new year eve

~~ Zizz & Zann ~~

the cute ones. hehe

c.o.l.o.u.r.s. love colours!!
in a lift
this walkway is usually crowded!!

peace out!!

weeee!!! im on leave. dun hv to work nite shift tonite! :)

many of my plans backfire... so lets wait n see how it goes la

watever it is, im jus happy nt to report to work. contented.

slpt really late last nite... ard 4am... watch soccer with Zizz...

liverpool vs man city. he wanted to watch it.

at the same, tryin to study last min, but no use la bring the books along! didnt really read.

hmmm boring match!! tkde thrill ar. kinda upsetting.... 0-0

but ok.... lucky the goalkeeper, Hart, kinda cute. haha. oh well, girls!

its funny, cos we're like passing each other stuff. he jus gave me dvd.

n oh!! espirit voucher!! yes!! he gave me. oohhh love him!! :)

i tink i been using shopping vouchers n spending alot alot more than watever the vouchers' worth. hehe. its ok. shopping will hv to stop today!!! im so going for last min new yr eve shopping later..... for one LAST time!! a fren told me "wahhh lucky im nt a girl" haha

woke up early at 6am but reluctant to get ready... slp slp slp n delayed till 9.30am n i started rushing! hehehe... at the back of my mind, "hey!! its the last day of the year.... there's always cab.. so y not?" so i took my time ar.... came on time la but taxi cab fares r really pricey now!! i wont complain cos its NYE.

one hr in class n i gt bored. dun feel like proceeding anymore. hehe. tired la.

i text Ir to meet for lunch but he cldnt make it. hmmm.... so it makes the class draggy-ier.

oh btw, wats interesting is, i bumped into so many pple there. even Rafi was there. n ohhh my eyecandy!! he's there too.... in my next class... he's so cute la. dun see him ard at work anymore, transfer alrdy i think. tts an instant smile! hehe

bumped into an old fren. makin cute seh die. chat abit abt his band den i hv to go.

i went hm smiling... so happy!! yay... was supper hungry n i bought lots of snack n eat them all up in the bus!! bus ride nvr been so busy, i was like texting non-stop!! one msg aft another!!

yay!! Ven's coming back in a few hrs.... nt sure if she hv the energy to go out later. haha. hope she hv a good time there. miss her.

my aunt called to chat. love talking to her.

oh gosh! im sleepy + tired. but i gt lots to do.

im so excited for new year!!! which is not long later.'

2008 will be a busy year, i tink.

thinking back.... 2007 was a very quick year!

life hv its ups n down. i realised my temper is better. i dun get angry easily. much more calmer now. im contented n more appreciative towards everythin. i argue less with everyone... no bf mah! n esp with my parents, i dun argue with them. cant say im much more tolerant n patient.

2007.... i spent the most!! i cried the most!! alot alot alot. haha

but i sleep the least. i spent lesser time with family n friends.

2008??? its too early to say.

hope its a better year. will list down my new yr resolution soon.

i need to rush off. Happy New Year!!!

love love love

*muackz*

~~Love Zann~~

last day at work

today's my last day at work for the year!!
i can say its been a nice day...

finally, hv some time to catch up wif my dear Fana!! miss tt babe!!
walk ard causeway point n tampines central areas... its rainin heavily this evening
been snacking alot whole day.... n still hungry!! hmmm is tt a sign?
hmmm.... satay hotdogs r nice!!

Ir contact me after nt long ago. there's no means of me contacting him cos i delete his hp no, msn, friendster. yup i did all tt cos he gt me really pissed n mad! so the only way is, him contacting me.
hv to admit i miss him. doesnt matter if he doesnt feel the same way.
he wans to know how im doin now n if i picked up smoking lately so tt means he cares. "it will break my heart if u start smoking"
i dunno wats tt supposed to mean but he doesnt seem bother much after tt one long conversation we had. no other sms/calls/meetups. but the concern is much appreciated.
i tink i dun like the fact tt he text me cos its affecting me more now....
haiz... watever it is, i dun wanna cry anymore. which im nt! so its a gd sign :)
i jus wanna be happy...

im happy tt my relationship wif certain pple in my life is getting on fine, if not, better!!
im taking a step at a time. treasuring n appreciating the joy n happiness pple brought to me
to those who stayed by my side, to be there for me, to hear me out.. to love me... to make me smile... THANK YOU
im giving myself a chance to be happy. i've stop sufferring myself .
happy thoughts!!

hmmmm..... still no plans for countdown yet.
oh crap! i'll probably jus stay hm....

~~Love Zann~~

tiring....

ooooo..... who's tt?? my fav helmet... so cool.... best at nite
waiting for...... christmas ar??
i look so blue.... thx to the Jab's car blue lights
abg Bob's toyota Wish.. front seat again!!

Jab's subaru impreza
Lan's hyundai accent
Wati's & Aidi's Mazda
Abg Bob's Toyota Wish
Impreza cool interior

no pix of Abg Ipin n Cik Zainal's hyundai matrix.

haha.

i forgot its the weekends alrdy... the days seem to pass by so quickly
2 more days left for 2007!!!

i havent had sufficient rest/sleep...
really2 tired.
i had the "best" roster so far... aiyoohhh how bad cld it be?? its ok. im like watever. gasak kau la nk kasi aku ape!!


i'll make it short. go jb on thu nite aft work. dvd, eat, chill, pump petrol. ok go hm.
last trip, 6 cars. 2 Hyundai matrix, subaru impreza, mazda 3, hyundai accent, toyota wish.
cldnt make up my mind which car i wanna be in. supposedly Hyundai matrix but i chose Jab's Subaru Impreza cos i started with tt n ride on Toyota Wish home. fickle. hehe
Jab is crazy... like crazzieee!!! he spends over $2k jus for the new sporty-look bonnet cover jus recently. today, he told me he change to the new gold rims!
reach hm at ard 6am.


work up at 8am. chill. breakfast. den off to eastpoint for appt.
Dion is sighing n worried for my skin condition!!! yup its horrendous. ok exaggerating! nt tt bad la but still, bad. gt to start taking care. darnz! sign up for more sessions n bought facial products. wahhh so ex! nvm... hv to invest abit for beauty sake! haha
meet up wif sis on train n off to Expo for metro sale. Shop like crazy. den off to orchard for more shopping activities....cant believe movies r sold out so darn fast. skip on tt n move on to shopping. spend alot at watson's again!! only crazy gal like me spends almost $300 there!!
off to topshop, cotton on, forever 21 for more shopping. walk here n there. feet aching even when im in slippers!! *pain pain*
i guess im nt used to standing for so long!! work only requires me to sit. hehe.
carry all the stuff hm. hands burn out due to lots of stuff to carry.
snack here n there n supper at ljs. go hm, unpack, sleep.
work up early. go work. "best" roster ever. sweat alot. wash-up. rush to town. fana cldnt make it, go alone. heck!
more shopping. meet up with Fuzzy n go back to tamp. pasar mlm. snack. drop by sis's workplace. go hm. chat with dad, go online n sleeping soon.


oohh goodness!! spend too much. nvm, festive seasons, cant blame myself for it.
hv to stop by next yr!!

sis help with my laundry n changed the new bedsheet!! love her!!!
thanks dad for the cover!!! love it


~~Love Zann~~

SOS!!!

ok help needed!!
i feel so unkept now.
havent been taking care of my personal self n my room... my wardrobe! gosh... its horrendous!!

pimples starts popping up... arrgghhh!!
i need my beautician badly now!! Dion been tryin to get thru me but i jus in a fuck-up state to bother n make appointments.
so i called her earlier n she said slots r full den when she ask for my name, instantly, she said, "Azizan!!! Dion here!!! u busy huh?? working on full shifts lately?? ok ok tmr 11.30am ok."
hehehe... wahhh feel so priviledged!!

my hair need some tender loving care too... some treatment will help!!
dunno when i'll find time to fix appointment with my hairstylist.... but he's kinda irritating la, keep asking me to go for ceramic perms! gosh... i dun hv time to take care of curls la... plus im always tie up my hair. im still keeping the perms in mind though! they're really cute..

pedicure. still looks gd. but need to mantain it.
only hv time for appt next yr..

health. gosh! im feeding myself rubbish n junks all the time!!
have to stop somewhere. nxt year la....need to change eating habits completely!!
craving r really strong n irritating la!!
i can see the sun lately, no reason not to run alrdy. ok... nxt year!! :)

gosh.... i sound like some tai-tai. hahaha!!
no harm pampering myself!!

ohhhh i hv pple i dunno calling me up lately. those, frens of frens introducin me kind of!
really irritating!! dun mean to be rude but guys, ur moving too fast!! mcm desperate!
friendship is all i want, no more.
dun let me find out whoever my frens who gave/pass my number to them!!! im gonna be mad.
i hv 3 such persons now. it betta stop here.
~~Love Zann~~

so this is Christmas

Merry Christmas!! ho ho ho...
its christmas!! parents went to malacca, siblings working, im hm alone
hahhaa i shd be sleeping soon....

woahhhh!!! nite shift finally over....
shitty roster.... my breaks taken up again for 2 days in a row!
no time to sleep.... nvm....
lucky i gt nice partners :)

i met so many pple i know....
the awkward one was Fred n Iffah.... was suprised to see them... with his new car.
we're nt even talking, i jus smiled. she doesnt look pleased to see me, like making faces. dunno if she's annoyed by the jam or anythin else la. he seem paisey of her reaction. awkward!! we both jus smiled at each other. nt a single word.
but the sweet thing is, he sms me to apologise. nice guy :)
suddenly recall the memories we shared, really sweet but... no, it didnt happen. my decision. no regrets.

yest was christmas eve!!! Fana n me were singging christmas songs n irrirates Dila all the way. haha. she's boyfriend-less for so many days cos Burn in KL for holiday....
she calls us Santa's Elfs. hehe.

i hadnt seen fana for so long cos she's on long MC. nite shifts r often draggy n makes us lazy. so to perk things up, Fana offered to pick me up by cab. best nye. hehe...
actually, was supposed to go work wif Fahmi but i miss Fana. hahhaa! he's kinda pissed cos he had to go work alone. ohhh recently, some kepo pple hv been talking abt us. heck it la. Fahmi is like a bro who looks after me, just like abg Ipin.

~~Love Zann~~

pix of me now....

Ayul... the little rascal....
she's strangling me... urgghh... tts my lil monster!
purple
art. newspaper/magazine design inspirised.
the cool bed
ayul. boyboy. kak ijan.
chilling
alla. lynney. zann
wind blows my hair

my new Playerz Girl jacket. artistic.
caught in the moment
pretty purple pedicure!!!
hey!! gimme back my stuff. my lil monster took my hp away.
nerdy me in specs.

sipping a drink on a hot day!




so basically..... i've gained alot of weight.
dun wanna reveal it. *paiseh*
maybe cant really see it in pictures cos i usually take pix in angles tt doesnt make me look fat.
im fat. urgh.

~~Love Zann~~

happy!!

im in happy mood!! :)

slamat hari raya haji!! this is late but i wanna say it anyway...
i get to eat my so-called seoul garden!! best nye....
i finally gt my sports shoe!! yay.... all my sports items cos me so much so i better start working out next year!! after the rainy seasons tt it!!

been happy lately... finally!!!
been meeting up with lots of pple.... busy busy
im on leave yest n was kinda upsed tt i cldnt make the KL trip... haiz... nvm... i enjoyed my day....

went to JB with Jannah n Fara on friday nite.... bought DVDs n stuff... so happy to finally hv time to go out with my batchmates fm Team Charlie!!
reach hm close to 3am... was supposed to meet up with San sometime ard 3am but i went hm too early n by the time he called n sms, im gone!! lala land!! hehehe....

den i had to work up early for JB again the nxt morning(yest), Zizz was already downstairs to pick me up when i hadnt even showed.... so fast game, i jus grab a dress!! the fastest n easiest stuff i cld find in my wardrobe! hahahaha
was supposed to go by bus but last min change of plan.... we ride all the way tt day!!
so we had breakfast n straighttaway went for the photo shoot... they all look good la.... lawa n handsome la!! :P
unfortunately for Zizz, after the whole photo session, the photographer told him tt they lost all the memory of his shots in the memory card!! wahhhh screwed up.... he's pissed seh!! so kecian.... lucky they did something to compensate him.... so sayang cos his frames r so nice n gorgeous!!
Faizal was being bossy n irritating seh.... cos he used to do freelance photographer n model... mcm2 ar his ideas n directions... but it was fun n funny in a way...
I bought this really nice black Playez Girls black sweater which i totally fall in love with at first sight. i dun even look at the price tag!! kinda ex but Zizz says its so me n shd jus get it!! which i did!! yay!!
i also bought a very pretty ipanema white/pink/gold slippers.... love at first sight hgain!!
we had nice dinner before we left
it rained quite heavily so we're drenched... n super2 cold.... thank goodness i bought sweater if not, i'll be freezing!!! the jam is pretty bad but luckily the bike zones r clear...
reached hm ard 10pm den changed n went again with Kak Reeina!! love her love her!!
i fell asleep sey... poor thing she had to wait for sometime before i realised she called. we went to Starbucks to chill n watch The National Treasure at Cathy!! nice movie... very engaging... it was 2 plus am but im still wide awake!!! oohh tt Riley guy is so cute!!!
den we had breakfast at Simpang!! best nye
we had special VIP service... haha... the only table left!! reach hm ard 6am.... i love my Kak Reeina so much!!

had lunch with Shaz today!! miss her so much!!
we did some shopping n chill out at Starbucks.... totally loving the company!!
catch up on life is so cool.... lots of laughters!!
cant wait for the next outing with her... shopping n maybe clubbing.... hopes she touch down on my off days!!!
spend so much today... aiyohhhh!! im so good at this!! spend spend spend

so basically, i had lots of fun... meeting up with pple!!! -big hugs-
im eating really2 quick as i type now.... i need to rush to work....
Fahmie shd be on the way to fetch me... hahaha im only on leave for awhile n he miss me already!! i hope roster for tonite will be a gd one....

im having lots of fun now...
i cant wait to make plans with so many pple....
im having lots of plans next year too... hope things work out well for me!!
im crosssing my fingers for better days ahead!!
i'll post up pix when im free again....

~~Love Zann~~

wat im doin so far? nothing much really

hmmm..... hadnt had time blogging

Hady Mirza won Asian Idol... congrats! Singapore Idol is the Asian Idol!!

alot of different response to tt but hey, he won! deal with it!! haha

Taufik Batisah is still my Idol..

i think im going deaf... hehe... keep blasting music!!

there seem to be something tt happened everyday at work...

oklah, at least, its nt so monotonous....

frens. we're like drifting apart now....

Mila taking Bob's car now... kinda miss her n our "bimboness"... haha, my bimbo partner!!

Fana is often MIA, sad tt she's sick n bothered. dun see much of her lately. im very worried. Dila is often nt ard ever since Burn trfrd.

alot of them slowly moving out to Airport.... its mixed feeling!! happy n sad... haiz

next year, most of the girls r getting married... one after another

so now, they busy doing OT n with the bf/fiance...

ohh i havent been doin OT for months, finance is really bad now. spend like crazy some more!! jus dun wanna worry too much la...

new staff keep coming in, didnt hv time to mingle ard... they're really quiet. plus, our locker room is different. maybe it takes time to warm up la eh. most of the time, before i introduce myself they sumhow alrdy knew abt me... dunno la... words go ard...

"so... ur tt Azizan??" yah yah... tts wld be me. hehe. im trying to be positive here, so, i'll take it as a compliment. :)

i've watched lots of movies lately... they r some which i really really wanna watch. anticipating..

hmmmm.... i wonder where do i find time to watch Alvin n the Chipmunk with Mila?? well, she promised. i didnt watch it cos of her.

i didnt watch The Golden Compass cos of Ir... n eventually he watch it w/o me. so i hope it wont repeat again. i usually gave in alot especially for pple who matters to me. i dun wanna pin too much hope.

kids. oh naughty kids. they're so cute. i see alot of them everyday at work. love them.

they always light up my day :)

each time i came across kids with cool name, i smile at the kid n call up their name n then look the parent. they really hv cool names!!!

i love it especially when their names starts with 'A'.... n usually its the whole family! i want my kids' names to all start with 'A'. i had it on my mind way back when i was 14, so yeah, tts before i joined service. speacking of which, i was looking thru my chopbox n i found a piece of paper wif all the names i wanted to name my children. hahha... those were the times i was happily in love. hehe.

yest was mixed emotions at work. i ran, i shouted, i scolded, i complained, i cried, i ignored, i whined, i passed sarcastic remarks.

all for different reasons all together. haha

so many events took place. lazy to elaborate.

Yam finally realised something's wrong n apologise. i dun tink she really gets it but the thing is, yes it still hurts, but she apologised. forgive n forget.

i keep buying cigarettes when i hate them. i keep buying bubble teas when i dun want it.

i keep buying snacks/junks/food at pasar malam for fun.

i keep eating shaker fries, mcspicy, filet, milkshakes n OCK cos im starting to get addicted to it. my daily breakfast are malay kuih at the mama shop. ohhh no!! wat the heck?? hahahha

supper is a must now!!! no supper, no sleep. yes, its tt bad.

maybe its jus the weather. cool n cozy n dunno wat else to do other than eat!!

i ballot for leave on new years' eve but i dunno wat to do.

i better go some place to party if not its such a waste!

no plans jus as yet... i hv a few in mind... pple did initate la but im keepin my options open

i miss my lil monster.... tt gal msg me everyday!! calls when she's bored. cute la!!

she wld msg me wat shifts n outlet she doin, her off days... customers, boss n sales of the day.

she's pampered!! i picked her up fm work. once, i rushed hm to get her sweater for her den rush to city hall to fetch her n all the way back hm to tamp.... hehehe da takde keje!! sweet kan?

hehehe... da mcm her bf lak!! but yeah, we're tt close! love her.

im planning alot for next year!! cant wait!!!

hope life will change. i only wish for the best.

~~Love Zann~~

i lost my glow

i realise tt i dun hv a temper anymore
i realise tt the small little things makes me feel happy n i felt contented
i realise i lost the drive, the motivation, the energy
living life the bo-chap way....
haiz..... wat the heck happen to me?? im a mess!!

i lose my glow too... was looking thru the old pix of mine
i know how much i love to take pix n how excited i will be to be taking them
now, things changed!! i still do love pix but its nt the same
i dun like the results of the pictures taken cos the smile, the pose, the meaning is different. its nt the same anymore... i lost my glow.. it hv to come fm within
even when i smile or when i truly am happy, i wasnt as happy as i was before...

i cant deny tt im still filled with pain, anger and disappointment...
i swayed away very easily... im very "simple" now, still stubborn though! heh.
the lack of disipline n self-love, self-drive, self-motivation is killing me....
i need someone. i need someone to help me. help me find myself again.
lost.
where do i get the energy n everythin else?
the search begins. no! maybe it never ever launch before.
tired. of everythin. wat is wrong wif me? feel like slapping myself.

aiyooohhh im so disorganised now. im no longer firm.
im never busy. i dun make plans or decisions. everythin is always last min.
cos im tired of being disappointed. tt things dun turn out the way it planned.
tt equates to "tak kuasa" or cant be bothered.
so everythin some pple come up to me, "so... tell me abt urself"
i'll go like, "wat do u wanna know?? u ask, i'll answer but i cant guarantee i'll be able to ans all ur qns" hehehe
no, im nt turning secrective now. i guess certain parts of my life is best kept discreet.

this is the avenue to express my feelings n views...
den again, u jus cant express everythin out...
still, im contented.
fm here, u'll know tt i wasnt happy. tt im a totally diff person fm the smiley, happy-go-lucky girl pple know me. well... everyone hv probs n issues. we cant escape tt.
somehow, i managed to project tt happy, unaffected by problems kind of image. shd i be given a choice, i wld want to hv pple ard me ALL the time!!! den i dun hv to sink back to the drive-less self-destruction mode.
pple plays an impt part. i wont cry, scream, shout when pple r ard.
so if i do, it means tt i totally lost it. i lost everythin tt i suddenly dun care, tt i couldnt control anymore, tt means i breakdown tt strong front i put up all the time. in order words, watever it is tt makes me cry, esp in public, must hv hurted alot tt i totally dun care abt my self-pride n surroundings. it means alot.

~~Love Zann~~

i manage to catch up with Ven yest... Yay!!
always love meeting up with her... she's full of fun n joy.... girl-talks, advices, fun ideas... hehehe
ohh man... its so cool to flying of to Austria!!!
im gonna miss her.... -hugs-
hmmphhh!! im holiday deprived!! yup tts wat i am...
i lack of activities in my life.... need tt holiday man... i need tt "time-out"

orchard is madness yest... full of pple.... starting to irritates me
i hv to q to get up the escalators... n it took a long time
i hv to wait very long to cross the damn road cos lost of pple n cars.... uuurrrghhh!!
thank goodness there's underpass.... no more crossing in orchard road alrdy!!!

bought sandals... yup mine n blue n her's green. yay!~!!
i swore i wont use tt other slippers to work wen i rained again.... hv to really thank Nanz for being my savior tt day... i had to really2 hold on to her yest!!!

i've listed out the places in wanna go for a holiday next year:
Perhentian island
KL
Phuket
Bali
Taiwan
Tioman
Brisbane

hahaha...nt sure if im goin for all.... but hopefully, i at least go to 3 listed places.

aiyyyaahhh... cant wait for the year to end.... a new begining for me!!
i cant wait for the rainy seasons to be over soon too!!
wanna skate real bad... miss ECP badly....
speaking of which, only one of my skate is pink, cos i ran out of markers.... hahaha

i miss Sis.... she's nt hm all the time
my lil monster has grown up n i dun really like it tt way...
going out seems so hard when we're both on shifts....

gosh, its been sometime we had family discussion or gathering.... im always missing...
n i hate tt.... dun even hv time to blanja the family
btw, bro ordered McDelivery tadi..... the best bro ever!! the only one actually.... hehe

im trying very hard to make life a joy.....
i dun wanna cry no more... need to be strong.... though i always manage to "appear" strong, i dun tink tts enuff... i need to be strong fm within....


~~Love Zann~~

woahhhh!! cant believe tt after i settled my stuff... im left tt much in my bank!
arrghhh....

so basically yest, i did my pedicure n sign up for packages... instant spending! heh
nvr trust a girly galwith money when it comes to luxuries,she'll jus jump in without a second thoughts...
i need to hv a shopping list so i wont buy tings i dun need..
i need a perfume... contact lenses... tops... pants... shoes... lots n lost of earrings/ear studs!
uurrgghhh i cant hv a list, cos it will nvr ends!! so i shall stop it here!!

haiz... i better pass my theory test.... the wait is killing me.... i had to book like 3-4mths before i get a slot!! so i better pass it if nt i'll hv to wait tt long for the next one...
but then again, im freaking lazy to study la

~~Love Zann~~

its payday!!
i dun earn much but im smiling looking at the amt...

it was excitin yest aft shift.... cos everyone is looking forward to the atm...
had supper with the guys at Simpang bedok...
ate alot man... den they went to JB, i was jus so lazy to go...So a fren send me hm...

i guess the wait is exciting but there's no excitement now...
its like any other day...

its my off day n its 4plus pm... n im still here at hm
chilling... lazing ard...
haiz... everyone else hv gt plans... or working...
how boring can it be? family n galfren/boyfrens comes first....
anyway, they all might be back hm really late last nite n sleeping still!! hahaha

hmmmmm.... i need pedicure. maybe, i'll do jus tt!
haiya, lots of appointments. lazy to go.... urgghh!!
for now, gt lots of chores to do.

i come to realise tt im doing alot to mantain a friendship, the party at the other end doesnt seem to be doing anythin.
somehow, i dun mind be tt person.
i had a fight with a friend. tt person wasnt being a friend, felt like being treated like dirt.
maybe the friendship is not worth it. im still hurt. i gave up.


~~Love Zann~~

here i am... blogging again...

im very bothered by the fact tt my emotions r affecting me alot...
it drives me crazy....
i've learn to understand tt at the end of the day, wat im seeking is jus happiness...

i gt really really tired everyday cos i try so hard to project tt positive attitude, tt nothing happen, tt im fine... still the same ol' jovial, smiley me...
im very much affected by my personal issues yet i dun feel like telling anyone
yes, im a loser n failure in love.... a reason y i wldnt wana move forward too fast...
its like taking extra precautionary measures all the time.... azizan's like overprotecting herself n pushing everyone away....

maybe the fact tt there's still this inch in me tt still hopes n wants things to go back the way they are tt holds me back.
but tt hope was tarnish n it hurts real bad to find out tt there wasnt any hope at all in the first place...
i've express myself as much as i can.... in a way, i've already done my part... it was very hurtful to learn tt things dun always go your way but tt jus the way life is...

every night, i broke down n cry... its like punishing myself...
i hate myself for tt....
i think im worthy of something nicer.... i jus hv to keep being patient...

i realise i havent been taking good care of myself
i no longer care abt my pedicure, manicure.... i dun take care of my skin anymore...
my hair is in total mess.... i dun hv any self=restraint when it comes to spending or food intake...
i know all tt to stop, im still in the midst of keeping it under control....

looking at myself in the mirror.... i dun like the gal i see... she's weak...
i wanna open up abit.... slowly.... bringing up abit of the barriers i have...
i wanna feel good abt myself....
its time to have abit of fun....

~~Love Zann~~