COUCH POTATO!!!!

omigosh .. omigosh ... omigosh
i cant imagine how i spend my weekends!!!
ohhh dear!!! the entire 2 days are spent with eyes glued to my big tv screen n butt stuck on my sofa n mouth continuously munching something!!
im a true blue couch potato.. no kidding!!! I HAVE FOOD DELIVERED TO ME ALL THE TIME!!!
Bro bought food for me, mum as well as dad....
goodness.... i honestly do not move ard... not even in my hse, jus stuck to my sofa!!!
i didnt even stepped out of the hse at all for more than 48hrs!!!!
unbelievable.... pple ard me pamper me too much i got very very lazy....

i chat with Esli while im supposed to be working.... wahahahhaa.... we were discussing on the holiday destination.... hmmm.... where will we end up in sept 2006?? which countries? which city?? its all a mystery yet to be unveil..... cheh!!! wahahahaa....
im jus fine with anywhere where there's beautiful, friendly, nice pple, scenic landscape.... some fun of cos!! i would love some adventure too....
oh wow.... cant wait.... time to save money.....

tiring week...

wow.. its finally weekends again!!! im jus so so tired...
after work.. i went all the way fm tamp to town, city hall n bugis on various days... super tiring!!

i got a christmas gift fm Ven... yum yum choc!! *winks*
i didnt participate in gift xchange at work cos i always forgot bout it... so no presents for me!! yest, we had christmas feast at work.... wow.. pastas, ice cream log cakes, puff eclairs, cakes, brownies, chicken, baked stuff turkey, satays n lots more.... the food run out so fast!! n its catered by Rasel Fusion catering... hahaha i used to do a project bout tt company in poly!! its all halal btw...

oh yah, Ir's bday went alrite.. i spent alot... almost half my monthly pay.... wow.... next month really gotta cut down on the expenses!! i shd be like Ven.... start planning/saving up for our travel plans....
ohhh he left for Thailand, hope he had a great time there!! he didnt call/sms me yet.. hmph!! im so used to his absence alrdy, so its alright, im not worried/upset/expecting anything.. plus he didnt hv roaming services...
its funny cos looking back... i miss him so much during his army trg days or when he left for brunei n taiwan, now its like so normal.... Yay!! at least i dun feel so shitty.... haahaha. But of cos, i still love my baby so so so so much!!!

oh i tried sheesha again.. no thanks man!! i dun like it.. i always get that charcoal taste!! will not have it again.. tt thing always makes me cough!!! sheeda, esliza n shahira la so persistent.. i told them i DUN SHEESHA!! im an anti-smoker btw... but i hv alot of smoker frens.. so contradicting!! tt day, was supposed to meet up with Jo, but last min, he had to fly to japan to replace her colleague who supposedly guiding a tour group. ish she has been to free trips to Japan alrdy seh!! making me so envious.... i wanna be a travel agent.. one day...

im getting so lazy to work these days, there's NEVER a mth tt i dun take MC or leave w/o pay... ouch.. the pay cut!!! i dunno y im jus so lazy... ohhh i dun like doing fax/mail corr la.... can i go back to the phone?? i love to talk... wahahahaa...

dad came back fm Langkawi with alot of stuff... normal malay 'kerepiks' n watever stuff la.. then, he go Batam n came back with alot more stuff!! wah so many things at my hse... n i dun like it..
Dad keeps going on holidays... i think he's retiring.. but at 50?? haiz... he also like tired to work... cant blame him la... mum wanted to quit too... wow... its pressurising if they decides to retire... Our bills are way way high!!

i need a travel gateaway.... where to?? i dunno... feel like going to Asian countries.. i love Asia!!!
maybe Cebu/Manila.... or HongKong for the disneyland.. or Bali... or Ko Samui/Bangkok.. redang/tioman... hmmm i dunno... i know i dun wanna go japan or korea....
but of cos, only when they cfm me la.... wow... i cant afford the paycut alrdy to take long leave w/o pay... ouch ouch ouch!!

anyways, Merry Christmas to all....

im looking looking down at the past pix... 

wacky.... crazy pple 

woah.. i love the curls.... done at my cuz's workplace at shunji matso.. woohoo... 

shopping baby... 

i did this on my last day... hahaha yaya.. soooo "welcoming" .... 

as well as tutorial lessons in class.... 

missing the lectures.... 

miss them!! 

i must admit tt i miss this workplace as well... those i hate working there.... haiz EWET!!  

Ok... snap shot by Troy again... missing my old job alrdy... the pple rather!! 

My workstation... so messy.... Troy's seat behind me  

my kuya, sherwin, workstation at singtel... gosh i miss him... 

my workstation during attachment in EWET.... 

i like my table setting.... raya 2004 

compressed face 

messy hair 

i miss my colleagues at singtel.... great bunch of pple!! 

my mommy's hand... haha... she tried so many diff nail colour at the store... i like her purple butterfly ring cos i choose them for her.. heh! 

the pic is so nice.... n i love my drink with lotsa lotsa ice..... 

have a drink 

i have pple telling me i look abit like fauziah ahmad daud... really meh? i dun see the significance.... 

hehe... i brought my own pillow even when i travel... 

wee... i fly!! 

the toilet is nice 

so cubby... 

my specky red spec... 

my hair is crazy.. sometimes curl, some time wavr.. this one is straight w/o rebonding.. good hair day... 

solace 

i look like a small kid...  

my fav bottle in which i dun use anymore.. hahaha 

chiak 

i wanna go sentosa.. i wanna go sentosa... i wanna go!! 

my beloved sister... 

Yeah.. Yeah!!!

yeah i made it... hehehe..
i passed both tests on my first trial n made my jumpstart to Program support...
but somehow, i dun really feel happy bout it... im gonna miss talking to pple on the fone...
well... new challenges up ahead of me....

so many pple taking bout switching jobs... i wanted to do so too but i really didnt wanna leave till i have at least 6mths experience. friends has been asking, "r u gonna stay long?" hmmm wanted to, but i know i can handle this stress... anyway i wanted it so much i sort of get Esli's help to go about the application of this position. As wat i always tell pple, "im not gonna stay long but i wanna stay at least 1 year here, if not 6mths.. for the experience, n im not gonna give up bcos of stress... i treat this as my sch attachment back in sch time" hmmm... attachment!! Esli shd know wat hell is in EWET! Right Esli??
My mum has been my motivator to move on n continue, Dad is the opposite, asking me to leave asap, hahhahaa!! so contrasting seh... but i hv things planned out for myself too... i wanted to be a travel agent/guide aft this or probably do marketing.... wanna try so many things out!!

oh btw, Danni won Survivor.. smart gal! n my fav family, the Lins won Amaing race!!! Yay!! woohoo.... hahahaha...
Work is mentally exhausting.... im so so so tired each day.. haiz.... ouucchhh my eyes still hurts!!

Yest, was supposed to meet up with Syah, Noran n Widya n her baby gal but cxl last min!! sob!! Wed, was supposed to meet up with Joyce, Ven n Wendy but i was caught with alot of follow-ups at work n so i had to cxl tt as well! haiz... but jus now hang out n chill with my colleagues, Lina, Sofiah n Liza at Starbucks!! wah we always at starbucks!!! den eat BK.... mkn je tahu!!! oh Sofiah alrdy left the co. sob sob... who's next?
Ir's out fishing today n hang out with his friends these few days, while i do the same too.... haha!! For the first time, we had so much time but we didnt spend time 2gether.... he had the whole entire 2 weeks of leave but i've get went out with him... hahha... wait till his bday la!!

Anyway, i got so much to look forward this weekends n nxt wk!! Yay....
Sat is Ir's platoon BBQ n Azizan's n Ala's dayout together.. shopping it is!!! yay...
Sun is Ir's 21st bday n celebration
Mon-Tue is Ir's chalet n second celebration...
Next Wed, meet up with Ven, YY n Jo for Jo's belated bday celebration. i felt terribly horrible tt i missed out on her bday, we all did!! PUBLIC APOLOGY TO DEAR JOLYN!!! im sorry gal... we'll make it up on Wed k....
Thur Ir's flying off to Bangkok/pattaya with his NS frens, dunno if i got time to send him off to airport...
Esliza msg to meet up for sheesha nxt Thur..... hmmm i dun even smoke.. i dunno how to inhale sheesha la... but she's so persistant seh.... hopefully i make it!! i miss my sec sch friends, hv to make time for them n catch things up!!
Fri i chill or work la.... woah so jammed packed.... hahahaha

Hopefully this went off fine.... I cant wait for more exciting thimgs to come.... *smiles*

Im in my working mood again....

oohhh i FINALLY go to work today.... oklah work was alright, i need my working mood back...
i had my knowledge test today, im confident i'll pass it on 1st attempt!!
they all had it on wed, n only 1 passed.... so jus now they all took it again with me.
hmmm.... i hv to take another test before they trfr me to program support on 19dec05[if i passed la]. so cool... i love the challenge!! exciting.... thou shall never fail any tests given n pass on first attempts in watever i do!! Ceyyy... hahhaa.. so far i never fail any singtel's numerous test or any sch subjects before, so lets keep the records tt way....

pple r slowly going out of the company... haiz.. so demoralizing... my frens r leaving.. hmph! i dun wanna be left alone. i dun understand y pple give up half-way!!! at least give urself 6mths la..... gosh im gonna miss each one of them.

ok yest, I took a day off, i had breakfast at mcd n fried noodles. Ir got day off... so he came over... we all had alot of food at mcd... wow... really really alot... for myself... i had 2 burgers, 2 large fries, berrynice yogurt n 20pc nuggets. wow.... n tts jus for me alone!! Bro had teppanyaki upsized meal n mcwings n the list goes on. Bro's fren, Zaid slept over n he woke up super LATE!! ard 2pm... my gosh... he seem quite suprised at hw much we all eat!!! wahahahaha... well get used to it!! oh Zaid's also fm SP n he's fm my batch but i dunno him la. Bro asked, "eh zan, u all same batch den y he's still in sch" .... den i bluntly n instantenuosly replied, " cos he got 'sangkut' alot la tts y!!!" my gosh.... den my bro n Amir were looking at me n Zaid was laughing n said... "wooowww... tts like so straight in the face" hahaha... sori... wasnt trying to be mean.. im jus blunt, well he doesnt seem to mind... lol...

later Sis, Ir n me played aeroplane boardgame. Its sis's first attempt to play. so funny ar.... hahaha... we 'kick out' each other.... hahaha den we all eat rice n burgers again.... my gosh we're all fat pple now!!
ohh i get on the weighing scale n i actually weigh lighter, hw cld tt be?? maybe cos i lose all my muscle alrdy cos i hvnt been working out n gain fat instead!! haiz....

if only.. if only... im taller.... den i will do watever it takes to get into the police force or air stewarding... but since im not, jus forget it... im not going to train for it.. hahahhaa. oh congrats to shuzhen, she made it to be an SIA gal!! n to Sofiah, congrats on the interview, hopes she gets it!!

I DIED?!!??

so yest... me n sis we both ate alot... kinda bloated n im still hungry for more food... wahahaha.... my sis was like, "da la kak, mkn je... asyik2 mkn mkn, da mkn byk pe... nak gemuk ke?? besok sudah!!" wahahaha

i pass a travel agency n grab some special promo vacations brochures... i so wanna go on a holiday... the prices r so attractive!!! waohhh tempting...
last nite tv was great.. i was stuck siting at my sofa snacking on food, eyes glued to my big screen tv.

before i went off to bed, i was reading thru the brochures... then.... Esliza call up on my hp in a anxious tone... "ZAN!!!!!! HEY R U OK???.... where r u now?? u ok or not??" wahhh she really give me a fright.... its been some time since she last called me. den she told me she had a really terrible dream bout me... I WAS DEAD. ok WOW!!! tts freaky... i mean we're not tt close now she's dreaming bout me all of the sudden?? Y?? n her whole family n alot of our frens came visit me at my hse for the wake... n she really saw my body.... n the funny part was, i wasnt covered yet n tt i was smiling with eyes close n no one knew the cause of my death!!! F-R-E-A-K-Y!!! Y was i smiling?? hw can a person die with a smile?? so i freak out a lil, sms pple to find out wat it was but till now i still dunno....

i jus put aside the brochures, maybe its not the best time to travel.... but if its my time to go.. i hv to go...

i woke up this morning... feeling so tired... dunno y but very very tired.. didnt wanna wake up at all... my eyes r so hard to open, they're like glued closed but i dun recall ever crying last nite at all.. weird weird...
i dressed up slowly... no mood for work... on my way, i decide not to go work, go to mcd for breakfast n went hm... im so so tired... needed the rest i guess...
sms yy... she said, i needed "some zest in my life"... wow so true!!
so many things have been pulling me down, n i hv alot of negativity ard me... hvnt been in good mood for almost a month. i hv to work something out.... oh gosh!!!

BLearrrGGHHH!!!

ohhh weeee.... today's my off day!! i can wake up late but.... i still wake up early.. haiz...
i watch Amazing Race!! cool the finale gonna be so interesting... cant wait for next week...

oh i had sore eyes/eye infection tt hurts so bad n i look so weird...
i made a very bad mistake to come to work.... i told them i wannted to go hm... they wont allow n ask me to stay or get a replacement.. i couldnt find one n i really wanted to leave but they all not allowing me to.. saying tt they lack of manpower n high volume of calls....
i got emotional n broke down n cry... my gosh!!! i CRIED... so paiseh!! *blush*
only after i cried, they allowed me to go hm but insisted tt i get an MC for prove.... fUCK!!! u paid me lower than the doc's bill u wanna ask me to get MC?? i wld only get $30 if i work yest[it was ard 7pm alrdy]
i shdnt hv come, shd hv MIA but im jus being responsible to tell them.... so no more ms nice... i really dun feel like working anymore... slack me for all i care!!

back at hm... i watched tv with sis... so glad im hm... im jus so so tired... yeah yeah i get to watch tv.
n today's my off day... later wanna go out wif sis n go eat eat eat n window shopping or SHOPPING maybe!! wahahaha... till now, still indecisive where to go or wat to eat... wahahahahhahahhaa.......
feeling itchy.... its time to spend money n make myself happy.....

hse's so messy.. cant stand it.... nobody bothers.... i jus clean up abit la...
cant be too bothered too....
my eyes still hurts.... my heart also hurts to know tt my bf is drifting far away fm me.... now he doesnt even bother to apologise or be attentive to things i hv to say.... so frustrating.... i hv wasted so much tears tt doesnt seem to matter to him.... now he jus left me alone n only call me the next day cos according to him he didnt wanna talk to me when im emotional.... watever.... i know its true tt no matter wat he does when im angry, he will always be in the wrong... STILL.... i hate the NEW him.... arrgghh!!!