Jobs so fast??

Omigosh!!

i jus about to finish my last lake of education n so many things to handle already!!

i received call for interview as MacDonald Trainee Manager n job recommendation at SIA

haiz.. so fast??

im still unsettled... unprepared...

i still wanna have fun... have alot of things to do before i start working again

still wanna chill!! BUT but but... iof i dun react now, the job opportunity will be gone n taken up by others...

dilemma... dilemma.. im always put into such difficult situation... hate that!

my decisions arent always the best but i wont regret them, stubborn pple r like tat! haha.. always think im right... wahaha... i will somehow right the wrong no matter how wrong my decisions r...

Trainee Manager at McD?? cool... straight be manager!! WOAH... i got experience in F&B so it shdnt be a problem la. bUt shift work n weekends must work. And pple will look down on such job.

But then again, im a service person, its my industry, my forte.. Hmm i see how much they're paying n job advancement they offer before i take up a job. Not bad.

Mum's fren recommended me to work at SIA. No idea wat i'll be doin. Pay ard $1400 but hv 2 yrs contact. I hate contracts. If its a contract, den there wont be any increment this 2 yrs n maybe i be jobless once the contract is done. I would need to find a new job after 2 yrs. So instable but its SIA!! Hmmm... airport somemore! But Amir dun like to work in Airport cos he say the guys there gatal gatal.. yah i shd know better, i worked there rotating routine for 4 mths there!

If i want, confirm can get cos they need pple immediately, some more they require a Diploma n i have advantage cos i live near n im doin Business Admin n Tourism bakground n knowledge.

Hmmm.. haiz... Hmmm....

Dunno la, really dunno... was reading classified section. Got other jobs offer but im at disadvantage, i dun speak Mandarin. Haiz...

Im keeping my options open for now, wont take any job yet cos i still wanna chill.. part-time maybe! But i'll still got for interviews with no intention of working.. haha!

Have a nice day!

Down Wif Flu....

sob... sob.. i fell sick today...
woke up n couldnt get up... felt so tired...
super tired, i dunno y also.. super lazy as well!
keep sneezing... den feverish...
so today MC!! gonna be my last one... feel so cheated $18 see doc...
but at least oklah can rest for a day...
if i go work, still hv to work in a sickly situation n i was slow in everythin i do this morning, i'll still hv to take cab to Suntec which will cost ard $15.
So $18 with one day rest better than $15 with work rite??

tmr my last weekday, Sat my last day of work!! Yippy...
My last paper on Tues was ok... i didnt finish up n made some mistakes but i dun care already!! i've already passed even without taking the paper.. :)

Forgot to blog on my dear Mummy

Happy 46th bday mum....
hmm... she's a year older... on 12 Mar 2005

I forgot to post photo or blog entry...
anyway, on 13Mar05 we all decided to hv dinner at Gurame Indonesian Restaurant
took taxi to Marine Cove n walk ard East Coast area...
Den we go on n went to play bowling... funny funny
that when my cousins came along n join.. was kinda impromptu...
all photos updated on Monday,28 Mar are taken on tt day

On way back, mum n dad took cab hm which bro paid for.
me bro n sis took a ride on Fadil's [my bro fren] sports car
wah! he parked his car so far we had to walk far...
his car is cute n music is so cool!! i sat on front seat after he drop his cousin off at eunos...
wen we reach hm... me bro n sis watch VCD together.. Nice
felt sorry i didnt hv time to get mum a present ... so preoccupied wif projs!
i treat mum, bro n sis to Seoul Garden the week after..
ahhh.... felt better...

Dinner at Gurame Indonesian Restaurant, 13 Mar 2005.. Mum's bday on 12 Mar 

a slice of mum's cake... yummy! choc truffle, my fav cake ever! 

My family... 'Happy 46th Bday Mama!' 

Lazy weekends

hehehe... weekends r always great..

im loving it...

yay! Friday no work! Good but lazy Friday... Eat n sleep eat n sleep... Laze ard.. met Ir for awhile at Tamp on Friday night, snack ard, eat dinner den we watch Tv wif sis at home...

Sat, took taxi to work again!! It seems like every Sat i took taxi... its like 6 times in a row alrdy, waste money only $12 per trip! Take taxi good la cos no need to walk to MRT, no bridge no need to stand in trains n no need to walk to Suntec.... plus can waste time at hm. I always woke up late on sat cos sis not schooling... no one to nag at me! After work, we go out after work den watch Miss Congenality 2, hehhe.. funny but not as fun as the first one.. den normal la, walk2... wanted to go to Concert Hanyut but its raining n cfm packo one... so we skipped tat... Sis went, i heard fm her some of my cousins were there too...

On Sunday, Im so erratic.. hehe... cos my menses come!! woah.. hurts like mad, cramps here and there.. den my sensitivity level went way up!! i can cry at anythin....
Early morning was suffering, keep curling n rolling... arghh very irritating...
Ir wanted to meet me b4 he book in, but i keep declining.. dunno y also.. den i cry... i also dunno y... hahaha... in the end never meet... n btw, i didnt study at all... no study on Fri, Sat or Sun!! im crazy... really crazy... haiz.. jus no mood to study at all...
den in evening, cramps felt better... mum n sis wanted to go bowling at Downtown East, my sis managed to talk me into going even though i know i still hadnt studied...
If i go, i get to bowl n have a good time and can hv dinner n supper!! Yum! Mum n Dad also like dun care so i jus go la... i got ready in jus 3mins.. super fast! we took taxi there so can reach there fast! cool huh? everythin so fast!!
Faizal called last min telling me Liza having birthday chalet there.. so i jus drop by wif sis. Mum n Dad go walk ard first. My gosh, it so embarrassing... I wished 'Happy bday' to the wrong gal... paiseh2, its dark i guess!! hehehe... But really, she look alot like Liza... hehehe
Then her bbq pit got so few pple, i was expecting to meet alot of familiar faces there but i dun seem to know anyone there... nvm, luckily i 'slumber', so i entertained myself. My sis also say i not paiseh like tt but i dun care la... after eating, poof! off i go to play bowling...
N i must say, I SUCK AT IT.. darnz....
nvm, thou shall not give up! i shall practise more often.. if got money... hehe
Bro came over cos he didnt bring his keys n he's damn good at bowling.. kanasai!
Stikes here n there... mine always go down the drains....
Had supper.. yum yum... satay!! eat n eat n eat....
went home n felt guilty... jus as i was about to read my notes, Ir called.. chat n chat n chat till 2am... so i only started reading notes aft tt... den fall asleep
Worken up my Ir's call at 5am.. he FORCED me to wake up n study...
study abit n sleep abit... Sis also very naggy in the morning, haiz.. i hate waking up early!
buti was happy as i go to work early, can dilly-delly walk but still on time! :)

The dinner food spread... but still incomplete, alot more dishes hadnt come 

so sweet isnt she? 

**ala & ijan** 

tts me... n i sux at bowling.. Boo! 

???? erm.... Mum, Bro n Dad 

ahh.. my fav bowl photo shot on sis! im good huh?  

hmmm... Mum looks weird... haha 

He almost get a strike 

This is the place: Marine Bowl at Marine Cove, East Coast 

hmmm... i think me n my sis look a lil alike in this pic.... 

the man who pays for our games, shoes n socks... 

~Bday Gal n Me!~ 

Bowling shoes.... 

ok.. decision decided

hehe.. Ven, i'll retype it for u k...

summarised version!

I'VE DECIDED... finally!!

i decided not to pursue my studies...

i wanna chill for now... relax.. take a break...

i'll find some part-time job soon in May or June

den later... get a permenant full-time job...

i've been studying all these years, now i wanna take a break

plus no money.. me need money, me need a break...

r u kiddding me? i jus about to end my attachment, y wld i wanna rush to get a job...

rest den work part-time la...

N after much pondering, I've decided not to teach...

I dun wanna teach, i dunno y also...

Decision decided...

Love...

ok.. im supposed to be studying...
final paper on Tues, so excited... FINAL!!

wat am i doing? supposed to be studying..
haiz... feeling lost now...
He never contact me for days...
it stills weird, n still affects me... i dunno y the effect last so long for me
pple say, usually when ur bf goes NS, u'll get used to it soon..
but its been more than 6mths alrdy... i dun think i can adapt to this...

i felt exactly the same way whenever i see him like i jus met him few years back!!
ironic!!
he still makes my heart beats fast each time i met him...
his little sms tt cost 5 cents can enlighten me up instantly...
our dates, no matter how simple it may be, always makes me happy!
this thing... this connection or feelings tat i have for him, constantly makes me want to have more of him n never get tired of it...
there's never a boring moment between us

And, at times like this, its good cos i'll treasure him more
its ironic cos i started off as someone who's supposed to know bout relationship, but it turn out, he's the one doing all the sweet stuffs and keeps 'us' alive...
i still cant believe im his first galfren!!! n i hope to be the last...
Hopefully... i really want this to work out...

Amir Hamzah: short, dark, irritating, ignorant, technical, not-well-of
Does it matter??
Hell NO!
~Love conquer all~
There's alot more nicer, sweeter, more appealing qualities about him that i know. It pretty much satisfy me...

I MISS U BABY... wherever u are...
I LOVE U.... period!

i screwed up my paper

the BPT paper is over but i feel bad about it...
i know im gonna fail for it.. fail badly.. probably scores 10% only...
but its a relief to know tt i'll pass overall anyway...

serves me right anyway, was too lazy to study for it...
no mood, no motivation....
i can count the number of lectures i attended with one hand!! but i never skipped tutorial classes though!
i was so tired from work n TV seems more intertesting than reading notes

so now, left with one last exam next Tues... UCCD!! i know its a difficult module, alot of context n essay-writing answers are required... but i hv to pass this paper anyway.. *finger-crossed*
haiz.. jus one more week to the end.. one week...
next week marks the end of everythin!! i'll be a diplomat soon...

??????

haiz... came hm... another mail...
it jus makes my decision harder to make...
i received yet another $1000 study grant from Stansfield College
i receive the same for Singapore Institute of Commerce(SIC)
headache.. headache!! oouch!

of cos, i wanted to continue studying.. preferably a Bachelor of Science in Management at University of London either at Stansfield or SIC.
Bachelor in Biz Admin from University of Newcastle at PSB is also fine...
money.. money.. money...
b'cos of my Diploma, i only need 2 yrs to complete my Degree, unlike 4yrs in NUS, SMU or NTU

Dad say he's ok with it but i'll hv to support myself... its not tt i want him to pay anyway..
i want to bear full reponsibility, i dun wan to ask any money from my parents
i manage to convince Dad tt i will be independent n taking up part-time job.. i also told him tt if i go NIE if will also take me 2 yrs to complete but i will only get a Diploma in Education, not a degree...
but i still hv to discuss with Mum.. which is not easy..
She doesnt even approve of my poly education!!! she will say tt i be too old by time i graduate
my parents were so afraid i wont be able hv enough savings to get married if i wated time n money on higher education.. haha! actually quite true, they hv a point!!
i still have to pay back my Diploma n Degree loans when i start working... will i hv enough cash by then? if i dun work now, lower CPF... still hv to use housing loans to buy house...
haiz.. then, tt'll be NEVER-ENDING debts!!!
headache.. heachache! ouch!! ouch... ouch!
WHAT EXACTLY DO I WANT???

opps! i forgot to post this one... out dinner together... hahha... 

DISAPPOINTED

disappointed.... sad.... numbed...
jus mere disappointment... dun understand y pple say 'ok-ok' or 'anythin' when they dun mean it... pple r so weird... none r real... includin myself i guess

i realise pple r out to impress, to make them look gd, leave a gd impression
y? y cant jus speak ur mind, be straight, be genuine

our last pic together before we separate last sat, 12 mar 2005 

amir snap this pic of me! im unaware... 

hee.... cute! big smiles while waiting for dinner 

My baby!! :) 

met sharifah shahirah, my sec sch fren while she's givin out flyers at Raffles City 

Polar Pies anyone?? yum.. i love it.. 

tts Vijay, our driver.... an expert on airlines n good with tourists... he's really cool n calm wen handlin 'kancong' tourist on spot! 

my workstation!! can see my hp n name or not?? hehe.. i stuck my neoprints on my keyboard cos i dun wanna waste my stickers by sticking it somewhere on my desk. im innovative huh?? i think my desk is the most personalised compared to others. THIS IS MY DESK, BUZZ OFF.. haha tts the msg i wan pple to noe esp on Tues wen im not ard!