revived now

blog's pretty stagnant now
lazy to type an entry la.....

anyway HTBC ended last wed!! so fast!! im missing it! cos i LOVE it!!
out G-Shrek Dikir Baratz is cool la... we won second on the combined overall points!!

weekends was great....
sat was relaxing(stress n frustrating initially la) den tiring n sun was great fun!
love it!!! gt my ear studs at bugis, long walks to esplanade n tt s'pore river boat ride....
im loving it..... anticipating a better weekend ahead!!

~~Love Zann~~

i dun wanna fight......

ohhh i hv to blog this down
tt day i came back fm camp, was happy tt the mess in my rm had been cleared!! yay!!
was touched tt mum hand-washed all my laundry!! WOW!!!
first time ever!!! n its hand-washed!! im so touched
i was rather pissed cos many of my stuff wen missing cos she went in n clean up my rm, she never touched any of my stuff ir ever bothered our room before....
haiz.. lost so many stuff.. shampoo, conditioner, hair treatments, creams, MAC lipgloss(i hadnt used them yet, jus bought it, hairbands n etc!!! arrrrggghhhh....

nvm, the fact tt she cleaned for me jus instantly make me so happy! :)
sorry.... i nvr had mother's love so im like this... hahaha
yest, i went hm really late n she's shouting real bad at me.... yes, my fault n i did apologise. i shd hv called earlier. Sorry everyone.... it wasnt intentional....

i told her nicely tt im matured enough to be thinking strainght n knew wats right n wrong. Told her i was stressed n pressurised. i sort of scolded her n questioned her cos she's starting to scream n accuse me of so many other stuff, i said to her nicely: "Do u know im in pain?? think about it..... Do u know i was stressed?? u nvr took noticed rite?? i dun wanna argue with u.... im sorry.... i got to go...."

i really hope one day..... hopefully im understood n at least hv tt little bit of love fm my parents...
im nt rude, i wasnt raised to be rude.... i dun wanna fight no more..... there's no use.
no way im letting my late grandpa(the one who brought me up) down by reacting stupidly....
Azizan's nt stupid or rude n she refused to be one.....

~~Love Zann~~

Some of the pix i manage to take

~~Love Zann~~

Book outz.... camp wasnt camp afterall....

jus bk out yest.... reached hm ard 8+pm....
hmmm..... camp was slack.. damn slack!! its like a resort!! hahaha
the main focus is UNITY.... work together as one.
played games, lectures aft lectures(damn tiring to sit down all the time), grp presentations n discussions, grp cheers, grp performance n etc....
we're the 4th HTA basic HT trg n the biggest grp so far at total strenght at 270 "students"
yup we're all called students at HTA.... kekekkeke

its so slack tt the other guys fm other agencies didnt like it, its too relaxing for them, they're so used to the physical trg they normally had...
SCDF guys fit seh!! the will hv their own trg aft the whole trg for the day ended for the rest of us.... wahhh so semangat!!

im in green team..... oklah, pple r nice!! the G-SHREK!!! mampos grp name lepakz! lol
nt much pix taken with grp.... hope they all send the pix to me soon...

OMG!! i cant believe almost everyone in the batch knew my name...
gosh in a gd or bad way im nt too sure... hahaha....
i know alot pple hv been looking smiley n asking bout me. i heard my name been called up.... its an awkward feeling!
jus gt to know fm a fren yest tt they all thought im a materialistic girl!!
huh?? goodness.... me, materialistic? rumours going ard tt i gt these "standards" so those pple who wants to get to know me need to hv trpt n all tt la... i always thought im simple.
i kept thinking y.... then i heard cos i had so many pdts/creams/stuff like victoria secrets n all tt.... ohhh jus grow up ah. hmph! must hv been the girls bunk la.... no wonder i had weird stares fm some of them. sori i dun/nvr demand attention.... i jus stand out tts all. too bad la...

oh yah... yest went to the SCDF's bbq pit, kinda awkward la cos im the only one fm ICA...
Devi invited n said, "if ur my fren, you better come....." haha! cute la... if nt, on Monday, she's nt gonna wake me up... kekeke sia these SCDF pple....
Yam, cldnt make it at last min.... but oklah, i still can socialise with them...
hahahaa.... again, no pix taken.... hmmmm....

i feel so old cos some of them were younger than me....
the gd thing is, they all thought i was younger.... but the bad thing is, its a fact tt im old-er :(

~~Love Zann~~

tiring....

im mentally exhausted....
past few days hv been tiring when all i hv to do is eat, study, eat(teabreak), study, eat(lunch), study, eat(teabreak), study, go hm, eat, watch tv, sleep..... n the cycle go on....

total travelling time: approx 4.5hrs
total travelling exp: approx $6/day
total overall exp: approx $12/day
total sleeping time: approx 5.5hrs/day

tmr is the start of my 10-days basic combined home team training...
cool!! back to camping days..... haha....
great i can save money n time!!
looking forward to socialising!! i still dunno my own batch's names aft 5 days on course(schedule so tight, no time to socialise).... now, hv to know other pple fm prisons, police, civil defense, cmb n other ICA batch!!

tmr book-in time at 8.15am. shit tts freaking early!!!!
haiz. hopefully dun hv to do 5bx tmr. :P i'll be IC on tues!!
k... need to do last min shopping...

~~Love Zann~~

some pix at HTA

~~Love Zann~~

Training... training....

Ok..... didnt managed to blog an entry yest!!! was tired la.. no time
Home Team Academy!!!!!! wahahahahhaa kinda cool huh.... combined academy for all under Ministry of Home Affairs namely, Police, Prisons, ICA and Civil Defense. BLUE uniform rocks!!! haha
the place is new n wasnt as huge as i thought it wld be like!!

Short notes on wat happened:

8 Jan 2006
- didnt sleep n woke up at 4.45am, left hm at 6am, reach boon lay at 7.25am, meet hairul at 7.45am, took bus to HTA n reached at 8.15am when it starts only at 9am!! lol
- brief intro n welcome address, brief intro... 33 pax in my batch 09!
- uniform fitting n measurements!!! i opt for both pants n skirts!! yay
- proceed to our classroom 3-38 for lessons!! lecture notes 448 page thick!! urgghh
- lessons aft lessons!!!

9 Jan 2006
- came ard 2mins late. gotta improve on timing!!
- interesting lecture n lesson(kinda confusing though!)..... tea breaks.... lectures... lunch.... hands-on... lesson on laws (ohh so stressful).. tea breaks.... law again

10 Jan 2006
- went to HTA with Yam, late!!
- took the same lift with the trainers for the day!! Nvr knew they were trainers!
- highly confidential modules…. Very important lessons today! Somehow its so hard to learn fast
- hands-on lessons were a lot tough than anyone thought!!
- lessons ended early!! yay urgghhhh the pace is damn fast n i cant seem to focus in class!

dammit.... its been sometime i last study anyway.... my brain jus wanna switch off! n i know im nt the only one!! hahahahaa.....the officers were going thru lessons so damn fast!! crash course la, no choice. gt test soon too!!

i NEED TO CATCH UP SOON. kinda lost. im so looking forward to every tea breaks!! yum yum.... FREE QUICK BITES!!! so far, we had 3 diff mini rolls, muffins, soon kueh, choc eclairs, fried popiah, crab claws, cream puffs, fried fishcakes!! hot tea/coffee provided.... hmmm i wonder wats for tmr's tea breaks!!!lunch at one expense though!! :( nxt week, hv to stay in camp for 10days... boo hoo!!combined hm team basic training... ok im so dead!!!!! arrggghhh

Was suprised to hear my name being called out, "Azizan!!!" OMG... im totally clueless, i honestly do not recall who she is. Hahahaha. She told me she's Is gf.... wahhh she can rem me seh!! tts like so long ago n we only meet a few times. She's 2 batches before me so she’s graduating soon!!! :)

im excited to find out tt Yam was in my same batch!! Kak Farah too!! woohoo..... small world huh?ok, rite now, the girls r getting along pretty well.... havent had time to mingle ard with the rest yet... no time la, everythin is rushy-rushy!!nvm, nt worried bout it, the stay-in period will take care of the bond-building thingy....

actually im getting pretty tired!!! its exhausting waking up damn early + long journeys + lessons after lessons + information overload + late nite sleep!!!!

ok.... here's some pix......

Don't Forget Bout Us

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
My baby boy...

[Verse 1]
Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
It'd be like that baby

[Bridge 1]
Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
And don't forget about

[Chorus]
Late nights, playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and
I can see it in your eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

[Verse 2]
Oh they say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't forget it
How good we used to get it

[Bridge 2]
There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

[Chorus]

[Rap]
And if she's got your head all messed up now
That's the trickery
She'll wanna have like you know how this lovin' used to be
I bet she can't do like me
She'll never be MC

Baby don't you, don't you forget about us

[Chorus x2]

Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go
No baby, no baby, no baby no
Don't baby, don't baby, don't let it go

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

[End]

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Hmmm....

Nothing can compare to first true love??

~~Love Zann~~

Finally watched Death Note 2

yay! i finally watched DEATH NOTE 2!!!!

its 2.5hrs long man!!!!! well worth it man!!
i dun care wat others think but i simply love it.... enjoyed it!
love the twist n turns!! interesting n clever storyline.... i like!
ok, put aside the very animated "god of death".... its a gd movie....
u need to catch part one to understand part 2 though. i was satisfied with the ending...
its sad tt the 2 geniuses, Light n Ryuzaki, hv to die in the end though :(

its also my first time watching a movie at Cathy Cineplex...
nice, comfy seats.
my treat! i wanted to watch it so badly!!

had the new black pepper beef burger at mcd! ohh love it!
meet up with Ariffian n Soffian after movie... kinda cool to chat with them...
had bk later, been eating fastfood n nasi lemak(mornings!) back to back these days.... wat a perfect formula to gain weight!!

something funny happened on the way back hm.... hahhaa
hmmm..... do i really look in between chinese n malay? haha.... do i look tt young??
hahaha... had a good laugh at tt 18 yr old boy who's mengatal! hahaha

~~Love Zann~~

relief!!

im happy, satisfied n relieved!!! phew!
i knew i was right fm the start.... i knew he jus want the "easy-way-out"
n its gd tt he finally realised n regret it now
Yay!! my job's done. i brought him back to EARTH. lol
it really pays to be patient, strong, thick-skinned... yes! thick-skinned.
so many harsh n brutal words were said to me n constantly hurt me over n over again! sometimes, when u care bout someone so much, u'll lend a hand wen when u know u wont get anythin in return....


~~Love Zann~~

im gonna miss work......

~~Love Zann~~

Last Day at Work

Today, 4Jan07 is my official last day of work in Teletech.
Mixed feelings….. haiz…

Didn’t do anytin much today…..
Just chat, shred papers, shred more papers, slack, slack, chat, chat, chat!
Kinda bored cos nothing to do, no targets to hit….. n time passes by so slowly!!
Yest, i only did half of wat im supposed to do....
Kak Reeina came to office with lil Wafiqah jus to meet me on my last day…. N Marl too!! Awwww so sweet!!!! *hugs*

Im gonna miss the office so much…. I wont have an office or a permanent desk anymore! Sigh!!!
Im gonna miss the fun colleagues, the chatting, the snacking, the laughters, the playful times!!

I didn’t get 2 mths bonus cos I didn’t stay till the end… haiz…. It upsets me so much!
New job requires me to work on shifts… nvm, lets take it….
Not sure if I made the right decision but I dun wanna regret anyway…. Looking forward to my new job!!!
Training starts Monday, 8Jan07! N tts next Monday…. Jus a few days rest for me!
The best part is….. training location is in Choa Chu Kang!!! Urgghhh!!
I have to wake up like ard 5am n leave hm ard 6am. Arrrggghhhh….. me n waking up early doesn’t go hand in hand!! Dammit!!
Nvm la…. I’ll have to get used to it….. very excited for training to start!!


~~Love Zann~~

2007 Resolution

i dunno if im getting deaf or is my reaction slower these days
i keep getting missed calls time n time again
tired of it la.... y didnt i heard it?
maybe cos i jus couldnt be bother n left my hp one side i guess!
private number is the most irritating ones!!!

oh btw, i drop my hp for 3 times alrdy!!
n my plastic casing alrdy broke..... yeah yeah im the ganas type....
watever....

was pondering over certain issues.... again!
makes me break down n cry.....
chocolates are my estacy yet again!!! been eating alot of those

hmmmm i missed 2 mths bonus by merely a week! tts such a waste
maybe mmg takde rezeki.... ape le buat?
watever it is, i dun wanna regret anythin....

ok.... resolutions... resolutions.... resolutions!
- be punctual at all times
- better sleep at nitez
- take care of my hair *yes, Joyce hv been telling me to condition my hair*
- take care of my skin.... need to follow the 3-step regime:cleans, tone, moisturise *gosh! im so lazy*
- stop snacking
- improve on my stamina n tone up, stay fit. gosh i want abs!! hahaha
- find happiness

hmmm..... achievable?? i guess so....

haiz..... im so not ready for the dating game yet!!
y do guys come in all at the wrong time?? stop asking la.....
sorry i wont call/sms for now.....


~~Love Zann~~

Happy New Year

Its the NEW YEAR..... Welcome 2007!!

Hari raya haji was full of food.... i ate like 5 times.... 6 if u consider bbq n steamboat as one too!
was bloating so much, i felt like vomitting!!
so ok la, its the first time we had it at my place.... our small lil hse
there's one point in time whereby the hse was fully packed with pple.... too crowded
somethings went wrong..... no dvd to play kak fizah's wedding video or photo
microphone set were spoilt so no kareoke session.... poor thing!!

countdown was fun.... spraying at pple whom u dun even know rocks
we bought a total of 6 spray cans!! green, pink, yellow, blue, purple and red
foams n spray cans everywhere!!! its madness!! we sprayed den act innocent!! hahaha
there's these 3 malay kids who keep spraying foam at us... esp me
tt small gal came up to me n sprayed foam like 15cm away fm my face!!! argghhhh u lil rascal....
wahhh my hair was filled with alot of diff colours n foams.... it was pure fun!!

aft tt was... erm... nt so fun...
finally gt in the main arena aft finishing our spray cans...
they played like techno all the way... OMG!!
pple there mostly family, mats, kids n teen below 21..... hahaha

when i reach hm it got worse!
gt an sms fm someone saying tt im heartless.... wow wat a nice way to start off my new year
couldnt sleep thereafter thinking bout it....
slept ard 4am

woke up ard 7am.... mind blogging again....
i wasnt happy.... i was still sad over so many things....
was thinking so much today..... cried for awhile.... broke down again
hurted. pained. heartached. teared. ouch.
its the new year..... i've gt to get it together

haiz.... no mood to jot down my resolutions for now
will do it later....


~~Love Zann~~