overall, im a good student.. i manage to slide my way thru despite the fact tt i didnt really have a good records in terms to behaviour in sch... haiz, still rem all the stupid punishments i had for not bringing the textbooks, not doing homeworks, coming to sch late all the time, for the short skirts i had n etc.....

in Polytechnic: my care-free life!! no stress... i tend to be alot more relaxed. wasnt as active as before. so slack!!! dun care much of my grades, i know im not tt dumb, i will definitely pass so i hack-care... pass can alrdy, tired of being competitive... sch is so far away, getting lazier to attend lessons esp the morning ones!! skip classes alot.. lecturers r like friends, so any lecturers tt tries to be a teacher dun earn any respect fm me! i rem this lecturer who always pick on me cos i always come late, oh he's a bitch, there's this one time i cant stand his naggings i shouted back at him n left the class!!! good thing i can blame it on PMS. after tt incident, he dun dare ask me anything.. haha
meet Amir in this stage, became so attached to him, go to/come back fm sch together n we also shared the same CCA. cool.... we're in Adventure club so we go to expeditions n go canoeing, run n etc together. oh btw, since Business sch is full of girls n mostly chinese, i find it hard to start adjusting to speaking english, but its a good thing also! i learnt to speak up cos of the so many project presentations, i sleep in class alot too... lol
i learnt tt pple r not genuinely nice anymore, pple backstab n used pple to get the grades they want.... wow.. fuhhh!! but i survived....

haiz.. haiz.. haiz... i miss school life...
looking at my sister in her sch life makes me so envious of her... while she keep complaining tt sch is stressful!! aiyoyo... keep telling her secondary school is the best, so treasure it!!
not working today, so my day is pretty laid-back....
now sis aksing me to go out... k bubbyez!!

my gosh... opened eyes n was shock to know tt its 7.58am when i started work at 8am!!
rush like mad but i bathe ok...
haiz im not having enough sleep these days... head felt so heavy.... headache ar....
hate the panda eyes!!!! n i dun seem to care about my exterior anymore cos im jus so damn tired n lazy.
dunno y i dun even bother looking at myself in the mirror!!

haiz, been doin report this whole week n gotten tired of it!!
jus when i was able to hit targets...
now mmgt decides to increase our target~! damn....
its gonna suck... i wont be able to hit targets tt way...
Ahhhhh... tmr's my off day.... finally!!!

yest, i went hm n buy ingredient to cook spagetti, only to realise tt my mum cooks!!
tts so rare tt she cooks... i miss home cooked food so bad.... been living off junk/pack/hawker food all these while... love it when she cooks cos Mum cooks great speciality dishes!! yum yum
anyway, was craving for spagetti so i cooked anyway, Ir got nights off so he help me in the kitchen too... i jus realise tt i duno how to cook malay dishes except curry. wahahaha...

so excited for YY cos she's so close to being SIA airstewardess jus like Shuzhen!!! wow... so exciting.... Go all the way babe!

my expenses r getting uncontrollable, so hard for me to curb!! arrgghh
its so frustrating....
anyway im also so excited for govt bonus nearing elections.... my first ever!! i will get to vote this time... wahahha....