--**Zany Zany Zan**--: October 2005

stupid

i hate wat i did to my hair...
it was horrible...
regrets... full of regrets... i want my hair back the way it is...
but wats done cant be undone... period.

entry's pretty random

lazy. lazy. lazy. yest didnt go to work.. was so tired... i slept all the way!!
den i had a dream.. i went to work n receive a white envelope.. its a warning letter to ifm me tt they'll sack me if i continue not coming to work... haha.. instead of being scared n worried, i was overjoyed... haha.. crazy...
"u work only 2 times a week n u alrdy cant make it for one day, so only left tmr for u to work. wonder if tmr u can make it cos ur damn lazy gal..." i tot u myself...
i dun care bout the money la... i dun wanna work...
hari raye coming, i dun feel festive at all...

1 nov 2005 is my 3rd yr anniversary with dear Amir!!
we both had no plans.. haiz... same like last yr.. n its fasting mth also...
hmmm.. i hope to delay the ocassion.. im in a state of boredoom n takde mood n takde duit.
ir's busy with ns.. we rarely communicate cos he's doing field camp now, i dun get to see him...
i owe him a treat at Bali Thai n Delifrance Bistro!!!
stressed... this yr raye pun takde collection lagi.. aiyoo...

i read Ven blog.. awwww so sweet...
my r/s has been quiet for sometime as we're both busy... i hope we'll work somethin out..
ohh ven reminds me ir's friend, Darryl... remember Darryl, the humble rich boy who celebrate his 21st bday at fullerton?? he's one sweet guy...
long distance r/s with his gf[forgot her name]. they met at uni in the states. she still studying now cos she's only 1st yr when he's graduating yr. i think she's korean but she speaks with American slang, maybe she's an american. very friendly gal.
for his bday, she came all the way fm US to plan his bday party for him... awww...
for his commission ball, he travel all the way to US to fetch her to s'pore... once the ball is done... he send her back to US n came back to S'pore. we met him when we were viewing our photos at Peninsular[oh tt ugly photo!]... he's still taking pix at the studio.. he won sword of honour baybe!! of cos, takes alot of pix la...
awwww so sweet.. flight to US one-way is gruelling 14hrs non-stop or 17hrs with transit. rich pple spend money like tat... haha.. but he's a nice guy.. not arrogant at all...

i hope later i can convince my sis to go out with me... im damn bored.. wanna go out la.. orchard maybe!!
i wanna watch movies too... cant wait for november where all the movies are coming... im waiting...
Ir.. Ir.. i hope u can bk out.. cos baby, i miss ya!!
i hope this yr the guys r planning another raye gathering again jus like every yr... so far no progression yet.. maybe i shd be the one planning it?? i miss my sec sch friends.. been friends for 9yrs alrdy.. miss them so much!!
Ven's bday coming too..she plans to hv choc buffet at fullerton n later go to new asia bar... i wanted to be there for her... but its raye's weekends n im so so so broke! damn.. things arent going my way..
n everyday i get naggings fm daddy constantly reminding me not to do this n that.. gosh he obviously do not know wats the other gals are like outside.. im considered okay alrdy, u know!! bleargghh~~~

** peace out**

time flies.... so fast...

in bout a week time.. its Hari raye...
im still unprepared.. hse n rm in a mess!! i been busy lately.. with wat? i dun exactly know!
but i know i optimised my time... didnt really sleep well but i get to do things i wanna do.. shopping... shopping... spent time with Ir, Sis, my tv shows n other stuffs la...

been going to geylang bazaar regularly.. each visit will come back with alot of things... i spent too much! bout 300+ alrdy.. haiz... work den spent, no savings.. haiz!! bodoh!
next yr no more geylang bazaar alrdy, wonder wat its gonna be like nxt yr! sad...
i havent had the chance to break fast with mum... haiz... nvm, last day puase surely go geylang n stay up till 4am. hahaha!!
dis yr raye, dun think will give out cash yet... i hv enough jus for myself! i hope i wont be working on tt day... forget the overtime pay... I DUN WANNA WORK!!

Raye makes me reflect on the amount of sins towards my parents.. haiz... touching!! also reminds me of lontong, rendang, cookies, pineapple tarts n more!! wow...

work is scaring me... its like ur forced into a situation to survive on ur own.. so unprepared.. mmgt is crappy... everyone agrees. my colleagues all elder than me, i tot i wont fit in at first but they're all nice pple. when they start being cheeky, they say " hey lets not inculcate the bad things to this young innocent 21-yr old gal.." haha

oh btw i called mcd delivery last nite for breakfast to be delivered at 4.30am this morning!! hahaha... so cool to eat breakfast n getting someone to deliver to ur doorstep early in the morning!! hee~~ oh btw.. the rider came early.. i was still sleeping den my sis woke me up to ans the door. so i jus grab my sweater n open the door to receive my orders. wat i didnt realised was, i was wearing this mini shorts[in which i normally wore to sleep with my tank top] den it was so low tt my undies are shown... wahaaha.. embarrassing but heck... its early in the morning... breakfast's great... i got wat i wanted...