entry's a lil bout work in general

i kinda get tired lately....
been eating n sleeping ard alot lately...
there nvr seem to be enough rest.. or maybe, im jus so freaking lazy

i dunno y im feeling so stressed out now...
pimple keep popping up on my face!! dammitz
n i hate the fact tt im putting on more weight.... arrgghh!!
stop telling me tt my cheeks are chubbier n im getting rounder n flabby all over!!

i jus dun get it... y am i going in circles?? y r things so complicated??
wen something i really want/hope for is right there infront of me, i dun grab it!!!
instead, i take a step back n re-consider n in the end, i choose to run away fm it...
haiz...

i realised tt i've nvr wrote anythin here about my new job
hmmmmm..... ok....
so im working for almost 3mths alrdy.... still on training though
right now, im attached to woodlands chkpts for my OJT!!!
i cleared so many pple in one day alone!!! getting tired of looking at pple's face, verfying details n profiling them everyday... its pretty tiring!!!
i know they're tired but they dun hv to give me tt tired or grouchy face at my counter!! im tired too.....
this week is my last morning... thereafter, aftn shift all the way.. gonna suck man!!

anyway, these few days workload is pretty ok...
today was especially slack... i had so much time tt i kept drawing n scribling...
i even prepare my financial budget for nxt mth cos apparently, i went overbudget this mth!!!
talking bout finance... haiz... im such a failure.... i spent so much i cant withdraw cash anymore!! its crazyyy... really crazy.... i jus spend spend spend!!!!!
they pay me 2mths' pay in advance!!!! tts y im like so excited to receive so much!! haha
but i really do buy alot of stuff i need or want n dine....

ohhhh btw, my OJT is extended.... urrgghhhh!! darnz
i wanna go back to hta!!! den i'll get sat n sun off!!
i wont be able to meet the budget for our batch polo-t.... shit!!
the guys r gonna kill me n bug me for the polo t.... camne ni?? whr am i goin get cheap embroised printing??
hmmmmm i really hope kl trip is gonna happen!! some of the guys werent agreeable to it... haiz... its hard being the organiser when pple jus r so different n nt tt open.... y must i always be the one to organise things??? uurrgghhhh!!
no one hv the initiative la n they self-employed me to do it n expect me to announce n plan... ish ish... lazy pple!! nvm nvm....
i'll do it... i like it anyway..... :)

i think i kinda sleep alot these few days....
eat den immediately sleep... tts bad news.... im jus freaking tired these days!!!
i need to start exercising man... gosh i keep saying it but no actions done!
hahahahhahahaahahhaa

~~Love Zann~~