my Lovely Weekends!!

as soon as i recovered fm my cramps n headache.... things hv been great!!
1 day MC feel so good!!
last fri was my offday... collect my new ppst... i will always looked funny in my ppst haha!! darnz!!! *haiya.. nt pretty all pix also nt nice... my IC is the worse!!*

so fri... went to MNG sale... so crowded... damn! the tops i wanted either dun hv the colour i want or my size!! crazy... so many L n XL n XXL!!!
me n sis chill at Lido Mac, we watch the soccer highlights there as we eat....
wanted to go out again but i had to work on Sat...

So i woke up at 6.30am on Sat n didnt sleep till 7pm on Sun!!!
k i go to work as usual on Sat.... turn up music at my workstation n talked, giggle n play alot!! well, its a Sat man!! big bosses nt ard.. muahahaha
oh btw i wore slippers to work[was late.. need to walked faster in flats] but i brought my heels along jus in case kena spot check!! heee

straight aft work, go to Bugis to meet up with Joyce[she flew back to SG during term break], Ven, Chingyi and Wendy.... gosh its been like a yr i last say them... yeah since graduation!! sat at Starbucks den go for dinner den walk to City Hall walking aimlessly.... we passed Chijmes, City Link Mall, Esplanade, Merlion n finally settled at BakerzInn[is tt how they spell it?] at One Fullerton for desserts.... wanted to stayed on longer but i gtg meet another Joyce

rush back all the way[in my heels] to Chijmes!!!!! wahhh sweat alot!!!
meet her at Raffles City Mall den procceed to Chijmes....
my gosh... OMG!!! so many pple there n so many TV n big screens for the match!!
so many angmoh there.. den two asian girls there seated.. gosh i hope we dun looked like SPG... eeuuwwww... but den again, we dun hv the features of SPGs.. hmmm is tt gd or bad??
anyway, the match is cool... but kinda obvious tt the German is a much stronger team... haha poor Ballack trying so hard to score a goal but to no avail... he attempted 9 times man!!

den joyce wanted to watch the nxt match at 3am n I didnt wanna go hm...
so we took a stroll down clarke quay n raffles place... jus keep walking till it started raining...
we den took cab to Bugis to her friends pub to watch the Argentina's match... can say the game was a lil boring at the end n the sofa is jus so good to sleep on so i doze off for awhile... gosh the game seem to last forever!!! they still got extra time as scores r 1-1. goodness....
everyone was so tired wen the game ended at ard 5++am... luckily Jimmy has a car n he drove us hm... along the way, Joyce gt hungry to we stopped at Mcd for breakfast.

reached hm bathe den meet Jimmy n Joyce downstairs[again] at 7++am...
we went to Sentosa!!!
[to be continued]

losing control

these days i been doing practically nothing...
so lethargic!! n so bored....[ohh tell me bout it!!]
oohh i've been eating like... like i was expecting n somemore the girl thing hadnt come....
muhahahahaa.....

so my parents r not ard this weekends... hehhee... hmmm
i shd go out n chil watch soccer match somewhere... haha

aiyoohh i spent so much these days.. my spending expenses is like doubled!! wat the heck happened to me?? sometimes i find myself trying to find myself... seems like im losing myself... losing control over everything!!! my emotions, my energy, my mind, my money, my appetite... urggghhh!!!
n where hv all m y energy gone to?? im getting lazy n tired so so so quickly....
im starting to hate all my clothes!! keep throwing things in my wardrobe....

i also dunno y i become uncontrollably emotional everytime b4 i go to bed...
n tt i will always wake up ard 3am-4am every night n 6.30am every morning automatically.... its jus weird.... n even so... i still rush for work cos of my slow movements n my lack of sleep!!
waking up at 3am is jus so scary..... sometimes i purposedly sleep past 3am so tt i wont wake up ard 3am again....

anyways.... World Cup is here... loving it....
watched matches at wee hours!!! its really tiring....

so envious at pple who can afford degree education!!! if only i can still continue study....
who says money isnt everything??!!!! yeah it isnt but i does make alot of difference ok....
i miss my frens... where ever u are.... hope u guys r safe n happy....

Where do I start??? Im LOST…

tired. mentally... thinking makes me so so tired.
i hate it when i had too much time alone.

anyway... updates!
- dad gotten really sick
- mum quits her job
- i was intensely pressurised by alot of other factors

azizan's a quiet person now. lamer too....
stubbornness is in my blood but im still a forgiving person
stronger, independent after all the hardship i went thru...

thank u those who took their time to talk to me, appreciated
eventually i went thru it myself... alone.... no one understands me better than myself…

life’s challenging, sometimes u win sometimes u lose…
losing may be a blessing in disguise or maybe my start of self-destruction but im takin the risk….
Life’s short, you cant waste it…. Go for it…
Time n situation has agree with me…..

At hm…. Im always considered the bad one… no matter hw I tried to make pple them think otherwise! I cant b bothered alrdy…. One day, pple will realize hw much they wronged me, hurted me, pained me….
Parents nagged n scold, yes, but for the right reason…. Always nt the case for me!! My siblings shd feel the different treatments I get…. Nevertheless, I remained the tolerant, quiet one….

my messy workstation 

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the show 

at SP vanda rm 

i love the architecture..... otw to d&d