changes

im so t-i-r-e-d.
yes tired, very very tired.
emotionally, physically, mentally.
wish i cld jus run away... escape fm all the problems i hv
even for a short while, it will be well worth it.
n yes, some pple say, "the biggest problem is YOU, zann"

i've changed abit. quieter now. but i smile alot.
wats on the exterior may not potray my true self.
i dun really like the idea of socialising. im finding space for myself.
im tired of defending myself. i jus let others say wat the want.
im in my own world. adrift.
i like working cos it distracts me.
i hate working cos its meaningless, monotonous, mundane.
hate it when i hv to try so hard to remain focused.
im taking as much annual leave as i can.
i deserve a break. i deserve a holiday.

i want my energy back. i want my glow.
i want my good nite sleep.
i want to be pampared.
i want this mental n emotional distress to stop.

to those who keeps nagging n keep finding fault with me, stop it plz.
i may not react, it does mean acceptance. im jus tired of everythin.
calling me bimbo wont hurt me. i can be one at times. its nt even a prob.
i cant even be bothered to be bitchy nowadays, stop 'asking' me to be one cos i simply wont.

life with no direction n plans is so weird.
feel like resigning, for no reason.
i want MY time on my own.

dun feel like doing anythin except for sitting/lying down n staring into space with slow, good music plugged into my ears!!

im fine n will be fine. im jus an ordinary human with problems.
i need "Azizan's personal time alone"
say NO to overtime.

~~Love Zann~~