im frustrated

arrrgghhh... im frustrated at nyself....

really i hate myself...

keep feeling tired, sleepy n stupid...

dammit im always late for work...

when comes to work, there's plenty of things to do...

no time 4 projs n going out!! even had a hard time watchin TV prog

AAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fuck la.... wat the hell happen to me...

i fucking eat alot each day... like 5 times a day, n bloody alot each time!!! i seem to be enjoying spending money(alot!!) on food....

i get really frustrated n irritated after tat cos i spent too much money n keep putting on weight. Damn!!! Darnz....

hadnt done proj tt supposed to be handed up in 2 weeks...

hadnt done ITP projs.. infact all projs

hadnt been updating my logbook for 6weeks...

i got really frustrated cos i dun get any entertainment.. only radio in the morn b4 goin for work... im vexed.. im jus MAD!!! so freaking MAD at myself....

im in a stupid anger mood now...

im mad i didnt get to talk to Amir.... poor darling had to go for trg everyday n all i do is sleep n eat eat eat.... damn!! tummy getting bigger n bigger... im 5 mths pregnant now...

someone said something, "its gd tt ur bf accepts who u r"

yah tt may jus be a casual remarks but i took it in another way i guess.... my way is always the right way...

n im really slow in my work... eyesight deterioriating as well... Darnz...

i wanna be sick at this point... I wanna have a breakdown so i can rest...

Y cant i be sick now... i really NEEDED to be sick...

damn my body too good, i over-exerted myself with jus 6hrs of sleep everyday n focusing on work for damn 9hrs straight n still not sick yet....

all im feeling now is TIRED.. jus tired... but i still can amazing function like a healthy person... haiz... cant show signs tt im really really really worn out...

Blame it on the food i eat.. Too much energy already... may shd eat lesser... maybe it'll helps...

i need a breakdown.... a bad one... where's my migrane?? when is it coming again??

make tt a mental breakdown.. better still!!