madagasca

haha.. we watch madagasca instead... changed our minds..
cute cartoon!!!
wow orchard was super-pack yest.. its the start of Singapore Sale!!
the movies were fully packed too! almost all sold out.

we ate at great treat.. had seafood.. oooo yum yum!!
after tt we're too full for anythin else! only snack in between...
at taka, there's the madagasca show... very cute sia the lion[ALEX] n the penguins dancing on stage..

like always, time passes by so fast...
i will share some pix soon...

~Wedding Couple~ 

everyone's helping out 

the bridegroom n bride[my cousin, Alawiyah] 

tts by grandpa... a respectable man... the man who brought me up while my parents goes to work 

Sis, Bro, Mum, the Couple n ME 

me n my baby cousin, Nasrul Anis 

Tests Ended...

yup.. my tests ended...
scored quite well for all.. the re-test was fine too...
was most impressed by my Wireless Data test, i scored 96%.. its tough but fun! all the 2.5G n 3G n bluetooth n GPRS n Blackberry n WAP n Outdoor Wireless and etc etc....
my Roaming Test was very tricky... can be a lil confusing but it was ok... its an impt thing to know cos its bout calling/receiving calls n sms overseas, there's always dispute/query on this
so now only left with systems... so many of them to learn!
there's Pegasus, ICON, CSI, CRS, ACS, CVS, Atomic, PPAS, Lahore, KM, PARIS and etc...
wah! still got so much to learn every single day!
my brain gets tired alrdy..........
next wed have to go to STA[Singapore Telecom Academy] for another 3 days...

i also had alot of different2 passwords n ID for diff applications.. dunno how to rem them all... n im quite upset that they register my name as Amelia Samsuar... the others get to keep their original name. Their nickname r only for work purposes .. i wonder who was the one in-charge of this stuff! sadly for me... its Amelia[nick] and Amelia Samsuar[registered name].. darnz... nvm...

tmr wanna go watch movie with Ir... we both wanna watch Monster-in-Law...
we also agreed to meet at 10.00am at Hougang, his place so there wont be any waste of time...
but jus now he called n say we're to go to Poly Marina[west coast] for SP Adventure Hand-Over.. i jumped at tt n got angry at tt instant tt i ended the call....
He told me to be understanding n tt we'll be there only for a while... but i simply refused!
I dunno y i reacted tt way.. must hv been really mad just now.. here i am trying to spend as much time with him den he wants to waste time on going some club function.
i had to wake early to get ready n meet him @ his house n he's trying to waste time
soon he called again n told me tt he needed to get a bag fm his fren attending tt same function, yah but even so, can take the bag some other time wat!!!
im being unreasonable.. i know... but tmr gonna be last day to spend together before he headed to Taiwan! he got rewang on sunday..
in the end... he said ok... we dun hv to go.. knowing how upset i was!
to be frank, i wasnt really happy when he said tt.. my mood jus change alrdy.. no ethusiasm for tmr alrdy.. its gone! Hopefully tmr went well...

me & mel 'lepaking'

stationery n my pink bottle 

training room before anyone came... quite in a mess! tables not properly aligned.  

me in our training room.... 

A Pleasant Suprise!!

on Monday, 23 May 2005... Ir brought me to Pasir Ris Park...
was suprise to see him with his big backpack and fishing rods n cooler...
he bought a 6-men tent jus for tt day, but of cos can be used for other occassions too la!
alalalalala.. so sweet!
He was quite upset cos he couldnt find an instant griller on time to do a mini bbq...
but i think it was fabulous alrdy...

ya... tried fishing for the first time!!!
wasnt really fishing... he does everythin for me actually... wahhahaha!!
so its a lil leceh... must do the line den knots den the stuff n stuff.. ya Ir's really good at those hands-on.. leave it to him! [which is y he does mech engineering n not me!]
euuuwww... he squeeze the worm n put in the hooks... yuck! of cos im not gonna do it!!!
he also bought a bell jus for me so tt when the rod moves[if the fish bites] i can detect easily! normally fishernen dun do tt la.. its jus to amuse me n gets me excited...
I caught a fish, a small one... dunno wat its called in english but Ir say it tasted like chicken when u cooked it n tt it craoks like a frog... scary sia.. croak croak...
after tt, we kinda lazy to fish.. jus left the rods there but we're in the tent... nice tent.. absolutely love it!!! ate all our food, snacks n chocolates n our chilled drinks...

day seem to pass by so quickly... n we had to pack n go...
one last weekend for me... n off he goes to Taiwan..
gonna miss him lots.. i can feel it!!
i never felt so strongly about someone before... i hope he's the one... let it be HIM...
we're gone thru alot.. tough n good times... n he's such a sweet guy who's manly enuff tt i can depend on..
to be very frank, im very much dependent on him... very manja too! hehe
love is not about finding a perfect person but seeing an imperfect person perfect!
he's perfect to me.. errm except for temper n a lil of violence n ego n financially instable BUT he's still perfect!

i hope to have another movie date or probably another beach laid-back day...
watever it is...
i wanna take it slow... as slow as possible...
if only there's a way to defy the impossible... defy time!

My Cousin's Wedding

wow... im really tired...

ate alot... there's a whole wide range of food available... more than 15 varieties!

lazy to name all.... alot of desserts too!

its really nice -- the food n the decor n the bride n bridegroom...

i will post the pix asap!

oh btw, im having fun editing my pix...

will post them soon too...

i really need a good photographer, other than myself [hehe!], sum1 who knows how to take angles rather than jus saying 'cheese!'

i failed my first test... sob sob... scored only 78% when passing mark is 85%..

nvm... i need to sit for re-test... determined to pass this time round...

im still womdering when is the re-test, date not cfm yet!

tmr.... got a date with Ir! yay...

miss my baby so much....

i really dunno wat we're goin to do tmr...

hope everythin goes well...

*peace!*

ahhh... my fav bottle... 

Confused...

one of my fren Kenneth drop out fm work..
ish ish...haiz... i must stay on... i hv to
i been thru 2 tests alrdy.. more to come
so far the 2 test was okay but i really am not confident of passing the 85%

today i was especially restless... fell asleep in class...
been eating alot alot alot ALOT lately...
i really dunno if its stress or something else... still figuring y...
Ir was sick, he called me.. felt really sorry for him..
i cant do anything... All i can is to be nice n care for him verbally...
poor guy, sick with fever n flu n still not excused for the jungle training!

i fear each day.. there's always impt things to learnt...
all the test coming up... the next one is on Friday
results for the past 2 test is much anticipated!! haiz....
i forgot Widya's bday on 15May05.. im so sorry...
she seem pissed over the phone wen i talk to her jus know but i hope she understand i had too much on my mind...
not having sufficient finance is also killing me....
still need to pay my bills n expenses....
really cant wait for my pay... but im really afraid n nervous to go on-board[start work] which will happen real soon... right after trg ends...
seem so tough... got alot of audits somemore! so scared...

i feel kinda weird these days...
i seem so lost...
i dunno wat im feeling n how im feeling...
spending money seems to make me happy...
buying stuff or food or snacks when i dun need or not hungry.. seem to make me feel satisfied
im going insane...
the guilt of not excercising n not in control of my food intake n money makes me feel STUPID n FOOLISH..
i dunno y im feeling this way...
even though i know it upsets me... i still do nothing but upsets myself further
at hm, i seem happy... cos my sis is always ard to entertain me n keeps me happy...
but i feel so lost deep inside... its been days i talk to anyone about me, about how i feel...
i dun feel like talking anyway....
really feel so weird...
was a different person at work, so quiet n blur n crazy sometimes...
a happy person at home....
but felt different inside... i jus dun feel like ME...

Days r boring without him... *sings* Lonely.. im so lonely...  

Me @ Hougang 

Delifrance Meal for 1.. Jus for me! hehehe 

Going to work.... Bus 72 

Short Date

sad... but not upset...

on friday, immediately after work i travelled bout 2hrs to Boon Lay to give him a suprise...
i was suprised instead! he only book-out ard 8.50pm when I was there ard 6.30pm!
jus had dinner at JP, den he send me hm...
the wait was worth it, my friend CX told me to go hm but i really wanna see him so i waited alone...
the hugs, kiss, smiles and the sincere appreciation was my gift!

den on Sat,1.30pm we met at TM for movie, Kingdom of Heaven...
oklah, the movie was alright.. not really tt fun...
had our meal at Delifance den we had to be parted again when its only 5pm!
no choice, he had to book in again tt night..
to extend my time with him, I send him back hm to Hougang...
he bathe n dressed up... den off he goes... in a taxi!!
i watched him taking off in a taxi.. sadly... awaiting bus 72 to arrive...
haiz... tts my day! jus short moments we both share...

next week... my cousin is getting married... n i will be involved both on Sat & Sun...
cant see him again... haiz... can c him on Mon [vesak day]
tts all the time i hv left before he goes off to Taiwan...
leaving me alone... like his always does! but i understand.. it aint his fault!
sometimes i wonder, is being in OCS or getting higher pay worth it?
yes he may earn $700 a mth but his expenses is alot...
till nw... i can see him struggling financially...
but he's really sweet... he puts me first ahead of himself..
he gave me cash jus so i hv enough for food n transport...

yest... he told me... "My baby is so cubby now.... [with a smile!] but its ok... doesnt matter... wat's important is tt I love u..."

Amelia speaking....

woah singtel is really very very strict sia
im sort-of part of them now..
i know stuffs im not suppose to expose... cool!
n oh! i forgot to mention this... we're suppose to give ourselves a nickname for work
all my names like Zan, Iza, Azzy, Ziezie r all rejected!
we cant have similar sounding names so not to confuse the customers..
it must be easy or 'English' sounding...
I was the last one to hand up the form.... no choice cos i really dunno wat name to use..
'Amelia' jus popped up n its approved!!
My TL says its a sweet name... hehhee... im like only given 5 mins on 1st day of work to came up a nick! So Amelia goes... wahahhaa...

Information overload!!

woah.. im really tired!!
i drank alot of coffee to stay awake!
yest was alright.. alot of activity... oh we moved to trg room from yest onwards, so tts our permenat classroom...
i feel like its a revision of wat i learnt in poly but more focused on the pdt/service...
its also like an english class... right choice of words.. n etc etc...
imagine... yest first thing in the morning, she flash a motion on the screen n immediately she ask us to grp up n start to debate...
really really alot of activities... all with hidden meanings!

today's the opposite....
very very serious stuffs today... all the diff diff kinds of standard procedures
steps to follow... price plans.. blah blah..
blearggghhh!! my brain cant digest tt much info! There's alot alot to go thru so she needs to go thru them ALL quite fast... INTENSIVE TRAINING!!
wah kanasai! so complex n complicated sia... we all dun understand how to make customer understand later?
every1 is having a tough time understanding, digesting n focusing!
alot of qns r being raised... every1 knew its VERY impt...
test is next week!! n the passing mark is 85%....

today's mandarin lesson was fast too!
i really think i had information overload...
shikin... wo de piao mei keep laughing over 'oreo'....
wahhahaa!
n tt class was the weirdest classmates i ever had... every1 is so quiet!
they like.. dun wanna interact or maybe too shy...
talk to taufiq today.. muahahaha he tot im his age,17-18!

n oh! Amazing Race was amazing...
Ucheanna n Joyce really deserve it! i respect Uncheanna alot.. so gentleman... they're both good pple!! Joyce shaving her head really brought good luck i guess!!

Day 2

i came early again... thsi time 8.30am... hahaha
came 2gether wif Mel... we met at Hougang bus stop...
cos she takes 81 n i took 72 den switch to 25 or 55...
Nick as usual took cab home.. kanasai tt boy 17yr old.. so rich! hp got PDA took cab 4 times alrdy! Rich man... stay Sengkang some more!

today we had our soft training at a bigger conference room!
we didnt step into the office compound at all! trg all day
basically today is like learning a module... Customer Care Service
hahha... very much like wat i learnt in sch lect but this one got alot of interactions n games!
the facilitator brought us soft toys n dice for us to play wif, n M&M n gummy n sweets for us to eat... she also provide us with the module handouts n coloured markers for us to sketch or wat la...
played games... wahahha... head-tail game, den got prize!
den broke up into 2 teams to brainstorm ideas of settling up our own businesses...
im the only biz student in my grp n they hv alot of biz students on the other teams but it went well la....

haiz.. tmr cont the module.. den Wed onwards will b learning other things!
must learnt alot.. alot.. alot!
Product knowledge n the many diff diff diff kinds of system applications! Pegasus, CSI, ICON, Starlight, IDEAS n etc etc...
there's even a KM, knowledge module.... wow!
i will only be graduating in june... haiz but pretty nervous when they audit me after the trg ends..
SingTel has high standards... IT n telecommunications r moving so fast!
fm pagers to hp... to polyphonic hp... to camera hp.. n now 3G hp!! the video conferencing!!
so much to learn... WAP, GPRS, 3G, auto-roaming n lots lots more...
must learnt fast fast... be upfront or on par wif technology... like they say:
"you all r the new generations.. younger, brighter batch of pple! You can definitely graduate n learn faster!"

But im really afraid.. cos the prev batch got 3 or 4 alrdy drop out bcos they find it too tough n stressful even b4 they grad. No matter wat, I hv to grad! I wont give up n im not paying the agency 2x my pay!!
Oh btw, Widya got a job at Baleno... wow! its paying her basic... $1.6k... tts really alot cos havent add commision or allowance..
kanasai! Im a diploma holder but i earn much much less.. where's the justice? nvm2.... slowly2...
btw, YY im not earning much... i go by the hour... only 7 hrs fm mon - fri... how much i earn only... not even a thousand...

Day 1

work has started but i still consider myself not working.. hahaha
feels so good to be earning money but not doing actual work yet..
well... im on training...

Day 1 was very simple
i came very very early at 8.15am when work starts at 9.00am... hahhaha
had breakfast at the cafeteria...
there's orientation n ice breaker n all....
great! we dun anythin except listening n interactive with one another...
There's 10 of us in my batch of new CSO... all from diff parts of S'pore!
although this job requirement is only O levels... ironically all of them are diploma holders except for Nick cos he has experience in SingTel if not i dun think he got this job!
ahhhh....this is where educational qualification plays a higher role!
all of us came from agency but 4 diff agencies!

Mel - mly gal prev from NP, CK Tangs ex-perfume promoter, joker... loves her... close to her!

Leonard - chi guy, fresh grad fm NP, joker.. loves him!

Tommy - chi guy, ORD, prev fm NYP, ex-M1 sales distributor

Nick- indian guy, youngest 18yrs old, prev fm SingTel Corporate Admin at Spore Post Centre[his mum works there!]

Yan - mly guy, ORD, prev fm SP... civil structure eng student

Kenneth - chi guy, fresh grad fm NP

Sherwyn - Filipino guy, prev fm AIG, SingTel

Cherly - chi gal, fresh grad fm SP... DMC student

CX - Chi guy, fresh grad fm SP... DMC student

and finally ME!!

that's all 10 of us....
for our 4weeks trg, 2 extra existing employee fm diff dept... Alvin & Lynn joined us
Nice knowing all 12 of them... hmmm... i dun wanna mention their ages la, but they're all nice pple...

Interesting facts
-- Mel n I clicked the minute we saw each other n started talking. By lunch, she soon revealed tt she knew me b4 this... we used to go boyband-chasing together last time! yah.. with Maia too!
-- Leonard is the onlyy guy same age as me! he was also fm Normal Academic stream... we both scored A2 for English in N levels but scored C6 in O Levels
-- Alvin stays in Tampines n Mel in Paris [Pasir Ris.. as Mel says it but we took diff flights to work]
-- Cheryl & CX were classmates in SPSB, DMC student... Nazlyn[my fren] were their classmate
-- Tommy & I knew each other cos we were fm same agency, met him at interview
-- Sherwyn is fm Philippines so we talk alot cos my grandma is one too

Nothin much really... we go thru all the rules n regulations.. laws....
how to fill up our time sheet...
org chart... orientation ard the office....
double-banking calls[listen to call]
we hadnt started working but we can feel the pressure n stress...
so callers r really expressive n demanding n there's alot of programmes application to use... n there calls keeps coming n coming... 10 mins about 4 calls per CSO! wow... so stress
my Team Leader is Leka.. very nice lady
we were basically at the conference rm, Sympony the whole day

Simple day

yesterday went fine...
jus a normal day.. but wif Amir
the man looks really drained... you can see his tiredness...
nothin much really.. he jus came over to my house n brought alot of food..
my gosh i alrdy had heavily breakfast n lunch!!
den we go TM... wanted to catch a movie....
he misses our movie dates...
my gosh it $9.50 yest! We're both broke so didnt catch the movie...
next week hopefully...
time is limited now... he's going to Taiwan like next next week.. 2 weeks?
omg! only left wif next week cos the week after i be busy with my cousin's wedding!
i gave him a massage yest, n i got mine in return too...
my gosh! its pain than comfort... he's so 'ganas'... but it felt so great after tt.. refreshed!
my sis was laughing at me when im in pain....
he's great.. AMir's back... crap! he said he was having his 'period' last few weeks.. wahaha
looked ard to get a present for mum... everythin so ex, i cant afford... but im gonna get sumthin... i will!

hmmph! dad discussing on our vacation trip.. still undecided at this point!
sad case... i cant go alrdy... im working...
the date is set, 10 June 2005 n i cant go!
BOO HOO!!!
oh btw, my job has alot of rules n law... SingTel has their law n RecruitExpress has their own set of laws!! anyways, i cant quit or get myself terminated these 5mths.. if not, im liable to pay 2x my pay to them...
so i better treat this as ITP.. i cant give up no matter how bad it is
endurance.. endurance...
Tmr start work alrdy... so fast.. too fast...

Happy Mother's Day

happy mother's day mummy....
she's 46 now.. been a mom for 23years.. [since my bro's birth la]

mummy ... mummy
--: though we frequently argue n you constantly scold vulgarity n hurt me deeply almost all the time...
--: though i never had any memories of being kissed or hugged by you [i dunno if she does wen i was a baby]
--: though we never had a mother-daughter conversation
--: though we're not so close
--: though i never share my problem to you
--: though i dun feel the love from you...

.... I still love you...
thank you for giving birth to me...
thank you for giving me a life n keep me staying alive...
i was a sick baby.. thankfully i lived still today...
I love you mummy...

Weird.. weird... weird...

yest was a weird day....
dunno y got pple coming up to me or calling me....

1. received calls from SMU, Stansfield college n SIM again!! haiya.. i wanna study but no money la...
2. den keep receiving calls from Mornington Country Club asking me to be their Sales Executive... but i must achieve at least 6 client to join membership in a mth before i get paid... so i reject again n again!
3. i was at paya lebar den suddenly 2 guys keep looking at me for dunno-wat-reason.. as i walked pass them, they purposely say out loud, "eh die dulu sekolah ngee ann kan?" -eh this gal last time schooling at ngee ann rite- i stopped n turned n took a quick look n walk away... i dunno them at all....
4. oh! the taxi driver i took yest morning spoke chinese to me all the way... he hv no idea im not chinese! i understood him so i go with the flow la... he sounded like native China man n he needs the street director to get to my destination... nice man though!
5. as i was walking very quickly to my class.... i wasnt aware tt there's this guy was following me all along.. i didnt notice since when cos i wasnt looking ard, was jus worried i be late so i jus walk n walk... den he suddenly turn to me n said, "gurl... gurl... wats ur name ar? where u goin to? can i have ur no.? i wanna get to know n be frens wif u..." i totally ignored him. i simply smile n say... "sorry i cant.. n im rushing for class... n i really cant... my guy wont like it... Bye!" wahahaha....
6. there's this old pple who came up to me n ask me where's the hospital in mandarin? n omg! i totally walk past them... i didnt know there're talking to me... besides... we're at outram mrt switching train fm NEL to MRT, so there's alot of pple walkin in the same direction... i dunno it was me! n im not chinese! omg.. i feel so bad... every rushing for the train!
7. on my way back hm fm class.... there's this couple... i dunno them... they're fm diff direction but they walk to my direction... suddenly the gal shout out, "gal!! Gal!!" den she lift up he hand n indicate me to come over.... kanasai! i dun even know u, wat for come over... so i ignored them n walked home...
8. And, oh! Amir msg me in chinese these days... sumtimes i dun even understand... his bunkmates la... teach him... aiyoo... lidat also so happy! come on, i jus learn only... dun expect me to know everythin! anyway good for u baby, ur going Taiwan soon in May 30, so yah... continue learning Mandarin there!! Oh btw, his frens actually taught him how to sing Chinese song.. so sweet of them.. they actually teach him word-by-word... omg! unfortunately... he didnt finish the song... progressing too slow[Amir doesnt even know Chinese at all.. at least i know abit2 fm the drama series i watch!] ... wahaha...
8. Did i mention how weird i am at the interview? Read the entry below... my gosh! im damn sleepy n brain not functioning the right way... luckily i still can pull it thru though! i know im smart... i can be smart even when my brain is not working properly.. erm... though there's some stupid moment like.."ermm i dun really know wat my dad does at work" DUH!! tts so dumb... i knew it all my life! he works there longer than my whole life...

so ok... its pretty random! not in order la....
n im supposed to go agency today at 10am but i lazy la... so Emily said 2pm...
Widya msg me again, asking me out to meet her n Noran... ok... another date! haha
Ven also msg me... saying nxt Sun wanna go out... another date!! wahahhaa
so exciting... I MISS U GUYS!!
yeah.. its the weekends tmr... i love wkends...
i hope... tmr it will a better week for us...
tolerance.. tolerance.. must tolerate his craps... must keep in mind he's a man.. my man!
let him be 'man-ly'... let him be happy.. let him win... at least for once!
wahahaha... i seemed happy! even though tt bloody woman gave me a C for both ITP n proj!
its ok... she's jus an old unmarried woman who unimportant in my life... i got better happy things in my life...
happy thoughts... happy thoughts... la la la la la.. *smiles*

Sleepy.. sleepy

Darnz.... im sleepy these days!
still sleepy now but cant sleep yet, got classes later...
Y am I so sleepy?
haiz.... because of finding a job la...
yeah i got a temp job.. pays $6/hr for 4mths...
not much actually but i really needed a job.. badly needed money

i tot i was so unemployable... it turn out that my jobstreet.com's acc sumthin wrong... my resume is not in word format n my photo couldnt be displayed cos its size is too large!
it was only on tues that i started to email my resume directly to ads...
it turns out it was a recruitment firm... RecruitExpress... n boy they were fast!
i sent out resume on Wed 2am n by 12.30pm[yest] i receive a call fm Emily to ask me down for interview yest at 3pm... i hadnt bathe at tt time... barely awake yet!
went there... she said i was suitable n qualified for the job, n the co. is SingTel Customer Contact Service!! yay.. always wanted SingTel or SIA or SATS!!
but then.. its at serangoon north.. so far...
she den told me to wait for SingTel for interview to call me if they pick me!
den this morning... ard 9.15am... Emily called again!! ask me to be ready for interview at Serangoon North at 11am!!
wah.... i was still very very sleepy siak! i slept past 3am last night... was watching soccer match...
woah... rush rush like mad... forced myself to get out of bed... den took taxi... the place really2 far...

came there... 11.15am... shit late... den the interview was like... huh?
2 interviewee.. asking me situational qns... shit.. i jus crap n crap...
my mind not working la... still sleeping... jus give nonsense east west client senario...
she ask me to share a conversation with difficult caller... i jumbled up 2 different situations...
as i was explaining.. i myself got lost by wat im saying... my brain stopped, "eh? wat am i saying? hmmm.. huh? wat did i say? where did i stop?"
when they ask alot of qn on customer calls.. i jus crap... darnz.. wats happening??
im normally eloquent... i can attempt any qns when pple usually questions me...
weird... weird...
even when i told them my dad works for SingTel, she ask me wat he work as.. i simply said 'technician'. She asked if he fixes lines.. i stumb... i dun seem to know wat to answer n said, "erm... i actually dun really know wat he does for work.." WOAH !!! kanasai!!! I KNOW I KNOW... i knew he fixes n repair telephone lines in homes or offices.. he works there for 30yrs n i knew it all along.. dunno y my brain is not functioning
See! i told u i was still sleeping...
n stupid me.. i even told them i was bored n sleepy.. not used to waking up early
they were pretty unsure if im serious bout the job.. wahaha

den on the way hm... Emily calls me again....
"Congratulations u got a job! can u come down tmr at my office at raffles at 10am? i need to settle some transactions with u..."
Darnz! hv to wake up early again tmr... tts like 3 in a row!!!

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these days have been hanging out with Widya alot....
envy her... i wanna have a baby too... when the right time comes la!
hang out with Noran too... but she everyday busy teaching tuition n new bf, a rich one... lol
envy her too, she doesnt hv to work cos her mum dun allows her to.. plus rich bf! haha
poor me.... no money.. n still hv outstanding bills to pay....
so guys, if my hp line got cut off.... it mean im really broke... n tt will happen really soon..
Liyana always not at hm, she's either sleeping or bathing or went out whenever i called.
haiz.. i hate pple with no HP!!

anywayz, my poly frens [classmates] have all gone out to work.
shout out to them all : "hi guys!! hows life?? dun forgot me ya, working adults!"
haha.. im bored...
i have alot of frens or aquantainces but i have very few close frens...
the closest wld be none other than Amir Hamzah who's only available in the weekends!
someone once told me she never believe in frens cos they're not there when u need them..
i still dun agree though.
anyway i aint got a problem, jus bored.
if i do hv prob, i know who to call.. provided they r free!
its so mundane... everyday do housework, watch tv, look for jobs in straits classified n internet, send out resume n wait for the phonecall....

tmr got Mandarin classes again...
the boring class... so sianz... but oklah... learnt abit... not to my standard yet
ceh! she teach me things i alrdy know....
hanyu pinyin.... vowels, consonants, 4 tones.. blah blah
now learning numbers... quite interesting la...
"yi.. er... san.. si... wu... liu.. qi... ba.. jiu.. shi... shi yi... blah blah"
i know, "wo de shen re... shi yue qi hao"
wahhahaha .. sori ah this comp cannot use the strokes2 la... so cannot explain the tones...
oh btw, Yuying... the 'Yu' is so difficult to pronounce!!
luckily i know you.... so its easier for me to pronounce it.. others hv alot of difficulties.. haha

sick... sick... sick...

im sick of home...
every day same routinal stuff...
hate not having anythin to do...
i've been a full-time student all these while.. so sick of having too much free time!!
i really dunno wat to do...
Almost everyone had a job by now... well... except for some la...

Feels like going down to beach...

Life's a mess!

everythin is going crazy....
im going thru difficult times now!
so many things happened... i really dunno where to start...
sob.. sob...

im jobless n hopeful to get a job...
but at same time, i didnt wanna hv one yet cos i wanna go to Bangkok trip with sis, dad n bro in June!
I wanted to get a part-time job but im afraid i'll past the opportunity of getting a full-time job.
i wanna work, yet half-hearted...

life's a mess too...
too many things going on with my private life that i dun wish to add on the stress by starting to work. besides, i badly wanna go bangkok or KL for a shopping spree before i jet-start my career.

Amir.... y have u changed so much??
i miss the old you...
i really hope you control your temper and violence...